#dayton posts

Into: pup play, cnc (fantasy only), degradation, praise, marking, corruption, dumbification, intox, monsterfucking

NOT Into: piss/scat/vomit, detrans, age play

Generally verse, tend to lean subby though.

Stayed the night with a friend for like technically a movie night. Awesome, cool. Got there, got snacks, went to like a seperate house on their families land. I'm being vague only because I don't want anyone to know just in case I have an irl finding my blog somehow.

We basically just talked and cuddled and she kept apologizing because she's normally not touchy and it was all very sweet and affectionate. And thats fine because I'm a sweet and affectionate guy and I like cuddling with her. And am I a little attracted to her? Yes. Would I say I'm in loblve with her in a way thats a little more than classic platonic? Yes.

But it was all fine until we're laying in bed together and talking in the dark, and I wanted to see her face so bad but there was no moon and I'm just waxing poetic now. But we ended up cuddling in bed too, and I don't know like how awake she was but I know that I wanted it and was like reaching and she seemed pretty like aware. Idk.

But this morning we kissed and at first it was just like, little face kisses. Which is all fine and cool. But then it was more like long kisses and she has two boyfriends. And she's talked about wanting to kiss her friends more and be more slutty but also implied that its not really possible. And she had briefly talked about wanting an "affair" and wishing she was single so she could experiment and yknow whatever. And she kept harping on how she could be so honest and open with me and how she loved me.

I dont want to be the reason someone cheats. And I kissed her too for sure. And I dont regret it because I was so warm and felt so loved and finally seeing her face in the morning was so lovely. And she said it was lovely but she wanted to leave it there, so maybe we never talk about it again, maybe it's just our little open secret, maybe she'll tell her boyfriend and it will be like allowed. Idk im conflicted and worried and I needed to get this off my chest.