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Paddy Mayne/Eoin McGonigal

Est. word count: 35-40K

Summary: Paddy is no stranger to anger or violence. Yet his world is turned upside down when he has to accept something darker lurks inside of him, a beast much more dangerous than anything he's ever faced before - but no less fond of Eoin than Paddy himself.

Every night, without fault, Eoin saunters over to Paddy's side of the tent, heedless to the lurch Paddy's heart gives every time and unaware of the danger he puts himself in every time he chooses Paddy's company. Every time Paddy fails to warn him.

More than once during the week he's opened his mouth, intent on asking Eoin to bunk with someone else for the foreseeable future, but then Eoin will turn to him, lips already curled in that bright smile of his — "Should we head to the shooting range, Paddy?"—, and Paddy can never find the strength to do it.

The readiness with which he bends to Eoin's will should frighten him. Yet, Paddy's blood runs cold for another reason; it is fond of Eoin, too. More than that, it craves Eoin's company with such primal need it drives Paddy mad, a pull stronger than gravity urging him to get ever closer to Eoin. Sitting next to him isn't enough, not when Paddy's mind buzzes with the need to bury his face in Eoin's neck, or when his fingers twitch to touch pale skin, and wipe the beads of sweat at Eoin's temple. Listening to him talk is torture when all Paddy can think of is how Eoin's words would feel against his skin.

Any semblance of distance is felt like a privation of something that the beast cannot live without — but the sensation of lack is so strong and runs so deep, Paddy cannot tell if it is it or him that suffers most from Eoin's absence.

10. Is there something from real life events you wished they had put in the show? And are there any events you would like to see in future seasons?

well there was this one guy (I want to say it was Bob Bennett) who knocked himself out during a jump and when he came back to he played his mouth organ all the way down and that's both the funniest and most badass thing I've ever heard. more focus on Bill would have been great too!! he was so crucial to the SAS and I feel like they just kind of forgot about him during later episodes :(

and for future seasons please for the love of god give us all the bird-related content ie. Johnny hooting like an owl and Reg angrily chasing pigeons please I NEED IT

12. Which character do you think you would get along with most in real life? And who would you not get along with at all?

I'm not going to say Jim because lbr everyone would get along with Jim lol but my family on my dad's side is full of rough grumpy men with hearts of gold so I actually genuinely think I'd get along with Reg??

Paddy Mayne/Eoin McGonigal

Est. word count: 13K

Later, at some point, Eoin is sure they will all sit back and have a good laugh at when Eoin woke up dead and tried to eat Ambrose.

"I won't hurt you," Eoin says quickly, holding his palms up to Paddy in a display of innocence. "Christ, nothing's changed, not really. I'm still me. I won't hurt you, I swear."

Paddy blinks. His thoughts come slow and sluggish. Did he believe Eoin would hurt him? Maybe, maybe not. For their entire friendship Paddy had known himself to be teetering on a precipice wherein Paddy could bark and snap and Eoin would indulge him, but always to a point. Paddy trusted Eoin, and none other, to know when to bring him to heel. Now, hearing Eoin swear off causing Paddy any harm sits uneasily on his shoulders. He thinks of staring down the barrel of Eoin's gun. He feels the phantom pressure of Eoin's hand at the scruff of his neck, pulling him out of countless brawls.

He fixes his eyes on the blood puckered in the dear corners of Eoin's mouth. Why not, he thinks, the hollow heart of him curdled and violent and aching, why not me?