#darkkou

              ' i take it you are the person i'm supposed to meet?                and a good afternoon to you. my name is heo nuri.                might i have your name, for the proper recording of                this meeting? '

     hands lifted to take the jacket from the youth's grip, a pleased glint in his hues as he took in the material. although he wanted to know how he had gotten it, he buried that thought for another time. turning within Kou's arms he slung the jacket over his shoulder before leaning in close to the other. a pang seared down his throat, red flashed before his mind, but eyes remained steady and behavior did not falter. "Let's go back... back just a couple miles, it's only a few minutes away; I want to show you something," he encouraged. he shouldn't be buying into this; he shouldn't even accept the gift. yet, here he was. succumbing to Kou's advances day after day, either announcing that he was 'going to be selfish' again and again or merely letting his walls down.

     Now they were walking one next to the other, in silence, close to each other but not too much, letting a few inches divide them. The sound of their footsteps was the only thing which broke the silence, till Irial finally spoke. "So, where are we exactly going?"

ച ℜ √v^√v^√v^———         the relaxant was working even before he lit the cigarette. the mere idea of having the death stick back in his possession was a relief. the clawing ache had been crawling its way back to the surface every passing second, making him feel more anxious than ever. he didn't know how much more time he had before he couldn't maintain the control he was portraying. putting on a show, a front; feigning before the youth in order to hold what little they had together. if one of them was falling apart, then the other had to hold sturdy. it would be tragic if the neither of them could stand. so like an equilibrium for each other, they weighed out their differences and pieced together what was missing, holding it until the other was temporarily secure. secure enough to not shatter into bits. however, Ramsey had no intentions of getting close to wavering again. he wanted to remain strong; he needed to. if he was going to find Kou a new home, it was going to take a little more than a push or a nudge to Kou; it was going to sap away his own stability.          but that's just how it had to be. it was his oath and he wasn't about to break it, despite seeing reasons that he shouldn't continue. the memory still burned brilliantly in his mind's eye. how that demonic eye had stared him right back, how he hadn't seen it but only the warmth that blazed beneath it. turning the wheel on the lighter a few times, Ramsey finally got the flame to glow. briefly, a grin tugged at the corner of his lips, the memory of that warmth. that's all he could see lately. the glow of the youth, staring back at him, emotions bouncing back and forth being reciprocated with unspoken words. he shook his head roughly, ridding of all the thoughts that swarmed his mind. right now, he needn't think. they were at a hotel now; Ramsey had stalled for another night but currently there was no one to converse with nor was he eager to when Kou's words still echoed in his mind.         "Ah'm having a smoke," he stated only after he already lit the cigarette. seated on the couch, eyes glued on nothing in particular as he remained lost in his thoughts. he didn't know what Kou was up to at the moment, he supposed either rummaging through the snacks they had gotten or something of the like.

of course, his texts hadn't gone through until just now. the whole mass of them compiling one after the other into Kou's phone.