#darkanoir

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It would be “Ich weiß nicht” in German, or how I would say it “Ick weeß nich” when my grandma’s side takes possession of my speech. 

A/N: oh man I could write a novel about nothing but these two doing the kissy ♥️

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날 꽉 잡아줘 

When he hears the familiar voice allow him into the bedchamber, Kibum’s breath falls a little short.

He barges in unceremoniously, caring naught for propriety when he balks at the sight before him. The chemise hanging loose from a stunned grip, the bare side shining golden in the light from the fireplace. The aurum eyes that turn sad, then cautious, then angry. The shake of a head that silently warns him, and the step backwards that quietly dismisses his presence. It is him. It really is him.

“Y-you…!” Kibum tries, and he doesn’t know what else he can say, then. What can he say to ask if this is real or simply a dream? A beautiful dream he would rather not open his eyes from–where Jonghyun has traveled the entire breadth of the desert to be here. To stand before him. To be so very close to him. 

“You,” he repeats, and this time the utterance is laden with every single drop of love within his being. Because this couldn’t be a dream. He walks closer and notices the dark remnants of coal on the other’s fingertips. He bridges the stretch between them and catches the warm, heady scent of soup and a hearth and quiet nights spent under heavy blankets. This is not a dream, his heart rejoices.

Jonghyun’s face turns accusatory with each step. “You left me,” he reminds the air. “You left and then… and you never came back, you never–” If he continues, he will break Kibum’s heart in return, so he is stopped. Silenced by a kiss. He lets out a lamenting sound, but his hands clutch at the kiss with desperation. He moves into it like he has been waiting to be kissed ever since they parted. He presses against it like he is under its spell, reeling him in inch by inch and beat by heartbeat. It is a cleverly constructed kiss, laden with enough affection to destroy Jonghyun’s doubts and kill his diffidence. 

Kibum’s arms are unrelenting when they hold them together, his lips are adamant when they move. “… you’re here,” he mumbles when they part for a moment, but he doesn’t want to say any more. He doesn’t want the kiss to end, doesn’t want to stop it for anything. Not even to catch his breath. 

“I’m here,” a teary Jonghyun agrees against his mouth.

불안한 세상에, 날 더 잡아줘

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Thank you SO much ;;;! 💖 I hope you’re doing well and staying safe too - always so nice to see you back on my dash 💖 *hugs back*

omg I am the worst and I didn’t see any of those movies! :O i’m curious about several of them though, especially little women, so i’ll have to change that at some point...

but as for movies i watched during 2019/2020, i gueeeeess

coco

a star is born

deadpool 2

black panther

...and i can’t even think of a fifth movie i watched in the past year for the first time and liked?? :O

the thing with me is that i don’t go to the movie theater like... ever. the closest one to me is a two hour drive away and i’m not willing to make that kind of commitment :’D so I only see movies once they’re on tv, when they’re super old obviously, or if they happen to be on netflix. soooo. 

of course!! 💖

1. what song makes you feel better?

uhmmm i answered this already but i wanna say something different haha. tbh one of the songs that always improves my mood is I am the best by 2ne1!

6. say three nice things about yourself (three physical and three non-physical).

oh gosh. i like my hair, and my eyebrows, and uhmmm i have strong nails lol. as for non-physical i... am very efficient. and creative. and uhm. easy to get along with!

12. how are you?

super super tired i’ve had the roughest week! but i’m also very hopeful? it seemed like such a gigantic amount of work a few days ago but now the most of it is behind me and it’s beginning to look like things’ll work out nicely :D

24. what’s something you do to de-stress?

uhmmm in addition to what i mentioned, i also crochet :3

30. what reminds you of home (doesn’t have to mean house… just things that remind you of the feeling of home)?

ohhhh... i guess my family? the people closest to me? but this is hard. i don’t associate home with anything very specific, i don’t think?

1. If you’re an author, how many WIPs do you currently have? (Be honest!)

20-ish. i’m not sure which ones to count bc some are more or less vague ideas instead of actual proper wips.

18. Do you have a fic reading/writing routine?

well. i wish :’D I read whatever I get my hands on lol like the desperate idiot that i am. and I agonize over writing much more than I actually write. even now i’ve been sitting here literally for four hours all “I wish i was writing :(” but then I... don’t. 

good question, that's what every italian wonders about tbh