$ log - dean winchester thought breaking up with you would have been very simple. however, he hadn't accounted for you plaguing his mind and your touch still reverently owning his body.
$ warn --nsfw --dark(mild) --dubcon --mean!gn!reader --dom!top!reader --sub!bot!dean --whiny!dean --intox(alc, nic, viagra) --begging(heavy) --orgasm-control(edging) --degradation --humiliation --semi-public --boot-riding --dacryphilia
$ wc -w 5.1k
$ cd masterlist / dean-winchester
# authors-note = this is actually just 5k words clean of dean crying and begging, no fucking joke.
# note = he misses you so bad. wow, he's so out of it though.
It started with the smallest things. A specific way youâd murmur his name against his neck, a particular rhythm of your hips, or the way your fingers would graze the small of his back during a quiet dinner.
You weren't just loving him; you were programming him. Every time he orgasmed, you ensured the sensation was tied inextricably to you â your scent, your specific touch, the exact cadence of your voice. You were building a cage out of pleasure, and Dean, in all his cocky, hunter glory, never even realised the bars were being installed.
Then came the inevitable. Dean was a man of appetites, and as much as he loved the heat of you, he eventually decided he needed more. It was the classic Winchester routine â the charm, the intensity, the sudden, suffocating need for "space" because he couldn't handle the weight of something real.Â
When he finally sat you down to tell you that he loved the sex, loved the "cute stuff," but just wasn't built for the settling part, you didn't cry. You didn't beg. You simply rolled your eyes, gave him a dry, knowing smile, and walked out the door.
You left him thinking he had won, unaware that you had left him with a body that was now a ticking time bomb.
Months later, the air at the party was thick with the scent of spilled bourbon and expensive perfume. You were navigating the crowd when a muffled, frustrated sound from a side hallway caught your attention.
Peeking around the corner, you saw him. Dean was pressed against the wall, a blonde girl practically climbing him, but the scene was far from the passionate encounter it should have been.
Instead, it was a comedy of errors. The blonde was hissing at him, her hands roaming over his chest with an impatient, aggressive energy that should have sent him over the edge. But Dean looked miserable. He was sweating, his face flushed with a mixture of booze and sheer, unadulterated frustration. Heâd taken enough nicotine and honey packs to jumpstart a dead engine, yet he remained stubbornly, agonisingly soft.
"Seriously, Dean? Is that it?" the girl scoffed, pulling away with a look of pure disdain. She didn't wait for an answer, just smoothed her skirt and trotted off back into the party, leaving him slumped against the wall in the shadows.
He let out a ragged, pathetic groan, his hands trembling as he tried to massage himself, desperate to force a reaction. Heâd taken quite literally everything the party had to offer â today marked your breakup anniversary in fact, not that heâd been keeping count. Anyways, tonight was the get lucky night. Unfortunately, his body was miles behind his mindâs decision.
And then, the Viagra finally hit his system with a sudden, heavy surge of blood that made his aching, heavy surge of blood that made his dick throb with violent intensity. It was a cruel irony; the medication was finally doing its job, forcing the blood into his veins, but his brain was still stuck in the void you had left behind. He was hard, but he was empty. He was aching, but he was unfulfilled.
His head lolled back to face the ceiling, a desperate, broken sound escaping his throat as he tried to find some semblance of relief. That was when his eyes drifted, scanning the hallway in a daze of frustration and lust, until they landed on you.
You were standing there, partially obscured by the shadows, watching the entire pathetic display with a dark, amused glint in your eyes. You didn't look heartbroken; you looked like a predator watching a wounded animal struggle in a trap of its own making.
As you began to turn, a slow, deliberate movement as if you were bored and ready to leave him to his misery, the air in the hallway seemed to vanish. You paused, glancing back over your shoulder with a slow grace.Â
The moment your eyes met his, the conditioning you had so meticulously woven into his very marrow snapped into place. It wasn't the alcohol, and it wasn't the honey pack; it was the sheer, overwhelming presence of the only person who held the key to his pleasure. As he watched you, his cock was already straining under his jeans, a rigid, aching state that demanded release.
"God, fuck â" he choked out, the sound a ragged, broken thing that tore through the quiet of the hallway. He didn't even try to hide the tremor in his voice, the usual gravelly charm replaced by a raw, unrefined desperation. He reached out a hand, fingers twitching as if he could somehow grab the very air you were moving through.
"Wait," he gasped, his eyes wide and glazed, searching for yours with a frantic starvation. "Don't â don't just â " He cut himself off with a sharp, pained intake of breath as a fresh wave of arousal, fueled by both the chemicals and the sheer sight of you, pulsed through him. "Please. Just â look at me, please â"
It was a whimper, a total surrender. The man who had faced down the literal Devil was now reduced to a begging mess. He looked broken, his pride discarded on the dirty floor of a hallway heâd once thought he could navigate with ease. The heavy desperation in his eyes was enough to make you want to laugh or perhaps just watch him suffer a little longer.Â
Dean shifted, his hips jerking forward involuntarily as the pressure in his groin became almost unbearable, a rigid, throbbing ache that demanded the very thing heâd once thought he could live without.
"I don't â it won't â" he stammered, his voice cracking as he gestured vaguely toward his lap, his face burning with a mix of lust and pure, humiliating shame. "It's just you. It's always fucking been you."
He was practically vibrating, his eyes locked onto yours as if you were the only source of oxygen in a room filled with smoke.Â
You didn't move toward him.
Instead, you leaned back slightly, a small, mocking tilt to your head as you watched him struggle. The sight of him â the legendary Winchester, reduced to a trembling, half hard mess in a dim hallway was far more entertaining than any conversation in the main room.
"We're not together, Dean," you cooed, your voice dripping with a sweetness that was entirely devoid of actual comfort. It was the tone you used for a wounded puppy, or a particularly dim witted child.
The effect was instantaneous. A low whine tore from his throat, a sound so raw and uninhibited it would have mortified him had he any dignity left. He looked like he was physically reeling from the rejection, his hands clutching at the wall behind him for support as his knees buckled slightly.
He didn't know what was killing him more â the heavy, artificial surge of the Viagra forcing blood into a cock that felt like it was about to burst, the dizzying haze of the bourbon and nicotine, or the sudden, violent resurfacing of every suppressed feeling heâd tried to bury after you walked out. The ache of his cock was nothing compared to the hollow, starving sensation in his chest â a gap that only your specific, devastating presence could fill.
"There's plenty of other fish in the sea at this party," you added, your eyes dancing with a dark amusement. You gestured vaguely toward the muffled music and the laughter spilling out from the main room, where he could find a distraction.
Another whine, longer and more pathetic than the last, vibrated through his chest. He looked absolutely wrecked, his eyes searching yours for even a shred of mercy, but all he found was that amused glint.
He was a man on the brink of a physical and emotional breakdown â his body demanding a satisfaction that only you could provide â and you were standing there, treating his desperation like a mild curiosity.
"Please, sweetheart," he choked out, his voice cracking as he took a stumbling step toward you, his hands reaching out blindly. "Don't â don't do this. Don't be like this. It fucking hurts."
He wasn't just talking about his cock â though the Viagra was making the sensation nearly unbearable, a heavy, pulsing pressure that made every movement a struggle. He was talking about the way his entire soul seemed to be leaning toward you, desperate to bridge the distance between you and him.
Dean was a man who had survived hell, faced down demons, and stared down the apocalypse, yet here he was, reduced to a whimpering mess by the mere sight of you. The substances were doing their heavy lifting, forcing his cock into an aching state that demanded release, but his mind was a frantic, starving thing, clawing at the memory of your touch to make sense of the sudden, violent surge of arousal.
He let out a shuddering breath, his eyes never leaving yours, his hips twitching in a desperate, involuntary attempt to find friction against his denim.Â
"Just â just a little," he pleaded, his voice dropping to a gravelly, humiliated whisper. "Anything. Just touch me â please, baby â itâs killing me."
"Go jack yourself off then," you said, rolling your eyes with a bored exhale.
You weren't just being difficult; you were being honest. You weren't enjoying the sight of him, not really, you were simply observing the wreckage of a man who had thought he could have his cake and eat it too.
But Dean couldn't do that.Â
He couldn't just reach into his jeans and âsolveâ the problem. Because for every single night since the breakup, every time heâd been alone in a motel room or a lonely bed, his hands had only ever worked if he was picturing you.
He had tried to move on with nameless girls and shallow flings, but his body had remained loyal to the ghost of your touch. He had conditioned himself to the point where his own hand felt like a stranger's, a pale imitation of the heat you used to provide. To touch himself was to realise, all over again, that he was starving. His brain was a frantic, looping reel of your scent, the curve of your waist, and the way you used to sound when you finally came.
The Viagra was forcing his cock into a rigid, punishing state, but without the mental trigger of you, it was just a heavy, throbbing ache that felt more like a curse than a pleasure.
He let out another whine, a low, raspy sound that seemed to vibrate from the very bottom of his lungs. He took a stumbling, desperate step closer, his eyes wide and bloodshot â looking less like a hunter and more like a man drowning in shallow water.
"I can't," he rasped, his voice breaking, thick with a raw need. He reached out, his fingers trembling as they hovered near your arm, not quite daring to touch you but desperate for any scrap of your warmth.Â
"It doesn't â it doesn't work without you," he confessed, the words tumbling out in a broken, shameful rush. He was practically vibrating, his hips jerking in a desperate, involuntary attempt to find some kind of friction against the denim of his jeans, but it was useless.
He looked utterly undone, as he let out a long, shuddering breath that sounded suspiciously like a sob. The man who could stare down the devil without blinking, was currently being brought to his knees by a memory and a handful of pills.
Soon, the heat became too much, a rhythmic throb that seemed to radiate from his very bones. Deanâs legs finally gave out, his knees hitting the floor with a heavy, unceremonious thud right in front of you. He looked up from the ground, a broken man at your feet, his face flushed and eyes swimming with a desperate, starving lust.
You didn't reach down to comfort him. Hell, you didn't even soften your expression. You simply stood there, looking down at him with a cool, detached enjoyment. The contrast was staggering; the person heâd known was all soft smiles, playful touches, and a warmth that made him feel like the center of the universe. Now, you were just a goddess looking down at a beggar.
"PleaseâŠ" he choked out, his voice a wrecked, gravelly mess. "Just a little â just a fucking touch, baby. Anything. I'm dying here."
You let him suffer for a moment longer, savouring the way his breath hitched in anticipation of a mercy that wasn't coming. Then, you decided to test just how deep your conditioning had sunk. Instead of reaching down with your hands, you shifted your weight, pressing the sharp, narrow tip of your shoe directly against the straining length of his cock through his jeans.
Deanâs entire body jolted as if heâd been struck by lightning. His eyes snapped shut, his jaw grinding so hard you could almost hear his teeth creak. "Oh, fuck," he gasped, his head lurching back onto his shoulders.
The sensation was agonisingly perfect â a concentrated point of pressure that sent a violent jolt of electricity straight to his brain.
He didn't even think; he just reacted, his body acting on undiluted instinct. He gave a few tentative, desperate hip jerks against the pressure of your shoe, his breath coming in short, jagged hitches. The sensation was so intense, so specifically you, that it felt like his brain was short circuiting.Â
"God, yes â right there â fuck me," he groaned, the sound vibrating deep in his chest.Â
The hesitation vanished, replaced by a frantic need. He began to grind his hips against your boot with the uninhibited fervour of a mutt, his movements heavy and rhythmic. His hands flew to your thighs, his fingers digging into the fabric of your outfit, clutching you as if you were the only thing keeping him from spinning off the edge of the world.
He was a mess of friction and frantic, heavy breathing, his face buried partially against your thigh as he chased the sensation of your heel.
"Don't stop â please, please, please â don't fucking stop," he whimpered, the words muffled against your skin.
Dean was grinding so hard now, his hips snapping forward in a desperate assault on your shoe, his entire existence narrowed down to that single point of contact. The Viagra made every nerve ending scream, and the conditioning made every sensation feel like a divine benediction.Â
He let out a long, guttural moan that turned into a strangled cry as he felt himself nearing the brink, his fingers bruising your thighs as he tried to pull you even closer, even tighter, as if he could merge his very soul with you once again.Â
"You're fucking killing me," he gasped, a broken, delirious laugh hitching in his throat. "Just â just a little more. Please, baby, please."
He was losing it, completely unmoored by the friction of your heel and the overwhelming psychological weight of your presence. Every time you pressed down, every time you shifted that sharp point of pressure, he felt like he was being branded. He was grinding his pelvis against your shoe with a frantic, rhythmic desperation, his breath coming in hot, ragged sobs against your skin.
He didn't care who heard him in the hallway; he didn't care about the party or his pride or the fact that he was literally begging a person who heâd dumped for a scrap of attention.
His hands tightened on your thighs, his knuckles white, his fingers digging into your flesh as if he were trying to anchor himself to reality. His arousal fell into a heavy, punishing weight â at this rate, it was going to tear him apart from the inside out.Â
He was a man possessed, driven by the terrifying realisation that he was no longer in control of his own pleasure â you were. Every frantic thrust of his hips, every guttural, broken moan that spilled from his lips, was a testament to the invisible leash you had wrapped around his soul. He was drowning in you, and as the pressure of your boot intensified, he could feel the world beginning to fracture, leaving nothing behind but the desperate, starving ache of a man who finally understood that he had never truly been free.
You didn't pull away. Instead, you leaned into the cruelty, pressing your heel even harder, grinding the sharp point into the center of his heat. You watched him with a predatory, half lidded gaze, enjoying the way his entire body shuddered under your command.
"Look at you," you purred, your voice a low, melodic taunt that cut through his delirium. "Whereâs that cock asshole gone, Dean? Seems like heâs reduced to a dog begging for a scrap of attention from a person he thought he could just â leave behind."
"Fuck, fuck," Dean choked out, his eyes rolling back in his head. "You â you're so fucking mean â god, don't stop. Please, don't you dare stop."
He let out a strangle moan that was half sob, half growl. He was losing his mind, his forehead dropping to rest against your knee as he continued to thrust his pelvis upward, desperate to catch the friction of your heel. The humiliation of it should have been enough to make him pull away, but the conditioning was too strong â his body didn't care about his pride, it only cared about you.Â
You, who held the key to its release.
"Is this what you wanted, Dean?" you asked, your voice a silky, mocking caress. You shifted your foot just a fraction, a tiny, excruciating movement that made him let out a sharp, high pitched gasp. "To be a pathetic little mess on the floor, begging for a shoe to finish you off?"
"Yes! God, yes!" he moaned in a hushed, desperate whisper, his fingers digging even deeper into your thighs, his knuckles turning white. "Anything â anything you want, just â please â"
He was grinding his pelvis against your shoe with a desperate pace with his breath coming in hot, ragged sobs against your skin.
"You're so fucking â beautiful," he gasped, the words stumbling out of him between heavy, guttural moans. He was completely unmoored, his eyes glazed and unfocused, staring at nothing as he chased the sensation of your heel. "Don't â don't pull away. If you pull away now, I'm gonna â I'm gonna die, baby. Please."
Just as the first violent, involuntary spasm of an orgasm began to ripple through his core you abruptly pulled your shoe back.
The sudden loss of friction was like a physical blow. Deanâs hips jerked upward, his entire body arching in a desperate, unfinished thrust, his mouth falling open in a silent whine. He froze there, suspended in a state of pained torture, his cock throbbing with a heavy, punishing heat that had nowhere to go.
"Wait... what? No! No!" he gasped, his voice cracking as he frantically reached for your leg, his hands trembling so hard he could scarcely be able to catch his breath. He looked up at you, his eyes wide and bloodshot, brimming with a humiliating desperation. The sudden void where your heel had been felt like a physical wound, leaving him hollow and aching in the most delicious way possible.
"Why â why'd you stop?" he whimpered, a pathetic, broken sound that tore from his throat. He was trembling violently now, his muscles twitching with the unspent energy of a climax that had been cruelly snatched away. "Please, baby âdon't do this to me. Don't leave me like this. It's â it's fucking killing me."
You didn't give him an answer. You simply stood there, looking down at him with that same, terrifyingly calm amusement, watching him struggle to maintain his composure while his body betrayed him.
"You were doing so well, Dean," you teased, your voice a silky, mocking caress. "So rhythmic. So... obedient."
"Obedient? God, fuck â" he groaned, the word dissolving into a ragged, desperate sob. He slumped forward, his forehead thumping against your thigh as he fought to keep from collapsing entirely. The unspent arousal was a heavy, pulsing weight in his groin â a feverish ache that felt like it was burning him from the inside out.
Every nerve ending was screaming, tuned to a frequency that only you could satisfy, and the sudden absence of your shoe felt like a cruel, gaping void.
"Please," he begged, his voice dropping to a low, gravelly rasp that was thick with tears and lust. He reached up, his fingers weakly grasping at your outfit, pulling at you with a frantic, uncoordinated strength. "Don't leave me on the edge. Don't fucking do this to me. Just one more time â just let â â
You didn't let him recover. You stepped back into his space, the sharp heel of your shoe finding that swollen, aching heat through his jeans once more.Â
"Back to work, Dean," you commanded, your voice a cold, beautiful lash. "Show me how much you want it."
"Oh, fuck, yes â please," he groaned, his head snapping back as he immediately began to grind his pelvis against you.
Then again, he was so close, the unspent orgasm pulsing heavily in his balls, his breath coming in ragged, guttural sobs. "God, sweetheart, right there â don't stop â don't you fucking stop â "
And then, just as his back arched and his eyes rolled into his head, you yanked your foot away.
The sudden absence of pressure was a violent, psychological slap. Deanâs hips jerked upward, his body locking in an agonising spasm as his orgasm was cruelly intercepted. He let out a choked, strangled sound halfway between a roar and a sob as he hovered on the razor's edge of a release that was now being denied to him.
"No! Fuck!" he gasped, his eyes snapping open, wide and glazed with a hurried, animalistic realisation.
Dean stared up at you, his chest heaving, his face a mask of pure, unadulterated torment. He saw the mocking glint in your eyes, the way you were watching him struggle, and it finally clicked. This wasn't just a moment of passion; this was a game â and he was the toy.
"You're â you're fucking playing with me," he rasped, a desperate, broken laugh hitching in his throat, a sound of pure, delirious madness. "You're fucking torturing me â you're making me beg like a goddamn dog."
âArenât ya one?â You replied simply, cocking your head down at his haggard look.
But he didn't care. The moment you stepped back in, the sharp, punishing pressure of your boot crushing into his clothed cock, he was back to snapping forward with a violent, uncoordinated hunger.Â
"Yes, fuck, yes â give it to me," he gravelly moaned.cHe was a man on the brink of a total mental collapse, his hands white knuckled as they gripped your thighs, pulling you into him as if he could force the friction to break him.
And then, just as he reached the orgasm â for the nth time â just as his breath hitched into a high, strangled whine and his hips began to spasm, you yanked your heel away again.
"No! Goddammit!" he yelled, the sound muffled by his own frantic, desperate gasps. He was losing it. He was actually losing his mind.
His hips kept thrusting at the empty air where you had just been, his body acting on a momentum that had no destination. He looked up at you, his face a mask of sweating, beautiful agony, his eyes pleading with a ferocity that was almost frightening.
"Please â sweetheart, please â just let me â just let me finish," he begged, his voice a broken, guttural wreck. He was trembling so violently he could barely stay upright, his hands sliding from your thighs to your waist, clutching at you with a strength born of pure, unadulterated desperation. "I'll do anything â anything you want. Just â don't fucking leave me hanging like this â sâtoo much, mâdying â "
You didn't even blink. You just stepped back in, the blunt shoe finding that swollen, aching centre of his cockhead once more, grinding deep into his denim.
"Again," you snapped at him. "Show me how much you want it, Dean."
And so you continued the routine again, goading the poor man to keep grinding his orgasm to the very exquisite edge, before merrily snatching it away from him. The way he clung onto you, begging with those pretty, wide eyes, it completely made you forget about the breakup â it was just an addicting thrill, one that you needed to see more of.
Dean was slumped forward, his forehead hitting your knees, his breath coming in frantic, sobbing hitches. He was hovering in a state of permanent, agonising suspension, his cock throbbing so violently against the denim it felt like it might actually burst.
"You're a fucking sadist," he wheezed, a delirious, broken laugh escaping his lips as he looked up at you through wet lashes.
He knew he was losing his mind, knew he was completely at your mercy, worst of all, he fucking loved it. He grabbed your hips, his fingers digging in with bruising force, his eyes burning with a desperate, primal hunger.
"You're gonna break me, darlinâ," he choked out, his voice a desperate, ragged rasp. "You're gonna break me â you're gonna fucking love every second of it, ainât ya?"
He didn't wait for your permission this time. He lunged forward, his face burying into the crook of your thigh, his breath hot and frantic against your skin. Dean was a starving animal, and you were the only thing that could satiate him. He began to grind his pelvis against your shoe again, his movements even more violent, even more unhinged than before.Â
"Please, please," he groaned, the words dissolving into a series of broken, guttural sounds. "Just one more time â just let me hit the edge â let me feel you one more time before you kill me."
He was a man possessed, his hips thrusting into your heel so desperately with his hands bruising your thighs as he chased the friction. He was so close, the unspent load pulsing heavily in his cock, his breath coming in ragged, guttural sobs. "God, right there â mâfuck â"
The mighty Dean Winchester was gone. In his place was a weeping, broken mess of a man, collapsed on the floor at your feet. The sheer, unadulterated frustration of the edging had finally snapped his composure. He wasn't just groaning anymore; he was actually crying, thick, hot tears of pure, agonising lust spilling down his flushed cheeks.
He reached up with one trembling hand, wiping a stray tear away with the back of his knuckles, looking up at you with eyes that were completely shattered. The bravado, the "playboy" mask, the hunter's grit â it had all been stripped away, leaving nothing but a raw, pulsing nerve.
"Please, baby â Iâll be so good," he whimpered, his voice no longer a gravelly roar but a sweet, pathetic plea. The sound was so vulnerable it would have been embarrassing if the situation wasn't so deliciously dominant. âHurts so bad â Iâll be so good fâyou, please.â
He let out a broken, hitching sob, his forehead dropping back against your knee as he trembled. The unspent tension in his groin was so intense it felt like a physical ache, a heavy, throbbing pressure that made every breath a struggle. He was a man pushed past his limit, his body a frantic, twitching mess of unfulfilled desire.
You watched him, feeling a surge of dark, delicious power. He was so beautifully undone, so utterly dependent on your whim. You didn't say a word; you just let the silence stretch, letting him sit in his own misery, before you slowly, deliberately, slid your heel back into place.
Dean was beyond words. He was past begging; he was simply vibrating, a raw nerve of unspent climax and weeping desperation. His hips were twitching in pathetic, involuntary jerks against your shoe, his cock feeling like it was about to physically split open from the pressure.
His eyes â those green eyes that used to burn with protective fire, that used to look at you with such fierce, unyielding love were now wide, wet, and glassy. They were the eyes of a wounded animal, pupils blown wide, staring up at you with a pathetic hope that you would finally show mercy.
His mouth â that pretty mouth that used to whisper promises whispered against your skin in the dark â was now just babbling incoherent, wet pleas for salvation.Â
Instead of giving him the release he was screaming for, you reached down. Your fingers tangled roughly into his hair, yanking his head back to expose his throat. You forced him to meet your gaze, holding him there while he trembled violently beneath your grip. You stared down into those beautiful, shattered doe eyes that once held nothing but devotion for you and saw only the raw, naked terror of a man who had been completely broken.
"Pathetic," you murmured, your voice devoid of any heat or mercy.
The moment he thought you might finally relent, you shoved his head away with contemptuous force. The sudden rejection made him gasp, his forehead nearly hitting the floor as he slumped forward, still twitching from the aborted climax.
"I'm bored now, go take a fucking cold shower, Dean."
You turned on your heel without waiting for a response, your movements casual and dismissive, as if you hadn't just systematically dismantled a human being's psyche.Â
Behind you, Dean let out a sound that wasn't even human â a strangled, wet splutter of pure horror. "A shower? A shower?" he choked out, his voice cracking violently. "You can't â you can't fucking leave me like this! Baby, please!"
He tried to crawl after you, his knees scraping against the floor, but his body was too far gone, too paralysed by the overwhelming ache in his groin.Â
He knew better than anyone that a cold shower wouldn't touch the inferno you'd ignited inside him. A shower couldn't wash away the psychological torment, the raw, pulsing need that had become his entire world.
You were leaving him stranded on a cliffside with no way down, forced to stare at the abyss of your indifference while his own body screamed for a release you had cruelly denied.
Some lucky night heâs having.
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You're Seriously Going to Date Other Girls? I Don't Want You To!
Gojo Satoru x Female Reader
Synopsis: You were determined to succeed, to be greater than your circumstances. And nothing could get in your way. When your eyes are set on the rich and powerful Satoru Gojo, you'll go to any lengths to make him yours. But maybe he's more willing to be used than you thought...
Content warnings: Yandere reader x frat!Gojo. Stalking, jealousy, hints of undercover nerdjo, spoilers but yandere!Gojo too, manipulative behaviour, probably badly proofread, first tumblr fic, WC 9.5 K
Inspired by a tiktok from @/ppc1ouds so credit to her.
Posting this now, and i'll proofread again and edit later.
Survival was all that mattered to you.
Something you craved, needed, desired everyday.
Life had not been the easiest for you. Born from a mother who knew love as cutting a limb and a father who didn't care at the blood on the floor, you quickly grew a distaste for that world. A world in which a wife could sacrifice everything for a husband who viewed her as nothing more than a kitchen rag. To you, love was something to trick women into falling and staying for men who viewed them as servants. And every day he breathed, you plotted. You saved. You worked. To make sure your mother's fate would never reach you.
The day you left your home for college, your father wrapped you in his arms. His sweet, smart girl. So much like him, he'd say. Sweet and kind and such a good daughter.
What he really meant was submissive like your mother.
Which you vowed you'd never be.
You loved her dearly. A kind woman taken advantage of by a cruel man. But part of you, a small loathsome part, would resent her for never leaving. For not having the strength to put herself and kids first. You won't make that mistake.
You stepped into college, set on your path to be a lawyer. A career that would guarantee money and stability. Of course, you could pick medicine or engineering or something software, but there was some sick thrill in winning. In twisting your words to get someone to squirm, the sick power thrill.Â
But if anyone ever asked, you just wanted to make the world a better place!
Each hour in the morning you worked. Each night you'd party away with anyone you could find, carefully making sure to never get too drunk, but also making sure to butter people enough to think they could trust you. To like you enough. You were top of your classes, surrounded by friends, adored and loved.
But it wasn't enough.
See, in the world of law connections were key. And you had made so many! But so many doors were closed, doors only unlocked by a wealth and power a working class girl like you could never touch. The answer was clear. If you couldn't open them, you would find someone who could.
In your eyes, men were simple enough. Find the richest one and milk them for their money. To you, it was hardly a sin. If they wanted you for your beauty and body, why should you be villainised for wanting their money and connections?
While it irritated you greatly to involve someone else in your plans, you reasoned it would only be for a few years at most.
So you turned your eyes on the richest in JJK college.Â
Satoru Gojo.
There wasn't a corner of the school his name didn't wander, not only cause his father funded half of it but his reputation lingered in the halls. Whether it be his money, womanising ways or his wild parties, everyone knew of him. He was the hardest target you could find. Someone everyone simultaneously wanted and loathed. The only person who managed to beat you in your classes without ever showing up. He was the sun the rest of the school orbited, and he knew it quite well. There was no one you despised more,
But there wasn't a challenge you would back down from.
Hatred is only a thin line away from l̶o̶v̶e̶ passion.
You hatched a plan, to snatch him up to be yours. With his name, youâd succeed in your field enough to never need anyone ever again. Hours of reddit scrolling, making accounts to be on the male side of social media, hours of podcasts and you finally grasped an idea on the male mind
Cute and innocent. Soft and shy, but not in a prude way. Shy in a coquetteish way. The right amount of meanness and flirting. Don't give it up too quickly, but don't deprive them forever!
These rules made you sick to your stomach.Â
You had the social capital , and you were not blind to your beauty. Snagging him shouldn't be impossible. Keeping him will be the challenge.
The plan was simple
Get close to his friends
Enough so that your name would be in conversation casually. He would recognise it enough from stories and anecdotes. Plus, you could discreetly get more information to lure him in.
Get invited to a frat party
You wouldn't need an invite to attend, but going with one of his friends would ping you on his radar. Just enough for him to saunter to you first instead of his usual girls.
Flirt with him
Be shy and sweet and a little mean. To make him think of you as a challenge, but also to be charmed enough to want âfixâ your disinterest.
Show up everywhere
Suddenly you're everywhere? He canât imagine a life without you. Classes? Next to him. Parties? Always lurking around. Every place he frequented you would be there. You'd slowly increase the frequency enough to not get suspicious.
Ghost him.
Your absence leaves a void. He's craving you, seeking you out.
Get with another guy
Another guy? Hurt his ego. Make him believe no man could ever beat him. Make him believe he needs you.
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Step 1 required the most time.
First, Gojo was very popular, so you would have to narrow down what counted as close enough of a friend to infiltrate his circle. You could start with a frat brother, but that runs the risk of that brother potentially falling for you and suddenly being off limits because of âbro code.â
Female friends were risky too, just in case they harboured feelings for him and could possibly sabotage you.
Your best bet? Shoko and Geto.
One, you and Shoko were already friends, plus she was a lesbian. Two, Suguru was the closest to Gojo, and the mention of your name from him had the best chance of sticking in Gojoâs brain.
Shoko wasnât a frat brother, nor a frat sweetheart. You struggle to figure out what her connection is. It has to be something in common with Satoru outside of the frat that you could exploit. The problem was that she was crazy perceptive, more so than Suguru. Where he observes she calculates. Where he reasons she deduces. She was your biggest asset and threat. She could see you from a mile away if she bothered.
It was a good thing she was already your best friend.
Coming clean about your plan was the only smart move. She seemed mostly entertained, not caring enough about either party to intervene.
âThis is insane.â
âI need him, he's my ticket out of here,â
And she sighs, knowing how bad your home was. Knowing you were on a scholarship, that meals were tight, that you often skipped meals cause you couldn't afford anything. And while Gojo was her friend, she reasoned this probably wouldn't last long anyways, he rarely stuck with one woman, so it couldn't cause too much harm. Granted, she didnât know the extent of your obsession.
From her, you learnt that Gojo was an astrophysics student and Suguru studied politics. Through hours of browsing public cameras (yes, somehow accessible for free by the public) you roughly gathered when Gojo would arrive and leave campus along with Suguru. WIth Satoru he was a wildcard, opting on attending class based on mood rather than any real pattern. You know this based on the detailed tracking you did that showed no pattern, except that he often hung around Suguru. So it'd be easier to track Suguru's movements instead.
From Suguru, you could deduce his exact schedule from the timings, which building he went to, and a couple of chance encounters in the hallways.Â
Youâd sit in your usual spot, a small nook under a tree too close to the bin for most people, and observed when Gojo would tag along. Morning classes? Usually no. Evening ones? Also no. The brief golden period was in the afternoon, when he just woke up from a hangover and dragged himself for some campus coffee or to bother Suguru.Â
Putting both these together, you made sure to always be there when Suguru was. His favourite coffee shop? In the corner. Lecture finished? Youâre already in that hallway passing him by. Studying in the library? You were across the table on the other end.
And if Gojo happened to be tagging along? Even better.
After making your presence known enough to be familiar, you moved on to the next part. Suguru studied politics, and coincidentally you needed to take political science too. This time actually was a lucky coincidence, one you wouldn't let slide.
From taking a seat next to him when the rest were taken, to being paid with him for projects and group discussions, you quickly made an impression on him. A genuine friendship blossomed between you two, making part of you upset that Suguru couldn't be as rich as Gojo. It'd be far easier to date someone actually intelligent.
With some gentle prodding, and careful work, you could pry bits of information about his best friend. Things like how his parents forced him to take finance classes like Accountancy to prepare him for the family business, how obsessed he secretly was with digimon, how he wore glasses alone so no one would make fun of him.
You could keep waiting and plotting, but it was time to finally make your move.
 You almost felt bad using Suguru to get to his best friend. Almost.
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Wearing your nerdiest clothes, messing your hair up enough and skipping concealer you headed to your seat next to him.Â
âWoah, rough night?â he smirked, raising his brow a little. Everyone knew you were smart, but now it looked like you were locked inside the library and decided to sleep in your textbooks instead.
âYeah, trying to stay ahead you know?â you reply with a soft sigh. It wasn't exactly wrong, but you were smart enough to be able to balance your studies without suffering this much.
âYou look like a wreck.â
âThanks.â
âNo genuinely, you need a break.â
You roll your eyes.
âI mean it, look there's a party at my frat next week. You should comeâ
âI dont know Suguru, i probably wont even know anyone thereâ
âRelax, I got you. Just stick with me. It's about time you stopped wasting your college experienceâ
And with practiced reluctance, you sighed and agreed. Bingo.
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Piles of clothes on the floor, makeup all over your floors and your hair tools tangled in a dangerous mess on the floor (eh, you doubt it'll catch on fire ) and you're finally ready. A cute going out top that made your cleavage pop in all the right ways and some low rise jeans (and just in case you bend down a peak at your cute tho-) was what you decided on.
With the carefully practised strut (a swish of the hips and shoulders back in each step) you headed to the frat, dropping a quick message to Suguru you were here.Â
As soon as you stepped inside, he was there with a welcoming smile plastered over his lips.Â
âYou actually made it!âÂ
âAll the textbooks made my head spin.â Â
And with a small laugh, he guided you into the party. It was already packed, loud music blasting and red cups everywhere. You could see a couple of guys playing beer pong in the corner, someone doing a keg stand, some girls flirting with the frat guys.
And there he was.Â
Surrounded by women and frat boys alike. Like a spotlight on him. All eyes drawn to him. Not in an obvious way. But in a way where their gazes would flick to his periodically without even realising. Almost subconsciously seeking guidance on how to act, what to do, how to have fun. Seeking his approval. Since he was so rich, being friends with him was key to being invited to the craziest events.Â
You give him only a quick glance, forcing your eyes away. If you stared too long, he could catch your interest. And to men, reeking of desperation turned them off greatly. You had a feeling it would only amuse him enough to laugh and dismiss you like everyone else.
You couldn't go to him. He had to come to you.
But that would take time, so you enjoyed the rest of the party. Talking with Suguru. Drinking games with Shoko and Toji. Dancing with Utahime.Â
You could feel something on your neck, someone's interested gaze following you like a moth to the flame. No matter how strong the urge, you wouldn't look up and entertain it.Â
You peeled away from your friends to grab a drink from the kitchen, surprisingly empty at the moment. Most people were outside now where some frat guys were doing some dares. With your back to the door, you poured a drink.
âCome here often?â You hear that smooth voice behind you, the voice you'd been craving all night. For a second, you don't even hear what he says, too caught up on the overwhelming victory you felt . God, men really are so easy and-
âWait what? That's your pick up line? Really?â You blurt out, turning around to face Gojo himself. Suave and flirty out the window. Really? A guy who sleeps with any woman he wants and he leads with that?
âMaybe I didnât want to waste a good one on you.â He smirks, bouncing back quickly.
âWow, I don't fit your strict rules then? A pity.â You reply in a dry tone.
âGive me a name and iâll let you knowâ
And with a deadpan reply of your name, a hint of recognition passes his eyes. Seems step 1 was more useful than you thought.Â
âAh, Suguru's little philosophy buddy. He mentioned you.â
âAll terrible things I hope?â
âOh just the worst,â he grins, "Shouldn't you be glued to his side?â
âPeople think you two are dating, shouldn't I be asking you the same?â
He chuckles, âFair enough. If I were him, I wouldn't let a pretty girl like you leave my side.â
âDoes that mean Iâve earnt a better line?â
âJurys out on that one.â
âSo you basically canât think of any then?â
Gojo pauses to think, before letting out the most devious grin. âDamn girl, you shit with that ass?â
âGross, I'm constipated and now offended. Thanksâ
âHey girl, you have all your shots? Because the government is mandating I put something inside you.â
âI'm anti vaccine.âÂ
âAre you my pinky toe? Cause Iâm gonna bang you on every piece of furniture.â
âHow perverse.â
He laughs, "seriously, you've gotta give me something at least.â
âWith all your talk of getting girls, I really thought you wouldn't be this boring.â Was that too much? Too mean? Would he be too offended and the entire plan spoiled and all that effort lost and-
He bursts out laughing. âSuguru said you were so sweet?â
âSuguruâs easier to be nice to.â
And to your relief, he just seemed amused. His gaze lingered longer, something unreadable in his eyes. Before he could reply, a far too drunk guy bumped into his back and you saw your opportunity. Stepping just in front enough, his drink spilled all over your top when he stumbled forward, soaking it in alcohol. It was a light coloured going out top you'd thrifted, so not a huge loss. But it was light enough that the alcohol soaked the top enough to be sheer, showing your lacy red bra underneath. With a slurred apology the guy swayed back to where he game from, leaving you two alone again.
âShit, my bad princess.â He mumbled under his breath, his eyes roaming your soaked top with barely concealed hunger before he had the decency to pry his gaze away.
âPrincess?â You groaned. Lack of creativity seemed to be a common theme for him.
âDarling?â
âYouâre not British."
âLove?â
âAlready? Weâre moving so fast!â
âPeaches?â
âIâll desecrate you.â
âWeâll workshop it,â he grins with a simmering guilt in his eyes. Whether it was for soaking your shirt or leering at it too obviously you weren't too sure. Either way, you had to capitalise on it.
With a soft, irritated sigh you stare at the top, trying to play up how put out you were. Gaining sympathy points for your night being ruined.
âLook, my bad , okay? Letâs just go upstairs and Iâll grab you a shirt or something.â
âAt least buy a girl dinner first.â
He snorts âCant blame you for that, at least let me offer up my hoodie then.â
And without even waiting for a response, he plops his hoodie onto your shoulders. This was working too well. Now you had an opportunity to speak to him again to return his hoodie. Or better yet, for him to seek you out to get it back. And if you're lucky, appeal to his possessiveness in seeing you wear something of his.
âReally? Oh⊠thank you. â You reply with reluctance and a softening tone. Lashes batted a little more and eyes a little wider. Just to make him think he had somehow cracked your view of him, reached a level of vulnerability making you seem closer to him than before. The perfect sweet girl to be tamed.
His gaze lingers again, like he was waiting for something. Or maybe like he was deciding whether or not to say anything.Â
By the way he deflated, it seemed he decided not to.
With a glance at the design, you noticed the Digimon logo. Perfect!
âOh Digimon? That's cute, kinda like pokemon right?â
And with the way his eyes bulged out slightly and the speed at which he scoffed, you could tell you hit a nerve for him. And suddenly, half an hour had whizzed past in him explaining the complexities and intricacies of this fictional world. It was kinda adorable how dorky he was.Â
You grin a little amused before softly saying âI know Gojo, I was a Digimon girl too, just teasing.â The soft sultry way you said his name and the kindness in your eyes was enough to make him halt, with a sheepish grin.Â
âAh, sorry I tend to go overboard with that stuff I mustâve been boring y-â
âNo, I enjoyed it, It was cute.â
That clearly was the right thing to say, with the way he softened, an almost unbelievable smile on his face. He seemed to be in a trance, looking at you like he was really seeing you for the first time.
A sudden loud call of âSatoru!â had broken whatever spell he seemed to be under. And with a sheepish grin and a quick âBe there in a sec!â he turns back to you.
âDont go, okay? I just gotta sort something out with Sukuna. Think he wants me to grab more alcohol or something. Youâll stay here right?â
God, no. âIs there a good enough reason for me to?â
Another cocky look on Gojoâs face (seriously, was that the only expression he could make?) , âStick around and I'll show you a good enough reason.â
And he's gone, the crowd parting a way for him like the red sea.
Step 3 complete. Sort of. Youâre not quite sure if you balanced the mean and flirting well enough, but the soaked top surely helped.
You certainly weren't going to stick around long enough for him to return. Slipping out the party and rushing to your dorm for the next step.
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Next was forcing him to interact with you. Remembering what SUguru said, you decided to finally join the accountancy class. Since Gojo's parents forced him to take it, they monitored his attendance to make sure he never skipped. Accountancy seemed a plausible enough link to financial law, so it wasn't out of the question.
Why did you join so late? Needed extra credit!
So you slip into class the next week, praying for Gojo to be here too. By some miracle, when you glance up he's in a seat near the back. You pause, hesitating as you glance around nervously for a seat. Biting your lip to look shy and a little out of place, enough to appeal to his ego so he could âswoop inâ and ârescue youâ.Â
Like a mouse to a cheese trap, he waves you over, pulling out a seat.
âDidnât know you took accountancy too Ms Popeâ
âBroadening my horizons Cyrus Beene.â
âOuch, thought I was going to be Mr. President in this roleplay.â
âYou don't have the charm for that.â
âHere i thought we bonded over a shared hoodie, Sugarâ
âMy dad died of diabetes. That name is a sore memory.â
âBullshit. You're psychotic.â
âYoure gonna tell a grieving girl she's lying?â
âI saw him on your mumâs facebook. Nice try.â
âYou stalking me?â
âNah, I was bluffing and you fell for it. High risk, high reward.â
The professor starts the class before you could respond. Whatever, you would've won anyways. Probably.Â
The class ends up being dreadful. Very boring. Financial law clearly is not the path to take. You don't show that obviously, making sure to ask questions and look engaged to build a good relationship with the professor. It helps that Gojo would nudge you every five minutes with some stupid comment making fun of the professor or course or Suguru or anything he thought you had a shared interest in.Â
When class finally ends, he lingers.Â
âAm I ever gonna get my hoodie back then?â
You ponder what to say. Honestly, you hoped he wouldn't remember that quickly so you could keep it a little longer to hold his interest. It's not like you can flat out say no, and you can't really think of a response that doesn't sound desperate. So you pretend to straighten up like you suddenly remembered.Â
âOh! Right, my bad. I can bring it next time?â
His eyes dart between yours, thinking, before he grins âNo need! I'm sure a pretty girl like you must love snuggling my hoodi-â
âIll drop it at your frat.â
âYou know where I live? Now who's the stalker, Gorgeous?â
âI was there yesterday.â
âDoesnât ring a bell.â
âSome jerk spilt his drink all over me.â
âMaybe he's just misunderstood? A real softie once you get to know him.â
âOr a womanising idiot.â
âOh how the rumour mill turns.â
âNot a rumour if I've seen it.â
âJealous?â
âTerribly so, I'll die of a broken heart.â
âYour funeral will be a real rager.â
âYouâre not invited.â
âAnd what'll you do? Resurrect and stop me?â He finishes with another infuriating smirk, throwing his bag over his shoulder. âJust drop it off whenever, yeah? I'll be home around 6.â
You're lucky he walks out before he can see your little grimace, what kind of jerk calls his frat home? Either way, guess you have to find some way to keep him thinking about you.
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âAnd youâre certain she said sheâd join this class?â
âYeah something about Financial Law maybe?â
âRight. Sureâ
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As soon as you get back to your dorm, you wear the hoodie as much as you can, even doing some jumping jacks to really get your scent on it. You spritz a little perfume, trying not to overdo it so it doesn't seem intentional. You're tempted to change your outfit, but that'd look like you care enough to change for him. So you walk over to his frat, deciding to wear his hoodie on the way. This way, it looks to everyone who passes you that there's something between you. A hidden signal to stay away, he's mine!
What a nauseating thought.
It's better not to risk someone else taking him though.
It's not exactly uncommon for his flings to do that anyways, so it's not like it's that effective. There's probably loads of girls with his shirts or hoodies in their wardrobes.
Eh, Rome wasn't built in a day.
Reaching his frat, you're let in by one of his frat brothers, you think his name is probably Toji? Either way, when he sees you he just huffs. Whether it's in a bored âtypical Gojoâ way or out of amusement that a new girl is here for him, it doesn't really matter to you.
You knock on his door, shrinking in on yourself in that shy, soft way. He opens the door, looking you up and down with barely hidden interest.Â
âNever looked better Doll,â he snorts as he opens the door to let you in.
You raise a brow, but before you can make a snappy retort he just laughs.Â
âI promise I won't try anything.â He says with an exaggerated pout.
âSorry, Iâve got work to do.â You really had to, actually. The new class added an extra strain you weren't prepared for. A strain you will easily overcome, don't even think otherwise, but a strain nonetheless.
âAccounting class?â
Ah, now he's a mind reader. If so you hope he can see all the different ways you'd kick his skull in if you could. That's a fun daydream you got to revisit later.
Whatever face you made before you remembered to control it must've been dumb enough for Gojo to start laughing.
With his hands raised up, he snorts, âRelax, didn't mean to insult your intelligence or anything. Just noticed you struggling to keep up-â
âYeah, some annoying guy kept bothering me the entire time.â Jesus you got to control your temper whenever someone insinuates you're not intelligent.
âIf youâd let me finish, I was about to say I could help tutor you, you know?â
And in hindsight, maybe you shouldn't have burst out laughing so much. Way too much. Like tears in your eyes crouched over too much.
âYou really know how to bruise a manâs ego.â
âS-sorry, i d-didnt mean it like that-â You stumble with your words, laughing too hard to stay composed. âItâs just⊠you? Really? You never show up to classes , donât even bother asking how I know cause Suguru told me , and suddenly you want to go out of your way to tutor someone?â
âIâm a generous man?â
âWrong.â
âI need the money?â
âThat hoodie probably costs more than my rent for three months.â
âItâll give me an ego kick for you to need me?â
You pause. Yeah that makes sense, arrogant prick. âFine, but I won't pay you.â
âThought we established I didn't need the money?â
âAnd you have to come to every session, no flaking.â
âCross my heart and hope to fly.â
âMy little pony? Didn't take you for a fan.â
âA real scholar appreciates the classics.â
âAnd weâre meeting after class every Friday.â
âHow do you know I'm free then? I could be busy for all yo-â At the scathing glare you give him he pauses. âYup! Friday it is.â
You turn on your heel, out the frat. The plan was working better than you thought. Not well enough to let your guard down though, he was still a notorious player.Â
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Friday rolls around, the next class with him. Through some investigating work (stalking Suguruâs instagram) you find out the cafe they both frequent. After some debating, you decide not to go there yet. You do notice Suguru posting some coffee pictures from that place, with Satoruâs hoodie clearly in frame. If you werenât well aware of Suguruâs exploits youâd think it was a hard launch. On further inspection of the hoodie, you recognise it. That same blasted hoodie from the party!
You give yourself an internal little fist bump, clearly he must be somewhat affected if he's already wearing it. The scent will pavlov him somehow, associating you with comfort or something. Youâll have to ask Shoko if that's how it works later.
But again, hold your horses. Showing up too much too quickly definitely gives off stalker vibes. And your measly student loans couldn't afford that many coffee runs yet. Hopefully with this plan you wont have to pay for coffee anymore anyways.
Sitting in the same seat as last time, you pretend to scroll through your phone. In actuality, you're analysing everyone in the class. From the quarter zip at the front to matcha girl behind you, assessing who would actually be a threat. It's not like you need this class, but you canât afford to slack off. Maybe itâs too intense, but nothing can stop you from your goals. No one can take it away from you. No one can make you feel powerless agai-
âYikes, you look like you're spiralling, Pumpkinâ And if it isn't the grating, annoying voice himself next to you.Â
âIn the month of halloween? Just say you want to gut and carve me.â
âIt's literally January?â
âCapitalism will prolong any holiday.â
âCant argue with that. But seriously, you good?â
That makes you genuinely pause. The concern and care in his eyes is so foreign to you, never once had you seen even a shred of it in your fathers eyes to your mother. It had to be a gimmick, some ploy to pretend to care to get in your pants. Lucky for you it seems your interests align.
Rubbing your neck, you sigh, âJust been a long day is all, been studying all night for a test.â
He hums, âThatâs rough, wanna grab a coffee after?â
âDont we have tutoring? Donât tell me you're already flaking.â
âI could tutor you in the coffee shop, two stones, one bird?â
âThats not the saying, that doesn't even make sense.â
âAh hah! Not sleep deprived enough to not be a smartass.â Touche
âOkay, sure. Canât see why not.â
âCaramel drizzle, white mocha syrup, whipped cream and sprinkles?â
âI like my coffee like I like my women, sickeningly sweet.â
Tutoring surprisingly wasn't awful. Perhaps a lesser stubborn part of your brain would find it useful. Throughout the session, youâd bite your lip and let out frustrated huffs, pretending not to notice the way his eyes followed each movement of your lips. At some points, you'd tap your foot against the floor, the tip of your shoe sometimes grazing his ankle. You'd lean over to see what he wrote, chest in eye line view of him. To his credit, he seemed unaffected by that.
Honestly, he seemed entirely unaffected! Other than a few lingering glances he was focused. For a frat bro with a notorious reputation for partying, you hadn't expected this switch. He explained each concept in depth, not even faltering a second. Despite how little interest he had in the class, he made sure to discuss every point. He even wore these dorky glasses after a while, saying his contacts were irritating his eyes. Putting the plan aside, he was genuinely useful!Â
Halfway through you'd forgotten to seduce and actually paid attention.
Until the waitress started to flirt with him. In front of you.Â
It was ridiculous, your table didn't even need cleaning yet! But here she was conveniently.
With the way he looked at her, you couldn't quite piece the extent of their relationship. Strangers? Friends? A fling? Talking stage? Hook up?
He wasn't yours yet. But he will be. No matter how much he unnerved you, you still needed him. His money and power you were practically drooling over. The doors that could open, how far in your career you could get with a healthy dose of nepotism.
That waitress wouldn't get it. She wouldn't use him to the fullest like you would.
She didn't deserve him.
This didn't matter to Gojo, who simply laughed and flirted back in the same way he did you. The same nicknames and the same jokes.Â
This was a reality check. You still had a long way to go in trapping him.
You fold your arms over, leaning down to look at the page with your chest even more pronounced now. You can hear the way his voice falters slightly with the waitress, clearly catching what you're doing.Â
Looking through your lashes, so vulnerable like a wounded doe, you say âI don't get this, I feel so stupid.â
He softens, waitress forgotten, âWoah, don't say that. You're the top of every class for a reason. Suguru and Shoko constantly tell me how smart you are at everything. You seriously think not immediately understanding something means you're an idiot?â
This means nothing, it's all a ploy. You don't actually feel dumb. But the way he softens for you hits something deep. He's sick. The way he spews out all this like it means nothing. No wonder girls fall for him. You have to remind yourself that he's not someone to fall for.
âYou mean it?â
He holds your gaze longer than expected, âOh believe me, I knowâ
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Weeks are spent like this, class on Friday with tutoring after. After a month he even decides to move it to his dorm, stating the noise of the shop distracts him. Begrudgingly you had to admit it was helpful.
âYour grades practically skyrocketed.â
âFor that to happen they would've been bad before the tutoring. My grades are never lacking.â
âMy apologies for ever saying otherwise, Angel.â
With time, he seemed to loosen up around you too. He'd slowly start to go off on tangents, sometimes about his frat or his friends or parties he had, Eventually, he'd go off into realms you didn't even know he had. Conversations would diverge into niche astrophysics topics, where his eyes would light up and every fact would tumble out his mouth. The first time it happened, he straightened up and apologised, seemingly embarrassed at how dorky he sounded. After a lot of reassuring he stopped looking so apologetic every time. He was far smarter than you gave him credit for initially. It wasn't like you didn't know that, he was a star student. What you didn't expect was the passion in his eyes. For someone who was born with everything he wanted handed to him, you didn't think he would care about anything but parties and women.
The way he'd stumble over his words cause he was talking so fast, too excited to slow down. The way he had stopped trying to impress and slowly just started⊠to be.Â
The thing that shocked you most, was the way he saw you. He listened. Like you were worth listening to.
Your father was never like that, always dismissing your mother as beneath him. Not as smart as you were, as funny or quick witted or important. The way she had shrunk in on herself over time, stopped talking about her interest, stopped showing she cared.
Satoru never did that. Any time you would slip up he'd calmly correct you. Never made you feel dumb or beneath him.
It irritated you.
It had to be some manipulation tactic, it made no sense for him to show such genuine interest in you. It shouldn't bother you anyways, it's what you wanted, right?
Why did it feel so good? So warm?
You couldn't afford to feel like this. You refuse to.
Flick
âAre you even paying attention to me?â Satoru says with the smug look of someone who already knows the answer. Fuck, when did he go from Gojo to Satoru?
âSay something interesting and I might.â
âSome people just donât appreciate greatness I see.â
You were lying on your front on his bed, scrolling through your phone. Your textbooks brushed to the side and long forgotten. Your empty coffee drink on his bedside table, come to think of it you canât remember the last time you paid for that. Satoru was downstairs grabbing a snack for you, having stocked up on all your favourites. His phone pings, and some sick urge to look consumes you.
It was far too late for any moral high ground anyways.
A couple of messages from different girls, all asking a variety of different things but with one thing common, getting into his pants.Â
No other woman was going to get close to him, you would make sure of it. Eliminate any competition. A quick guess on his passcode (his birthday, shocker) and you were deleting every message, carefully removing each contact and replacing it with a slightly different number so he couldn't contact them.Â
He was yours.
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âHereâs to Satoru and his vow of celibacy!â
âWhat are you talking about?â
âHavenât seen a girl in your room once. Have you lost your touch? Dick gone soft? Lasted less than a min-â
âShut up Sukunaâ
âI mean really, what happened? Every girl seems downright afraid to even come near you. Donât you think its a little stra-â
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The final step was set in motion. You didn't have the heart to ghost him properly, something in you burned at the idea of leaving him. WHat if he forgot about you? What if he moved on? DId his nerdy rants to someone else? Wore those dorky glasses he only showed you?
No, you couldn't stand that.
So you skip that step, going straight to the jealousy part.
It was the post exams party, one that everyone would attend. There you would make your move. Wearing the hottest dress you could find, smudged eyeliner and bitten lips, the same scent you never strayed from, you were set.
Heading into the party, your eyes glanced around quickly for Satoru. You didn't want him to see you looking, but you needed a good idea of where he was in order to exact your plan. After a second you spot him, sitting on the stairs with a few girls around him. Against your better judgment you freeze, jaw clenching.
I was here first.
It was all coming to fruition, you could see that law internship at your doorstep, the parties you'd attend as his fate, the connections you'd make. You would use his money to buy whatever you wanted, never having to stay in poverty and scrounge for meals again. Maybe you'd even lock him down, trap him with a ba-
You look away, not entertaining that.
You won't lose. You're too close to lose now.
Walking over to Sukuna, you chat with him and make sure to giggle at the right times. Sukuna hated sweet giggly girls, but one thing he loved? Pissing off Gojo. And with the way he was looking at him now? This would be fun for Sukuna.
He lets his hands wrap around your waist, voice whispering in your ear. His hand drifted lower down your back, reaching dangerously close to-
âFuck off.âÂ
A low dark voice suddenly behind you. Satoru. You'd never seen him so mad, someone so upbeat, so carefree having such fury etched in his face. The way his hand was wrapped tight around Sukunaâs, so tight you could Sukunaâs skin growing whiter around the wrist.Â
âWhat? Last i checked she isnt your personal bi-â
Thud
You open your eyes to see Sukuna crouching away, nose bloody and livid. People are all watching, someone's probably filming. Gasps everywhere.Â
No matter how hot that was (not that it was hot at all), you couldnât risk your future h̶u̶s̶b̶a̶n̶d̶ meal ticket losing his reputation for beating up someone at a party. You quickly grab his wrist, pulling him into his room.
âWhat the fuck is your problem Satoru?â You snap.
Internally you're squealing. Your plan worked. You're a genius. You should run for president. Are those wedding bells?
He smirks, looking down at you with a heated gaze, âHow long are you gonna keep this up, Angel?â He steps forwards, causing you to step back.
Step back. âKeep what?â
Step forward. âPretending.â
Step back. âPretending what exactly?â You're going to make him say it first.
Step forward. Your back against his wall. Door locked. He leans in close, lips to your ear, arm snaking around your waist.
âPretending like you haven't been stalking me, Angelâ
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Satoru lived an easy life. Born in a rich family, eldest son and heir to fortunes and gifted in any skill he wanted to learn. He was a prodigy in everything academic, and his physical ability was downright olympic. It seemed he wasn't failing or lacking in any department.
From a young age, people had thrown themselves at him pathetically. Some were eager for better tips, some for his power, his influence, his money, his looks. Everyone wanted something from him.
In his eyes, he wasnât arrogant. He was realistic.
He could play coy and pretend he wasnât all that, but it would be a lie.
So he lived life knowing this fact. He didn't take anything too seriously. Life was all a challenge to have fun, to extract the most pleasure possible from every situation. He didn't need to try hard in anything, he was already exceptional.
And when he got to college? He was swimming in ladies.
Some would hear the Gojo name and flock to him for his money. Some would see him on the field in a game and drool over his muscles. Some would hear their parents whispers and set their eyes on his status. And the rest? Heâd simply flirt and charm their panties off!
He would have at least 5 girls at a time. Always flirting with a new girl at each party, hopping into a different bed each night, visiting old flings to make sure they didn't forget the smell of his sweat lingering on their pillows. It was an exhilarating rush to him.
He tried to at least not be an ass about it. With enough chiding from Shoko and Suguru heâd learnt to at least communicate with them. Never lead them on or try to go on dates or give any impression of anything more than a fling. This didn't stop girls from flipping out anyways, but he found it more amusing to see how angry they'd get just for him.
All in all, he had it pretty great.
Until you came along.
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At first, when Suguru would mention you, your name would slip out of his mind without a second thought. Suguru seemed to like you a lot, and even a few times Satoru had tried to prod and tease to see if it went past platonic, But other than that, you didnât make that much of an impression on him.Â
Heâd only really heard of you. How friendly you were. How smart you were. How funny you were. Almost everyone seemed to have something good to say about you. It ticked him off after a while. He wasnât used to anyone being smarter than him, better than him at anything. He was certain that if you weren't a law student he could crush you in one of his classes.
âIf you care so badly just join my philosophy class with her then?â Suguru groaned.
âNah, canât take your thing away from you, how else will you compare to me th-â He was cut short by a whack to the head by Suguru.
So no, he didn't think of you often.
Not your stupid kindness everyone seemed to rave about. Not your dumb intelligence that could rival his. Nothing at all.
You probably hated guys like him, the ones that were handed everything in life. The ones who could party and have fun with zero consequence.
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âThis one sided animosity is pathetic.â
âShoko! It's not one-sided, okay! She definitely hates me.â
âYouâve never met her?â
âSo? I just want to mess with her, I'm sure she'd be so easy to rile up.â
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Then came The Party. Shoko made fun of him for capitalising it but she also saved a notes page of all Utahimes favourite things so Satoru reckons she doesn't have much room to tease him.
Suguru briefly mentioned bringing you, said it'd be good for a studyaholic (âSuguru that canât possibly be a real word-â) like you to let loose or something. Oh but weren't you supposed to be super popular and fun? Weren't you at the top of your classes already? Did you seriously think you could beat him just cause you were a dweeb who suddenly stopped partying? Did you think he was some worthless party animal? Did you think you could beat h-
âIâll be there too.â he says quickly.
Suguru snorts, âdidnât think you wouldn't."
With his favourite grey hoodie on and a tight white tank top he strolled into the party he technically was meant to help out in. Spending most of the night surrounded by girls and watching the door to see whoever Suguru brought in. He wasn't obsessed or anything, merely curious. This perfect girl, seemingly can do no wrong. That was his thing!
Unfortunately, he was merely a man. And within an hour he forgot what he was meant to be doing and got distracted by beer pong and some hot girl feeling up his biceps. Lucy? Rachel? Eh, heâll just call her blondie and pretend he never forgot.
It was only when Suguru plopped down next to him that he remembered,
âSoâŠâ he says with a shit eating grin and a waggling eyebrow.
âShes in the kitche-â
And in seconds heâs there. He paused a few metres before just so he could pretend he casually strolled in. Seeing as there was only one girl in the kitchen it had to be you. And with his smoothest line, he makes his move.
But when you turn around? Fuck, you were gorgeous.
But worse than that, he recognised you.
Heâd noticed you around campus. How could he not? The first time he saw you under that tree he needed to have you. There wasn't a pretty woman on campus who hadn't been under him. And a gorgeous girl like you? That was unacceptable.
He didnât see you again.
So he had to do the perilous task of finally attending his lessons. He really did try his morning ones, but he was often too hungover and too tired to go. And evening ones were simply too much of a pain. So afternoon classes were his best bet.
And how lucky was he! You seemed to always be on campus then too. He was practically glued to Suguru now with no excuse to see you. Passing in the hallways or in the shops nearby or anything he could get his grubby little paws on.Â
He could never figure out your name, always moving away too quickly for him to catch like sand falling from his hands.
And here you were, the pretty girl heâd been dying to see. Too pretty.
Nothing he couldn't handle right! A few teases here, some smirks there and he's sure he's got you bundles in his sheets already.
Except you didn't let up easily. You were quick enough to leave him grasping for straws just to not let you have the upper hand. With how bored you seemed, he needed to somehow break past your walls.Â
When he âaccidentallyâ spilled his drink over your shirt? He could swoop in like some hero. See! He wasn't so bad after all. Granted, he didn't plan it exactly. But when life gives you lemons!
Though, when his gaze lingered on you something seemedâŠoff. Maybe not off exactly, but different. No matter the reputation he gets, Satoru wasn't an idiot. Not really. He learnt from a young age that hiding your intelligence and letting people think less of you is the key to letting their guard down. And that look? So familiar. He'd seen it before. The look of women who wanted something from him. A lesser man would write you off as some fake chick, some dirty gold digger that's good for nothing except her body. But hey, he was a feminist so who was he to write off a woman?
Though the longer his gaze lingered, the more he picked up on it. It wasn't that same greed or lack of authenticity swirling in your eyes, but something deeper.
A hunger. A need for something more. Something calculated, challenging him.
He was nothing but a masochist. And a very very bored man. If even half of what Suguru said was true, then maybe this was more interesting than he thought.
And when he turned to see you were gone? Oh, the chase had begun.
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Seeing you in his class was the cherry on top of his week. Heâd spent the past few days partying, making sure he was all over campus instagrams. Anything to make sure you couldn't open that app without being reminded of him. He was tempted to ask why you joined this late, but he didn't really care. He knew you just wanted to be close to him. Many girls have done that before.
But still, watching you look so pitiful he couldn't help but offer an olive branch and beckon you over.
What entertained him the most was how little you tried to flatter him. Ballsy move, he could have been offended and lost interest. His ego was far too strong to be swayed, no matter what Utahime says.Â
You should've been flattered, overjoyed at how many teasing remarks he gave you throughout the class. He'd thrown some real good bangers that definitely deserved at least an exasperated grin!
But the hard to get approach must be what youâre doing. He'd seen it in many of his flings, and broken it down too. Every single one of them usually ended up being the one to beg for him instead.
And you two are just perfect for each other! Every interest he had you did too. To be honest, it was blatantly clear to him how much you faked it , but it was just too fun not to play along!
The hoodie? It smelt so strongly of you it made his eyes roll back at the scent. Clever Tactic. Part of him wants to retaliate and do the same back, and he would if he wasn't currently clutching his hoodie to his chest like a cheesy idiot.
Suguru didnât understand the sudden interest in you. Heâd known Satoru could be very competitive, but this seemed different. In his eyes, you were just some friendly, innocent girl who was trying her best.
But Satoru saw the real you. The way you tried so hard to get his attention. And he was very eager to play that game.
So he forced Suguru to post the coffee shop with him in the frame on his story, certain you'd see. Certain youâd notice the same hoodie, notice him, notice the shop. He leaned back, ready for you to âhappen to walk in.â
But you didn't. Not today. Not tomorrow. Not for every other day of that week.
You little minx. Making him wait in the coffee shop each day to catch you. God he was already in love.
When class eventually rolled round, he was ready to show you a changed man. If academics turned you on, heâd be the smartest, most diligent tutor there was. And when you see how helpful he was? You'd need him, seek him out. Rely only on him.
Not that he cared. He only wanted you to slip up. To actually fall for him
A weaker man would fall for the way you're clearly trying to entice him. Admittedly, his gaze did wander, but he never claimed to be a saint! Part of him wanted to throw the towel and just take you to his dorm, give you what you wanted. But he would not lose.
Then that pretty waitress came. Okay, so he technically didn't sleep with her. But he was going to the night of that party, before you showed up. Besides, a man needs to keep his options open. A little harmless flirting just to keep you on your toes, you know?
Except when he looks up, seeing you lean over, his voice falters. Of course, you must think it's the view of your chest (which while gorgeous wasn't the main reason) or the way you looked so needy.Â
No, it was that glint in your eyes. One he could only recognise in the mirror.
A deep rooted need, so overwhelming, to possess and control. The jealousy in your eyes, the determination to come out on top. How you used every way possible to manipulate him into falling in your lap.
And it was working, just not the way you thought it would.
It came to him suddenly. Angel. How ironic.
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The weeks he spent with you were far better than he'd expected. You'd learnt so much, truly improving your grades. It warmed his heart, even if you didn't admit you were struggling, to see you succeed. He thinks he'd do anything to keep that sight. Anything to make sure you got everything you ever wanted. Whatever tactic you used was working, he didn't even care anymore. He was right where he wanted to be.
He needed you. Craved you. Lusted for you.
Anything you wanted he bought. Anything you glanced at you'd get.Â
It wasn't enough for him.
Every cutting remark, every insult cloaked in layers of context and references he couldn't begin to understand. The hidden interest in your eyes whenever he'd go on a tangent.
It wasn't the look of someone fond, it was the look of someone hungry. Someone who had finally found an equal.
You were wicked too. You think he never noticed but he did. Every single move was calculated with hidden intent. He should hate it, should be disgusted at someone using him like this.
But it was too exhilarating.
What move would you do next? What crazy scheme to get his attention? What was real? What was rehearsed?
Each action he could analyse in great depth. Your schedule? Memorised too! What classes did you take? Which ones were just for him? Were you thinking about him too?
Picking you apart was like a puzzle he couldn't (and didn't want to) solve. The way your brain worked, the way you analysed everyone around you, weighed whether they would be any worth to you or not. It was fascinating!
He wanted to be worth something. To give you value. To give you what you needed. Money, love, connections, anything you wanted heâd give. If only just to see what youâd do with it.
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No girl had piqued his interest anymore. Not like they would have any chance if they did.Â
You were always there. And if he had to pretend you weren't so you'd stay? So be it!
When heâd flirt with baristas, he'd turn his back to hear your scathing whispered threats. When he'd chat with old hookups, the next day something disastrous would magically happen to their appearance (nair in shampoo? Aren't you a sweetheart?).
The lengths you'd go to keep him, the feeling of you watching every move he'd take. To be a performer for your stage. Direct him wherever he needs to go! His life is at your service, you cruel woman!
He just wishes youâd come and say hello more. How long must he pretend not to adore the real you?
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His hand is on your waist. His hand is on your waist. His hand is on your waist.
A bitter taste of his own medicine. The climax of the play where the hero sees his wrongful ways! Oh wont you forgive him! He's such a selfish man, he only had those women to get your attention back on him. Can't you see none of them even come close to you? Can't you see no other man could give you what he could? Could let himself be used? Could crawl on their knees if you merely say the word?
A little violence for your love is not out of the question. Didn't Ares kill Adonis to keep his dear Aphrodite?
And the concern in your eyes, the softness you held his hand as you dragged him to his room. Oh how perfect you will be as his wife! Mother to his kids! None of those if you didn't want them! Anything for his angel.
But he couldn't keep it in anymore, he needed to tell you. He needed you.
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âI-I dont understand what y-â
âSave it. I don't care. I've always known.â
His lips are a breath away from your neck, his hands lingering on your waist and squeezing tightly to try to keep him from wandering down. His eyes staring at you with something dark and predatory simmering. He finally peppers soft kisses down your neck, not able to resist any longer. Kisses far too tender for the circumstance.
âDo you think a kind woman could ever match me?â Kiss. âThat she could keep me entertained?â Kiss . âThat I could ever commit to her?â Kiss.
âOnly a wicked woman like you could satisfy me.â Bite. A nick on your neck causing you to jolt up, much to his amusement.
âYouâre insane. I only want to use you. You mean nothing to me.â You snap back, desperate to get some dignity back. You can't fall for him. You promised yourself. You'd never fall for anyone. Never love anyone. Never let yourself feel weak-
He laughs. âThen use me, take everything from me until I have nothing left to give.â
And with a plea like that, how could you ever say no?
A.N. Ive been staring at this for hours and my brain is going mad, so i'll probably re read this again later an edit it where i can. This is my first tumblr fic so please be kind and leave some comments i'd really appreciate it. I dont know if im satisfied with how this turned out, and i reckon my British experience makes this crazy inaccurate, but i hope its still enjoyable. Let me know if you want a sequel with them dating this time.
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ê±áŽáŽáŽáŽÊÊ: You run the farm alone now. The crops still grow. The animals still listen. And Josephine still drags the bodies down where no one will ever find them. Folks in town say the farm is cursed. But youâve always wanted moreâan audience, maybe. Someone to look at you like you were something worth loving. And tonight, a manâs car breaks down on the edge of your property, and you know itâs what youâve been waiting for.
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áŽ/ÉŽ: this fic is heavily inspired by pearl, which everyone should watch at least once in their life. it's unironically such an amazing movie and i love it sm. anyways, this was a SHAMEFUL one but as usual i adored writing it. had to pull back hard on my linebreaking due to block limits so if my formatting seems way diff that's why. i've been working on this for MONTHS so please love it or i'll sob. all i can say is strap in for the read ride of your life, both figuratively and literally.
ᎥáŽÊÉŽÉȘÉŽÉąê±: 18+ MDNI (!!!!!), unapologetically dark fic, reader is fully the villain, reader is also very unstable, exposition dump, cleverly done timeskip, very short mention of an attempted assault (the reader kills the fucker), religious mentions, obsession, emotional manipulation, verbal abuse, toxic relationship, stockholm syndrome, threats of violence, graphic violence, murder, body disposal, accomplices, non-sexual drugging, sadism, masochism, begging, silverplay, dubcon, the power dynamic is fucked (literally), dom!reader, sub!remmick, pathetic!remmick, pet!remmick, feral!remmick, COLLARED LEASHED AND MUZZLED BABY, unintentional brat taming, praise/degradation kink, blood, bloodplay, vampirism, drool, spit kink, dacryphilia, cunnilingus, overstimulation, monsterfucking, p in v, pussydrunk, rutting, breeding kink, they're not afraid to switch, extremely unreliable narrator, excessive use of dividers, format butchering to bypass tumblr's block limit
The sun rose gold this morning, spilling across the fields like honey. You were already up, already working, already smiling.
You always smiled.
The hens clucked softly in the coop as you lifted the latch and greeted them with your usual chirp. They clucked back, feathers rustling as they hopped down from their roosts, and you gathered the eggs with practiced ease, cradling each one in your palm like it was made of spun glass. The pigs oinked next. You scratched the largest behind the ears, whispered that she was beautiful, and she leaned into you with a low sigh, as if she understood.
The mule got a kiss between the eyes. The cows got songs while you milked them, soft and sweet. Even the barn cats wound around your ankles, purring like little motors as you moved through your morning.
You were kind to everything that deserved it.
You wiped the sweat from your brow and squinted toward the horizon. The sky was starting to bake. Late summer meant everything stank a little more than usual, especially out by the edge of the swamp. Still, you didnât mind the heat. You never had. You liked how it clung to you. How it made the hem of your dress stick to your thighs and curl damply around your calves. Made you feel alive.
You didnât wear shoes. Hadnât in years.
Your parents used to fuss over that.
They used to fuss over a lot of things.
You donât miss them.
They left you the farm when they died, and that was the only generous thing they ever did. Even then, it wasnât intentional. You could still hear your mamaâs voice echoing through the walls sometimesâdonât embarrass us, girl, keep that mouth shutâbut it always faded after a while. You only heard it when you were bored, mostly.
And you werenât bored now.
Not with so much work to be done.
Not with Josephine waiting.
By mid-afternoon, the sun was a white eye hanging over your head, blinking slow and mean. The trees near the swamp shimmered in the haze as you made your way down the winding path, your fingers brushing the wildflowers like old friends. Crickets buzzed. Cicadas whined. Something distant cracked, like old wood splitting in two.
Josephine was there before you called her.
She rose from the muck like a shadow come to lifeâthirty feet from snout to tail, with jaws wide enough to snap a door clean off its hinges. Her scales caught the light like polished stone, and her yellow eyes blinked lazily as she drifted closer.
âHi, pretty girl,â you called, crouching at the edge of the water.
She huffed through her nostrils. That was her way of saying hello.
You loved her. More than most people. Josephine had never asked you to be quiet. Had never told you to sit with your legs closed. Had never tried to put a hand up your dress or call you a whore behind your back like the boys in town used to.
Josephine only asked to be fed.
And you were good at feeding her.
You spotted it before you stepped into the shallowsâa pale, water-bloated arm, half-covered in mud and dragging a trail of flies behind it. The hand was curled like it had something left to say. You grinned.
âOh,â you said brightly. âYou left your snack out.â
You stooped, grabbed the wrist, and flung the whole thing like a softball. Josephine moved with a speed that always startled you, even after all these years. Her jaws snapped around the arm midairâCRUNCHâand you clapped, delighted.
âGood girl!â you squealed.
Josephine sank back beneath the surface, tail dragging behind like a thick rope, and you sat at the bank a moment longer, kicking your feet in the mud. The hem of your dress was soaked and stained brown, but you didnât mind. You liked the feeling.
You leaned back on your elbows and closed your eyes, letting the sun roast your face.
That one had been a banker, you thought. Loud, red-faced, soft around the middle. Called you girl in that disrespectful tone. Tried to push you into the corn with his belt already undone. Didnât make it more than four steps before the axe caught him in the neck.
White men were always your favorite.
So easy.
So sure youâd let them do whatever they wanted.
They never saw it coming.
You hummed to yourself, a little tune your mama used to hum when she thought no one could hear her, and traced patterns into the mud beside you with one lazy finger. You imagined Josephine still chewing beneath the surface, teeth rending bone, her heart content for now.
You were content, too.
The farm was quiet. The animals were fed. The sun was high. The bones were buried deep. You had more meat hung in the cellar than youâd need for the month. Maybe longer. And Josephine never went hungry. Not anymore.
But still.
Still.
It felt like something was missing.
Not anything practicalâno, youâd taken care of that. You had grain. You had milk. You had a pretty new dress for church, even if you hadnât stepped inside that building since your mamaâs funeral.
You just wantedâ
You didnât know.
It could get lonely on the farm, sometimes.
Not all the time. Not really. You had plenty of company, after allâthe hens always had something to say, the cows were sweet as could be, and Josephine had the best listening ears in the whole world, even if her answers came in huffs and gurgles.
And you were great conversation, too.
Sharp. Funny. Endlessly clever.
You smiled at the thought. âThank you,â you murmured, nodding to no one and to yourself all at once. âThatâs very kind.â
The compliment warmed your chest like a fresh cup of coffee. You deserved it.
You lay back a little farther on the bank, mud squishing under your shoulder blades, and stared up through the trees. A dragonfly buzzed past your ear, wings catching light in flashes of green and copper. Somewhere far off, a bird cried, high and sweet.
You sighed.
Not unhappy. Just⊠tired, maybe.
The sun had made everything drowsy. The world felt soft around the edges, like a photograph that had been left too long in the window.
Your stomach growled. Loudly.
You blinked.
âOh,â you said, rubbing your belly. âI forgot to eat.â
It happened more than you liked to admit. Youâd get caught up in chores, in talking, in thinking, and suddenly the day would be half-gone without a crumb in your mouth. But that was alright. You had plenty in the kitchen. You always made sure of that.
You pushed yourself upright, brushing bits of grass and dirt from your arms. The bank was still damp, and the hem of your dress clung to your calves, streaked with muck. Youâd track it into the house. You always did.
Didnât matter. Youâd mop later.
You headed back up the path, slower now, your bare feet slapping softly against the packed earth. The breeze tugged at your dress, gentle and forgiving. Something skittered through the underbrush just aheadâa rabbit, maybe. Or a squirrel. You didnât flinch.
You were thinking about dinner.
About buttery mashed potatoes and gravy. A pork chop seared crisp on the outside, soft in the middle. Maybe greens, too. With just the right splash of vinegar to make them perfect.
Your mouth watered.
You liked to cook.
To take pieces of things and make something whole again. Something warm. Something that filled the air with smell and made your chest feel steady and full.
It felt better than destruction.
Sometimes.
The house creaked as you stepped inside, cool and dim after the weight of the sun. You swept through the living room, humming to yourself, dragging your fingers along the wood-paneled walls like you were greeting old friends.
The kitchen welcomed you like it always did.
And you smiled as you got to work.
Night had fallen. Deep, still, and wide.
You lay in bed with your arms folded over your chest, lips pursed in an unflattering frown as you stared at the ceiling fan lazily pushing warm air in circles. The damn thing squeaked. Always had. Youâd meant to fix it back in spring, but then came the planting, then the harvest, then the killingâand well, you couldnât be expected to remember everything.
You huffed.
âInsomnia,â the doctor said. Like that helped. Like some pretty little word could make it less annoying.
Youâd taken his pills exactly twice. Didnât like the way they made your thoughts run together like yolk on the floor. Didnât like the stillness, either. If something bad cameâand it always didâyou needed your full mind. Your full self.
Still, it didnât make it any easier when the nights dragged long and wide, every tick of the wall clock another tooth in your skin. You curled your knees toward your chest. Shifted. Unfolded. Shifted again.
Then came the sound. Low and sputtering. Faint at first, like a wounded thing crawling toward your porch.
Your brows lifted.
You threw the covers back with theatrical flair, pushed yourself to your feet, and crossed the room in three easy steps.
You kept the lamp on. You always kept the lamp on. It made it easier.
You peeked through the lace curtain, careful not to press your face too close. There, at the edge of the property, a car had rolled to a half-dead stop. Engine hissing. Lights dimming. And out of the driverâs side, a man stepped into the humid dark.
You tilted your head.
Even from a distance, even through the heavy blur of night, you could see he was white. Dressed too nice for a road like yoursâlike he belonged in one of those new department store ads in town with slicked-back hair and tailored trousers. His shoes were shiny. His coat too clean.
And furious.
He kicked the wheel once, shouted something you couldnât quite make out, then turnedâand saw the light in your bedroom window.
You smiled. And just as always, you slipped away from the glass.
Light drew them in. Like moths to a flame.
You padded quietly down the stairs, steps careful and practiced. You didnât rush. No, you never rushed.
By the time you reached the mirror in the hall, you could hear the footsteps. Soft crunching of gravel, the porch creaking under weight that wasnât yours.
Then, the knock. Gentle. Too gentle for a man so freshly angry.
You licked your lips and tucked a loose curl behind your ear. Your dress was thin cotton, not exactly flattering, but it framed your waist well enough. A dab of rose balm to your lips. You leaned in toward the mirror, tapping your cheek lightly with two fingers.
âLovely,â you murmured. âJust lovely.â
The doorknob was cool in your hand. You turned it slowly. Opened it wide.
And there he was.
Light-skinned, but not pallidâwarm-toned, even in the dark. Brown hair slicked back neat, not a strand out of place. His suit was a shade of blue just a whisper off from navyâexpensive looking, though it didnât quite fit his frame right. The jacket sagged a little at the shoulders, a size too big maybe, but his posture made up for it. He stood like a soldier. Or a preacher. Like a man used to being listened to.
Except tonight, he looked nervous.
"Eveninâ, miss," he said, voice warm and rolling. Soft-spoken, too. "I sure do hate to bother ya, and Iâm awful sorry for knockinâ so late, but my car went and gave up on me just a little ways back. I was wonderinââwould it be alright if I parked here for the night? Just sleep in it till I can get someone out come morninâ?"
His voice was honey. Not cloying. Just sweet enough to make you lean in.
You blinked slowly, drinking him in.
The faintest stubble dusted his chin. A gold chain sat modestly around his neck, almost hidden by the collar of his dress shirt. His canines were sharp. Not like a monsterâs. Just sharp enough to notice. His eyes were dark blue, but there was something red behind themâsomething faint. Barely there. Like fire hidden under the coals.
And handsome. God, he was handsome. The kind of handsome you couldâve written sonnets about, if youâd ever been one for poetry.
You wondered how long it would take to carve the terror into his pretty face. If heâd cry when the knife found its mark, or if heâd try to hide itâswallow his sobs like a man with something worth dying for. If heâd still speak to you sweetly while he bled out, voice warm and shaking, trying to charm you even as the color drained from his cheeks.
You wondered what his breath would sound like, ragged and shallow, when it started to fail him. If it would hitch in that soft chest of his, little by little, until there was nothing left but wet rattling.
You thought about how his pupils might bloom wide as the pain caught up to him. How that slicked-back hair would cling damp to his temples when he sweated through his fear.
You wondered if heâd beg.
âMiss?â
You blinked again, caught staring.
His smile had softened with confusion, eyes squinting as he tilted his head politely.
You smiled right back.
âOut in that heat?â you asked with a lilt. âWhat kind of host would I be if I let you sleep in your car?â
He raised his hands, sheepish. "Now, I ainât tryinâ to imposeâ"
âBut you already knocked,â you said sweetly. âSo Iâd say the impositionâs already happened, wouldnât you?â
That flustered him.
You liked that.
He glanced down at his shoes, sheepish, brushing a hand over his wrist. âI⊠suppose thatâs fair. Still. Wouldnât feel right acceptinâ too much kindness. Not from a good woman like yerself.â
Your smile widened.
âKindness is for guests, sir,â you said. âAnd I only ever show it to people who come through my door.â
He hesitated.
But you didnât.
You stepped aside.
âCome in,â you said, low and warm. âIâve got an extra room made up. Youâll be comfortable.â
And he stepped in. So easily.
And you made sure to lock the door behind him.
The sound of the latch sliding into place was a familiar one. A good one.
You turned around with your hands clasped sweetly behind your back. "Are you hungry?"
He blinked. Took a second longer than he probably meant to. His eyes flicked toward the kitchen, then back to you. âOh, no, maâam. I wouldnât want tâââ
âI made too much supper,â you interrupted, stepping around him lightly, your bare feet pattering on the wooden floor like youâd forgotten all about him already. âThree-course mistake. I do that sometimes. Donât know what gets into me. But itâs lucky you stopped by! Really, youâll be saving me from leftovers.â
âI donât wanna put ya out, now,â he said as he followed a few hesitant steps behind. âYâalready been too kind.â
Your head cocked just a little. The smile didnât leave your face.
And right on cueâhis stomach growled.
It was soft, but loud enough to make him grimace and drop his gaze, almost sheepish. You didnât laugh. You just turned on your heel, delighted.
âGo on and sit,â you said, already reaching for the stovetop. âI donât let anyone go hungry in my home.â
The table was smallâmeant for two, even though it had rarely been set for more than one. The seats were padded with worn floral cushions, the kind your mama once swore made a guest stay longer. You liked that idea.
He stood awkwardly near it, still not quite sitting.
âYâlive out here alone?â he asked, trying to sound casual. âBig place like this?â
You hummed as you pulled out a plate and filled it generously, trying your best to give the warmest servings. âSure do. My mama and daddy left it to me.â
He finally sat, stiff-backed. âThey donât help ya run it?â
âThey passed,â you said cheerfully, spooning an extra heap of beans onto the plate. âNot too long ago.â
His brow creased just slightly. âIâm sorry tâhear that.â
âIâm not!â You said it like it was nothing. And to you, it was. You smiled a little to yourself. âThey werenât the kind of people who liked to share. Especially not space. Or dreams.â
He didnât answer that.
You turned toward himâplate in handâsetting it in front of him like a prize. âI love having people over,â you said, clasping your hands together. âIt gets awfully quiet on this farm with just me and the chickens and the cows and the sky. I talk to myself so much I start giving myself compliments.â
You laughed a little and leaned in, voice low and gleeful. âAnd I always say thank you.â
He offered a weak chuckle of his own. âYer⊠real spirited, miss.â
âIsnât that just the nicest thing to say,â you beamed, walking back to the drawer for silverware.
He rubbed at the back of his neck. âWhat do ya grow out here?â
âOh, the usual,â you called. âCorn, sweet potatoes, berries, peppers, whatever wants to grow.â
âYa take care of all that yourself?â
âMhm.â You pulled the drawer open and clattered around until you found a clean set of polished silver.
The moment you walked back and set them down beside his plate, he jerked slightly.
His fingers curled away. His jaw tightened.
âAhââ he winced, shifting in his seat. âI donât sâpose ya have⊠steel? Or⊠aluminum, maybe?â
You paused. Looked down at the utensils. Then back up at him. The smile didnât slip, but your eyes narrowed just a touch.
You turned away again without asking any questions.
âPicky eater?â you teased as you rifled through the odds-and-ends drawer under the flour bins. âYou allergic to silver?â
âSomethinâ like that,â he muttered.
You found an old aluminum set and wiped it clean with a hand towel before setting it gently beside his plate.
âThere,â you said. âDonât say I never did nothinâ for you.â
He smiled again, but you noticed he didnât meet your eyes this time. Still, he picked up the fork.
And ate.
He was careful about it. Polite, but with little hesitation. He chewed thoughtfully. Deliberately. Like he wanted to make sure he got every taste before swallowing. You watched his jaw shift, the little twitch of his throat as he swallowed. The slight tremble in his hand where he held the fork.
You leaned your elbows on the table, chin in your palms, watching.
He noticed. He tried not to. But you saw the glance. The way his spine straightened, the way he looked everywhere but at you.
âSo,â you said brightly, âwhatâs your name, stranger?â
He chewed slower. Took his time before answering.
âRemmick,â he said finally.
You mouthed it to yourself. Softly. Like a little treat.
âWhat kind of name is that?â
âFamily name,â he added, like he was used to the question. âAnd yers?â
You leaned in just a little closer. âIâll tell you mine if you tell me where youâre headed.â
He hesitated. Fork paused halfway to his mouth.
âNorth Carolina,â he said, slow. âGot people up there. Was hopinâ to visit a few.â
âYou married?â
He looked up sharply. âNo, maâam.â
âEver been?â
âNo, maâam.â
You grinned. âThatâs a shame. You seem real sweet.â
He shifted again.
You could practically smell the nerves now.
You liked that. Liked the way he was trying to be so composed, so gentlemanly, so proper. You could see the effort in every movement. And you could see it fraying at the edges already.
So easy to pick apart. So easy to slip a knife into.
You clapped your hands together once. âI knew tonight was gonna be special,â you said brightly, watching him squirm under your gaze. âJosephine said so.â
Remmick blinked. âWho?â
You pointed out the window toward the woods and the swamp beyond.
âMy gator,â you said, smiling wide. âShe donât say much. But sheâs always right.â
You laughed at his face.
And RemmickâRemmick managed a tense chuckle, lips twitching. But his eyes never quite left yours. Like he was waiting for something. Like he was trying to decide if he should be afraid.
And maybe he was.
You saw it. Just a flicker in his eyes when you rose from your chair and reached toward his plate. A blink-long flinch, quick and tight, gone as fast as it cameâbut not fast enough.
You took the plate gently, like you hadnât noticed.
He cleared his throat and forced a smile, sheepish. âThank ya kindly,â he said, nodding toward the cleaned-off plate in your hands. âThat was⊠real good. Better than good, actually.â
âWhy, thank you,â you said, your own smile rising soft and sweet. âMeans a lot, cominâ from a stranger.â
You turned to the sink, rinsed the plate with the same care you did everything, and set it in the basin with a little hum. The house creaked around you, like it always did when the wind moved through. But the windows were still. The world outside had fallen quiet.
When you turned back to face him, Remmick was standing awkwardly now, thumb hooked on the strap of his suspenders, other hand tucked into the pocket of those neat blue slacks that didnât quite match the dusty world around him.
âLet me show you to your room,â you said brightly, already moving toward the hallway.
He followed, slower this time, his steps measured.
You opened the door near the end of the corridor and flipped on the light.
It was perfect.
The linens were fresh, crisp and white with just a hint of lavender from the sachets you kept in the wardrobe. The floor was swept clean, the dresser dusted. The mattress was new. Or, at least, new enough. Youâd turned it twice and flipped it once. Couldnât have the stains showing through.
The air inside smelled faintly of bleach and pine. Clean. Comforting.
Nothing of the man whoâd bled out there just a few weeks ago.
Remmick stood in the doorway for a beat too long, eyes taking in every edge. Not suspicious, exactly. Just⊠cautious. Like he couldnât tell if it was too polished.
Then he stepped inside.
His eyes landed on the doorknob.
âWhereâs the lock?â he asked, brow furrowed as he pointed toward the little brass handle and the empty round hole where the latch shouldâve been.
You tilted your head and smiled. âBroke,â you said, voice light. âYears ago.â
A pause. Just long enough.
But he nodded, like he believed it. Or like he wanted to.
âWell,â he said, sitting gently down on the edge of the bed. âThis is moreân generous, miss. I⊠I appreciate it, truly.â
His hands rested on his knees. The posture of a man not used to being taken care of.
You stood just inside the doorway, one hand on the frame, watching him settle in like youâd already begun carving out the memory. Or carving him open. What was the difference, really?
âAnything else you need?â you asked.
He looked up a little too quick. âNo, maâam. Iâmâ Iâm alright. Yaâve already done too much for me.â
You nodded slowly, lingering.
Then you let your voice soften again. âWell⊠if anything comes up, Iâll be right down the hall.â
He didnât answer right away, just nodded and offered you another one of those hesitant, grateful smiles. The kind that looked like it didnât get worn often.
âGoodnight, Remmick,â you said, voice curling sweet around the name.
âGoodnight, miss.â
You slipped from the room and pulled the door gently shut behind you.
You woke to the sound of metal grinding metal. And not gently.
It was still dark outâbarely a stitch of light crawling past the horizonâbut some dumb son of a bitch was out there raising hell like it was noon. You sat up in bed, heart hammering in your chest not from fear, but from irritation. The kind that sank deep behind your ribs and lit up like a match.
You knew who it was before you even pulled the curtain back.
There he was. Remmick. Fiddling under the hood of his car, brow pinched, jaw tight, making more noise than a dying horse.
Your lip twitched. He had the gall to sneak out? To wrench around in your yard like you hadnât just fed him, sheltered him, welcomed him into your home like the good woman you were?
You were on your feet before the thought could settle.
Downstairs, bare feet quick and light against the old pine boards, you reached under the loose floorboard behind the coat rack. The click of the latch released with a familiar little song in your bones. Out came a wrench. Heavy, clean. Well-oiled. Meant for more than fixing. You held it for a moment, just feeling the weight.
Then, with a breath, you checked yourself in the mirror near the door. Smoothed your hair. Tugged your nightgown tighter at the collar. Pressed your lips together and pulled them into something pleasant. Not too wide. Not too stiff.
âYou are lookinâ lovely,â you murmured. And then you thanked yourself for the compliment.
You always were polite.
The wrench was tucked behind your back by the time you opened the front door with a little too much force. Let it swing wide and hit the side of the house with a crack.
âMorninâ!â you called, raising one hand in a wave. âArenât you just the busiest bee this side of the county.â
He jumped. Actually jumped. That did something warm and golden to your insides.
âOh! Morninâ, miss,â he called back, voice rising nervously. âAinât mean to wake ya. Just figured Iâd get a jump on the car âfore it got too hot out.â
For just a second. Just long enough. You saw itâpanic. That tight jolt behind the eyes. The flash of guilt, of being caught. But it vanished quick, replaced with that practiced easygoing smile you were beginning to suspect he wore like armor.
You stepped down the porch stairs one by one, each heel clicking like a metronome. The wrench stayed tucked behind you, swinging with the rhythm of your walk.
âOh, thatâs so considerate,â you said sweetly. âBut you really shoulda let me know. Iâdâve made you some coffee. Or somethinâ to eat.â
He smiled againâtoo tightâand shrugged. âDidnât wanna be a bother. Figured Iâd get it goinâ and be outta yer hair âfore ya even noticed.â
You stopped a few feet from him. Tilted your head.
âWere you planninâ to leave without sayinâ goodbye?â you asked lightly, voice still honeyed but with an unintentional tilt to it.
His smile faltered. âNo, maâam.â
Too quick.
You tilted your head. âHmm.â
For a secondâjust a secondâyou pictured it. The arc of the wrench. The sick sound itâd make when it met bone. The way his body would slump forward against the car, eyes wide and confused, blood warm on the bumper.
Youâd done it before. A dozen times.
Men like him always thought they could come and go. Thought kindness was something they were owed. And when they didnât get what they wantedâwhen they got scaredâthey ran.
You didnât like runners.
But not this time.
You blinked, and the vision passed. Instead, you smiled wider and stepped close enough to catch a whiff of whatever heâd used to washâsomething woody, a little metallic. Something just shy of real clean.
âNo need to rush,â you said sweetly. âAinât every day I get such fine company out here.â
Then you reached out and looped your arm through his. Smooth as butter.
He stiffened. You felt it. But he didnât pull away. Didnât dare.
âCome on,â you chirped. âIâll give you the grand tour. Least I can do after all your troubles.â
âI really donât wanna trouble ya moreân I already haveââ
âOh, hush,â you said with a light squeeze to his arm. âI insist.â
He looked down at where your hand sat so neat against his wrist. His mouth opened, then closed. Then opened again. But he said nothing.
You started walking, guiding him gently past the house, through the tall grass that had gone gold at the tips from the summer sun. The breeze was picking up now. The sky was glowing pink.
Remmick kept pace, though you could feel the tension radiating off him. The animals watched you from their pens as you passed. The cows shifted in their stalls. The chickens rustled on their roosts. You werenât stopping for them. They knew better than to make noise when you were working. They knew who fed them.
But that didn't make for much of a tour, did it?
He kept stealing glances at you. You could feel it. That unsure curiosity. The way he watched the side of your face like he was afraid to look full on.
You didnât mind.
His shoes scuffed along the dry path as you pulled him past the crop fields and beyond the thickets that edged the far back of your property. You could already smell the swampâmossy, ripe, alive. Like it breathed.
He slowed as the trees thinned, eyes narrowing toward the glint of green water ahead. The dock stretched out in old, uneven planks, all grayed with time and slick with morning dew.
You tugged him to the edge.
âI wanna show you somethinâ,â you said, voice bright.
He hesitated, boots stalling just before the first board. âWhatâs out there?â
You turned back and smiled. âMy girl.â
He blinked. âWhat?â
You stepped up first, the dock creaking beneath your feet. Remmick followed, slower than before. Eyes darting. Shoulders stiff.
When you reached the end, you cupped your hands to your mouth and whistled. Loud. Sharp. Like youâd done since you were a child.
The swamp rippled. The trees hushed. And thenâmovement.
Water churning. Reeds splitting.
Remmick stumbled back a step, already starting to speakââWhat the hellââ when Josephine rose from the shallows like something summoned. Massive, dark, ancient. Her long jaw split open in a low hiss of greeting, amber eyes blinking in that lazy, knowing way.
âGod almighty!â He yelped, stumbling so hard he nearly toppled off the dock.
You caught his arm just in time.
âCareful now,â you said sweetly. âDonât wanna lose you just yet.â
His heart thudded like a drum under your palm. You kept your grip tight as he teetered, then yanked him back with a cheerful laugh.
He stared at you, pale and breathless.
âShe donât bite,â you lied with a grin.
He glanced toward Josephine, whoâd half-submerged again, only her eyes and snout visible above the waterline. She let out a low rumble, almost like a purr.
âIâIâm sorry,â he stammered, still breathless. âWhat is that?â
âThatâs Josephine,â you said proudly, kneeling at the dockâs edge to run your fingers through the water. âBeen mine since I was little. Raised her myself. I know I mentioned her.â
âYaâya raised a gator?â
âSheâs family,â you said. âAinât that right, girl?â
Josephine blinked once. Slowly.
Remmick still looked like he was trying to decide whether to bolt or vomit.
You stood again and turned toward him, offering your hand as if the two of them were being properly introduced.
âJosephine, this is Remmick.â
Then, with a wicked little twist to your wrist, you gave his hand a shake. A purposeful one. A mean one.
He lost his footing againâjust a bitâbut it was enough to send him swaying, toes curling for balance as the drop behind him yawned wide and dark.
Your grip steadied him at the last second.
The way his eyes went wide, lips parting in a breathless, helpless little gaspâit made a heat bloom low in your belly.
You couldnât help yourself.
You giggled.
He blinked at you, dazed. Shaken.
You held his pretty little face between your palms. Warm, smooth skin. Clean-shaven. A sharpness to the jaw you admired. His mouth, parted in something like confusion. Or maybe pleading. You couldnât quite tell.
His eyesâthose dark, stormy blue onesâhad that red gleam again. Subtle. Fleeting.
He didnât say a word. Couldnât, maybe.
And you knew, with a strange and perfect certainty, that you were going to keep him.
He was it.
The audience. The company. The man whoâd sit across the table from you, day after day, and pretend not to be afraid even when you knew better. Even when you saw it in his eyes.
You wanted that. You wanted him.
âI think youâre gonna stay a while,â you whispered, thumbs brushing his cheekbones. âDonât you?â
He didnât answer. Didnât move. Not even a nod.
His breath came quick, nostrils flaring, hands clenched at his sides.
Oh, it made you dizzy.
You pulled back slightly, just enough to tilt your head and admire the view. Still close enough to feel his heartbeat through his shirt.
So much had happened already.
You thought about the night before. How heâd stood there on your porch, looking like a lamb lost in the woods. How youâd almost slammed the door on his neck and fed him to Josephine right then and there.
You thought about the kitchen, the way his eyes darted to the utensils, how he winced at the silver. How easy it wouldâve been to follow that flinch with a knife under the ribs. Slice clean. Deep.
You thought about the way heâd sleptâso still. So silent. Youâd stood at the edge of his room for a long time. Watching. Breathing with him. Just one pillow pressed over his face and he wouldnât have made a sound.
And this morning? The car? You couldâve crushed his throat while he was bent under the hood. Let him gurgle into the oil pan.
And now. Now he was here.
Your fingers itched.
But instead of hurting himâ
You smiled. Because he was still trembling, and he didnât even know why.
Yet.
âYouâve got the prettiest eyes...â you murmured, running your fingers through one side of his hair.
He swallowed.
You didnât give him time to answer.
âLetâs get you somethinâ sweet,â you said suddenly, spinning away with a skip in your step. âI bake too, you know. You want peach or apple?â
His breath caught. âUhâwhicheverâs fine, IâIâm not picky.â
You turned back to look at him over your shoulder, bathed in morning haze, and winked.
âOh, Remmick.â
You almost felt sorry for him.
Almost.
You were going to ruin him.
You took his car apart that same night.
Heâd begged you not to. Hands trembling, voice low but desperate. He didnât screamâRemmick didnât do much screaming, not even then. But you still remembered the sound his voice made when it cracked. The way he said your name like it meant something.
Youâd just smiled. Crouched down in your dress and pinned-up hair and unbuttoned collar, fingers slick with engine grease, wrench clutched tight in your fist.
And piece by piece, youâd taken apart his only way out.
He stood there the whole time, fists clenched, jaw set. At one point he tried to stop youâreached out, just barely, like he might grab your wristâbut the glare you gave him made his hand drop. And then it was done. A gutted carcass of a car left to rot at the edge of your fields, tires rolled into the barn, battery sunk at the bottom of the swamp.
The next morning, he asked if youâd help him call a tow.
And you told him he wasnât leaving.
He stopped asking after that.
The first body he saw you drag was two nights later. A man with too many rings on his fingers and not enough brains in his head, whoâd thought he could âhave a tasteâ before paying for eggs. You stabbed him in the neck with the edge of a broken shovel.
Remmick had walked in as you were sawing off the feet. You looked up, breathless and smiling, drenched in red, and asked him to bring you the tarp.
He didnât move at first. Just stared.
And then turned and walked out.
You found him on the porch ten minutes later, staring out at the cornfields like they might lift up and take him away.
But they didnât.
So the next time, when the meat truck driver with the twitchy mustache came looking for more than pork, you let him watch from the doorway. You made sure he saw the manâs eyes roll back. The way his body twitched. The way you licked your fingers clean.
You asked if he wanted a bite.
He said nothing.
But a few hours later, when you left the heart on the barn table, you returned to find theyâd been eaten.
He never mentioned it. Neither did you.
Eventually, you replaced the brass knobs with silver ones. Polished until they shone like moonlight. You didnât bother pretending it was decorative. You wanted him to feel it. To remember. If he ever got the bright idea to leave again, you wanted the first thing he touched to bite back.
He tried sneaking out twice more after that. Once through a window on the top floor, and once during a storm when he thought you were asleep.
Both times you caught him.
The second time, he flinched like he thought you might actually hurt him.
You didnât.
You just stood in the doorway, hair soaked, nightgown clinging to your skin, and whispered, âArenât you tired yet?â
And that time, for once, he answered honestly.
âYeah.â
After that, things changed.
Not all at once. Not overnight.
But slowly.
At first, he refused to touch you. Wouldnât meet your eyes. Would sleep curled up on the far edge of the bed with his back turned and his arms tight around himself, like maybe if he stayed small enough, heâd disappear.
You didnât push.
You just waited.
He folded eventually. They always did.
The first time he kissed you back, it was barely more than a flicker. A slow lean in, a tilt of his chin, a clumsy meeting of lips.
Youâd felt him tremble.
Youâd loved it.
He told you once, maybe a month in, that he still hated you.
You smiled and kissed his jaw.
âDonât matter,â you said. âYouâre here.â
And that was the truth of it.
He was here.
He fed now. Always after you were done dismembering, always with a grimace like he was swallowing bile instead of blood. But he fed. And he held you after. Hands warm and calloused on your back, mouth soft against your neck. Like he couldnât bear to be alone in those moments. Like the only thing worse than touching you was not.
You cooked every night. He sat at the table, sometimes talking, sometimes just listening. Youâd watch his hands curl around the chipped ceramic mugs like he was still trying to remember what they were for.
And in bedâwell.
He stopped sleeping with his back to you. Started pulling you in instead. Kisses before sleep, lazy and familiar. Limbs tangled in the sheets. Sometimes heâd trace your scars in the dark. Sometimes heâd ask about them. Youâd always tell the truth. That you gave as good as you got. That the world didnât give kindness easy to girls who looked like you.
He understood that. Maybe more than he wanted to admit.
There were fights. Of course there were.
Heâd snap. Youâd scream. Heâd accuse. Youâd threaten. Sometimes it ended with him storming off to the barn, fangs out, chest heaving. Other times it ended with you crying on the kitchen floor while he wiped whispered your name like an apology.
But he always came back.
And you never asked for more than that.
Now it was fall.
The corn had gone brittle and gold. The apples were heavy on the trees. The air snapped cold at night, and Remmick wore one of your fatherâs old coats, sleeves too big buttons half-missing.
You still killed.
And he still fed.
And sometimes, when the silence between you got too thick, youâd rest your head on his chest and heâd murmur things you didnât understand in some tongue you couldnât name.
You never asked what it meant.
Didnât need to.
He was yours now.
And you were so good at keeping things.
You made pancakes that morning. Thick and golden, stacked high with butter sliding slow down the sides, pooling where syrup had already soaked through. Eggs sizzling in bacon grease. Coffee dark enough to chew. The kitchen smelled like warmth, like spice, like something that shouldâve belonged to a family and not just the two of you.
You hummed while you cooked, flitting from stove to counter in your house slippers and a nightgown far too thin for autumn, not that you cared. You liked the way Remmickâs eyes always tried not to follow you, like he was doing you a favor by pretending not to want.
âThe chickens are still laying good,â you said cheerfully, plating everything up. âMight be the best season theyâve had in years. That big red oneâyou know the oneâsheâs been peckinâ at the fence again. I swear sheâs gonna fight a fox one day and win.â You giggled to yourself, setting his plate in front of him. He didnât meet your eyes.
âAnd Josephineâs doinâ so good. Belly full and happy, just like she oughta be. Did you see the way she rolled over yesterday? Like a puppy dog.â You laughed again, loud and delighted, sipping your own coffee while Remmick finally cut into the stack of pancakes like they might bleed if he took the knife to them too hard.
âSheâs got that look about her, you know,â you said. âSatisfied. Like she knows sheâs loved.â
Remmick winced.
You saw it, even if he tried to hide it behind a mug. You leaned in across the table, smiling slow. âShe is loved, of course. I always take care of whatâs mine.â
He didnât respond. Just nodded, jaw working behind a thin smile. Took another sip of coffee. Said, âWe oughta check those fences âround the southern field, too. Some of them posts were leaninâ last week.â
You blinked. That wasnât the answer you wanted.
You tilted your head, syrupy sweetness still dripping from your voice. âDid you hear me, sugar?â
He nodded again, a little tighter this time. âI did.â
âThen whyâre you talkinâ about fences?â
âI justâfigured we had work to do is all. Yâbeen sayinâ the corn needed turninâ and the pigsââ
âWhy are you changinâ the subject?â you asked, flatly this time. No sing-song. No hum.
His mouth opened. Then closed. You stared.
âWas just⊠wasnât meaninâ nothinâ by it,â he said finally. âAinât think ya wanted me commentinâ on Josephine like that.â
âWell I do want you commentinâ,â you said. âI like to know what youâre thinkinâ. It ainât fair to shut me up in my own kitchen, Remmick.â
âI wasnâtââ he tried, but you cut him off with a smile sharp enough to bleed on.
âI tell you everythinâ, donât I? My thoughts, my dreams, the way I see the world. You know all about me. So it only seems fair you give a little too.â
He looked back down at his plate.
You stood, slow, and circled the table. âOr maybe,â you said, quieter now, closer, âyou just donât like the way I talk. That it?â
âThatâs not it,â he said quickly, looking upâfinally.
You put a hand on his shoulder. âYou think I talk too much?â
âNo, Iââ
âThink Iâm too much?â
âNo, darlinâ, I donâtâpleaseââ
Your fingers tightened. âYou think Iâm crazy?â
His silence said enough.
You tsked, sweet again. âYou wouldnât still be here if I was.â
He didnât say anything.
You leaned in. Nose to his temple. Lips just behind his ear. âWould you?â
He exhaled shakily, fork clinking against the plate.
You knew that sound. You loved that sound. Because no matter what he said, no matter what words left that pretty mouth of his, his body always told the truth. He hadnât run. Not really. Not in weeks. Not since the night you caught him watching you strip down to wash the blood from your skin and he hadnât looked away even once.
You pulled back, patted his shoulder like it was all a game, and moved back to your seat.
âI just donât like feelinâ like a bore,â you said lightly, sipping your coffee again. âOr worse. Like an embarrassment.â
âYer not,â he murmured.
You smiled, but didnât thank him. You didnât need his pity.
You watched him eat in silence for a while. He never looked up. Never wiped the syrup off his chin. Never once reached across the table for your hand like he sometimes did in the quiet hours of night.
You hated that.
You cleared your throat. âJosephine is happy, you know,â you said again, voice brighter now. âI know she is. Sheâs a good girl.â
Remmick just nodded, mouthing an agreeance.
You narrowed your eyes. âYou really donât think so?â
âI said sheâs a good girl.â
âYou didnât mean it.â
He looked at you again, and something mean flickered behind his expression. Something annoyed. But still, he gave you a thin smile, syrup-slicked and hollow. âSheâs real lucky,â he said.
âYeah,â you replied, voice steely. âShe is.â
And you let the tension hang there. Let the air get tight. Let the silence cling.
And thenâabruptlyâyou stood. Chair scraping against the floorboards, his plate in hand, walking toward the sink like your body was pulling you away before your mouth could say something stupid. Something dangerous.
You rinsed the syrup off the ceramic in one motion, hands steady, water hot, steam climbing. The sound of the faucet filled the space behind you where Remmick sat, stiff and unmoving.
You stared down into the drain like it could quiet your mind.
He was trying to upset you on purpose. That much was clear now. He wanted a fight. Wanted the cold shoulder. The punishment. Maybe he thought if he pushed hard enough, made himself unbearable enough, you'd let him go. That you'd get bored. Give him an out.
You smiled, tight and sour.
Cute of him to think he could manipulate you.
You braced the plate against the edge of the sink. Just a little pressure. Just a test. Wouldnât take much. A tap, really. Crack the porcelain, snap a piece off, drag it clean across that throat of his. Watch the life pour out of him in ribbons. Let Josephine have her fill and then some.
Your hands began to tremble. With excitement. With want.
You drew a breath. Let it settle.
Then you turned, eyes wide and sunny. âSince youâre so concerned about chores,â you chirped, drying your hands on a towel, âI think you can handle âem yourself today.â
His head lifted. âWhat?â
âYou heard me,â you said, breezy and bright. âYou wanna keep fussinâ about the south field and the leaninâ posts and all the other nonsense? Be my guest.â You walked back to the table, hands on your hips, gaze flickering down his body just for the fun of it. âI think youâll look real nice swinginâ that axe.â
He started to argue. You could see itâthe beginning of a protest rising in his throat. But something stopped him. Maybe it was the way your fingers tapped the table edge. Maybe it was the way you didnât blink. Maybe it was the thought that you werenât asking.
He sighed. Long. Heavy. âFine.â
You beamed. Then followed him out the front door.
The clouds hung low like an omen. Gray and slick, heavy with promise, just shy of rain. Wind pushed through the fields in slow rolls, rustling the corn, sending the trees creaking and moaning. The animals were restless.
And you were gleaming.
You watched from the porch as Remmick hoisted the feed sacks into the wheelbarrow, his muscles shifting beneath the sleeves of his shirt. It had once been his Sunday bestâsky blue, pressed and tailoredâbut now it hung looser across his frame, stained at the collar and fraying at the wrists.
Youâd done that to him.
Youâd made him work.
Youâd made him stay.
âYou look so handsome when you lift heavy things,â you called out, voice sing-song, arms crossed as you leaned on the porch rail.
He ignored you.
You grinned wider. âYou know Iâd climb you like a tree if youâd just say the word.â
He stopped at the gate, stiffened, then kept walking.
You giggled.
The wheelbarrow wobbled down the gravel path toward the pig pens. You trailed behind him like a shadow, arms swinging, breath light.
âYou could at least thank me,â you said sweetly.
âFor what?â he asked, without turning.
âFor lettinâ you earn your keep.â
He muttered something under his breath, probably a curse.
You leaned your head to the side. âSay that louder, sugar.â
He set the feed down hard, enough to make the pigs squeal.
âI saidââ he began, turning to you.
But whatever heat he meant to throw fizzled quick under your stare. Because you werenât angry. You werenât pouting.
You looked delighted.
You looked hungry.
And something about that scared him more than your rage ever had.
âKeep talkinâ to me like that,â you said, stepping closer, âand I might not let you come to bed tonight.â
âI didnâtââ he ran a hand through his hair. âI ainât tryinâ to be disrespectful, alright?â
You reached out, brushed dirt from his shoulder. âI know.â
He flinched.
You laughed.
The rest of the day passed like a fever.
You didnât lift a finger. Didnât offer to help with the crops or the troughs or the compost. You just watched. Sat with your legs swinging from the porch or tucked beneath you on the fence rails, humming and calling out compliments like a proud wife.
âLook at you,â you purred when he rolled up his sleeves to clean the chicken coop. âSweatinâ for me.â
He scowled.
You leaned in. âDonât act like you donât like it.â
His ears turned pink.
You nearly moaned with satisfaction. âOh,â you sighed, hand to your chest. âYou blush so pretty. I could eat you alive.â
He stood up too quickly, knocking his head on the coopâs frame. You howled with laughter.
He groaned, rubbing his scalp. âChrist, womanââ
You sauntered closer. Still laughing. Still beaming. Still thinking about the way his neck had flexed earlier while he hauled that feed. Still thinking about how tightly that belt clung to his hips.
âYou alright, sugar?â you asked, voice dipped in faux-concern.
He grumbled something about being fine.
You just laughed again and kissed his cheek, ignoring the way he stiffened when you got too close. âAtta boy,â you whispered.
You turned your face to the clouds, the wind rushing through your nightgown, lifting it just enough for him to see the curve of your thigh.
And you saw it. The way his eyes flinched and darted away. The way his chest rose sharper. The way he hated this. Hated what you were doing to him. Hated that he couldnât stop it.
You grinned to yourself, already fantasizing about that blush of his creeping lower, lower, until it spilled down his stomach and between his legs.
You could definitely get used to this.
âDonât stop now,â you called sweetly, slipping back up to the porch and stretching across the swing like a satisfied cat. âStill plenty of daylight left.â
Remmick wiped his brow, biting down whatever curse sat on his tongue.
And went back to work.
That night, the house was quiet.
You lay in bed, arms tucked under your head, staring up at the ceiling as the soft splashes of water drifted from the bathroom down the hall. Remmick was in there, washing the day from his skin, muscles youâd watched flex all afternoon gliding beneath soapy hands.
Youâd considered joining him.
More than a few times.
Considered waltzing in without a word, without permission, maybe still wearing your dusty day-dressâor nothing at allâand pressing yourself up behind him, palms flat against that broad back. Sliding your hands down his slick sides, hearing his breath catch in that way it always did when you got too close too fast.
Youâd imagined biting his shoulder just to watch him flinch. Imagined how the soap would go sliding down the drain pink-tinged from his skin.
But youâd let him have his little win tonight. Youâd taken the bath first. Given him the illusion of privacy he clung to so desperately.
You werenât cruel, after all.
Well. Not always.
The nightgown youâd chosen was white, soft as river mist, and sheer enough to make an honest man sin. The thin fabric clung to your breasts, your stomach, the dip of your hipsâand went nearly transparent where it fell between your thighs.
Remmick hated it.
Or, rather, he tried to pretend he did.
He always pretended not to look. Always tried to keep his eyes polite and his hands to himself. But somehow those hands always ended up wandering. A palm skating over your ribs. Fingers brushing your throat. A thumb pressing softly to your lips as though he could tug the words right out of you.
Tonight, you intended to make him work for it.
You sprawled across the bed, legs crossed, the nightgown bunched high on your hips. Waiting.
When he finally came out of the bathroom, steam rolling past him into the hallway, he froze.
He stood there in nothing but a towel, hair still wet, water dripping down the hard line of his chest. He looked half a wild thingâeyes wide and uncertain, mouth parted as if heâd forgotten how to speak.
Your lips curled into a slow, wicked smile.
âSomethinâ wrong, sugar?â you asked, voice like honey.
He blinked hard, as though trying to reset his brain. âN-no. Just⊠just gettinâ dressed.â
âMm-hm.â You trailed your fingertips down your own stomach, slow and deliberate. âDonât let me stop ya.â
He forced himself to move, crossing to the dresser, trying so hard to keep his eyes on the drawer pulls instead of the stretch of your thighs. You watched his throat work as he swallowed, watched the muscles in his arms twitch when you shifted on the mattress, making the gown slip another inch higher.
He pulled on a pair of loose cotton pants. No shirt. Not yet.
He tried to climb into bed.
You stopped him with your foot.
Pressed it lightly against his bare chest, right over his heart, so he couldnât swing his legs onto the mattress.
He stilled, glancing down at your foot, then back up at your face. âDarlinââŠâ
âYou grumbled all day,â you started, cocking your head to the side. âGot on my nerves somethinâ fierce.â
He flushed. âI⊠I ainât mean nothinâ by itââ
You smiled, far too sharply.
âSo you can sleep on the floor tonight.â
âI ainât sleepinâ on no damnââ
You dug your heel in deep, enough to make him wince. âCome again?â
He kept his mouth shut.
âYou wanna sleep beside me, sugar, youâre gonna have to earn it back.â
âDarlinââŠâ he breathed. âPleaseâŠâ
âEarn it.â
He lowered himself to his knees, hands sliding up your calf, pressing reverent kisses to your ankle.
âStart there,â you murmured, voice gone breathy. âMake it up to me.â
He did.
He kissed his way up your shin, warm lips brushing your skin so softly you wanted to scream. He paused at your knee, pressing his forehead to it, breath shaking. Then he moved higher, mouth finding the sensitive skin of your inner thigh, sucking gently enough to leave a shiver behind.
He skipped over the slick heat between your legs entirely.
Coward.
You decided not to scold him. Not yet. Let him think he could get away with it.
He climbed higher, pressing soft kisses to your stomach, your ribs. His mouth lingered at the curve of your breast, hovering for a long moment before he finally took a nipple between his lips, sucking slow and careful. His fangs scraped lightly against the peak, just enough to make your breath catch.
You let out a low sound, fingers sinking into his hair.
He flicked his tongue over the sensitive bud, then drew back to kiss your other breast, open-mouthed and damp, leaving little trails of saliva cooling on your skin.
âRemmickâŠâ you breathed, tugging him higher.
He obeyed, rising over you, chest brushing yours as he caught your lips.
You let him kiss you first. Let him keep it sweet. Chaste.
But then you seized it.
You tilted your head, lips parting wide, tongue diving past his as your teeth scraped his lower lip. The kiss turned messy and consuming, your moans vibrating into his mouth as you devoured him, letting the drool heâd been fighting so hard to swallow spill out, slicking your chin, your chest, his mouth shiny and wet.
You pulled back with a soft pop of suction, lightly tapping his cheek with your fingertips.
âForgot somethinâ, sugar.â
He blinked at you, panting, lips slick and parted. âWh-whatâŠ?â
Like he didnât know.
You raised your brows expectantly.
A flush crept up his throat as he ducked his head, shuffling back down your body.
Then his tongue pressed flat against your folds in one long, devastating stroke, licking from your entrance all the way to your clit, your thighs falling wider.
You let your head lull back, smiling knowingly.
Now he was earning it.
Remmickâs tongue pressed in again, this time slower, deliberate. He licked you in long, languid strokes, as though savoring each new slick taste, letting your wetness coat his tongue before pulling back just enough to breathe.
You felt his breath stutter against your cunt, hot and shaky, a tiny tremor in the wet heat of his mouth.
âMmm⊠s-sweet⊠sâso⊠sweetâŠâ he mumbled, half to himself, eyes fluttering closed as he flicked his tongue over your clit in soft, teasing circles.
A laugh bubbled out of you, high and breathless.
âListen to you,â you gasped, voice shivering as he laved another stroke through your folds. âGod, look at you. All that big man act, and here you are⊠drooling for my pussy.â
He let out a muffled, broken sound, as if your words cracked him deeper open. His lips sealed around your clit and sucked gently, sending lightning shooting up your spine.
âOh fuckâ Remmickââ
He groaned into you, the vibration rippling through your cunt. And something shifted thenâsome thin line of control snapping tight and then giving way.
Suddenly he wasnât slow anymore.
He dove in with reckless hunger, tongue plunging into your entrance, twisting and writhing as if he were trying to bury himself inside you. His big hands gripped your thighs, squeezing bruises into the soft flesh as he pulled you open wider, forcing you to take every filthy lick.
Wet, wet sounds filled the roomâobscene slurps and slick, messy laps. Your own moans rang out sharp, trembling, each one higher than the last as your hips bucked against his face.
âFuckâfuck, Remmickâdonât stopââ
But he wasnât listening anymore.
His fangs grazed you, just shy of biting, scraping along your swollen lips and making your breath catch in a ragged cry. He growled low in his throat, and you felt his tongue working frantically, plunging deep and withdrawing to flick over your clit with quick, feverish laps.
Drool spilled from his mouth, mingling with your slick until it coated his chin, dripping down the insides of your thighs.
âGod damn,â you choked out, half laughing, half moaning as you fisted your hands in his hair. âYou hear yourself? The noises youâre makinâ? You sound pathetic.â
He lifted his head barely an inch, eyes wild, pupils blown crimson. His lips were glistening, shiny with your wetness, and a thread of drool hung from his lower lip as he panted.
âC-canât help it⊠yâsmell⊠sâsweet⊠s-so fuckinâ goodâwanna live hereââ His voice broke as he stuttered forward, burying his face between your legs again.
He moaned shamelessly, loud and aching, as his tongue fucked into you faster, deeper, almost frantic. Each thrust of it sent jolts of pleasure rocketing through your belly, your thighs quivering around his head.
Your own laughter turned ragged, punctuated by sharp, gasping cries.
âOhhh, Remmickâshitâyâgonna come just from eatinâ me out, huh? That how easy you fall apart?â
He whimpered into your cunt, hips rolling uselessly against the bed as if he were trying to rut the air. The needy, broken sounds poured out of him, half-words and trembling moans, all muffled into the heat of your cunt.
âPlease⊠need⊠m-make ya comeâlemmeâneed tââfuck, fuckââ
You threw your head back, eyes rolling, your laughter dissolving into a long, helpless moan as he sucked your clit between his lips, flicking it rapidly with the tip of his tongue until your whole body seized.
Your hands twisted in his hair, pulling him closer, grinding yourself against his mouth with reckless abandon.
âShitâshitâRemmickâoh Godââ
His fangs grazed you again, and that tiny brush of sharpness tipped you over the edge.
Pleasure crashed through you in a blinding wave, your hips jerking wildly as you cried out, your voice echoing around the room.
Remmick just held you there, moaning into you, tongue still lapping as if heâd never get enough, chasing every last drop you gave him.
And as you came down, trembling, breathless, a grin split your lips.
Remmick was still kneeling there, shoulders heaving, his face a disaster.
His mouth, chin, and neck glistened, dripping with slick and spit, globs of it slowly sliding down his throat. His lips were parted around shallow, panting breaths, eyes shimmering wet in the lamplight.
âD-darlinââŠâ His voice broke, hoarse and shaking as he licked at the mess still streaking his lips. âC-can I⊠please⊠get in bed now? My⊠my kneesâre hurtinâ somethinâ awfulâŠâ
You tilted your head slowly to one side, pressing a finger to your chin in a big, exaggerated gesture of contemplation.
âHmmmâŠâ you said, dragging it out as you fluttered your lashes at him. âNo.â
He blinked, stunned, a pitiful whimper catching in his throat. âWh⊠why notâŠ?â
âTook you long enough, ainât it?â You swept your nightgown down over your thighs, smoothing the fabric, then shot him a look as sharp as broken glass. âIâm exhausted now. I couldâve run the entire farm twice while you were trying to figure out how to use your tongue.â
His face crumpled, an embarrassed flush crawling up his neck. âIâI was tryinâ so hardââ
âTry harder next time,â you said sweetly.
And with a sudden snap of your leg, you kicked him in the chest. Not viciouslyâbut just enough force to knock him back so he landed flat on the floor with a little oof, arms splayed out like a ragdoll.
âGoodnight, sugar,â you chirped, already turning your back on him.
You were up before the sun, apron tied snug around your waist, hair pinned back in curls, humming to yourself as you cracked the eggs and watched the whites sizzle in the pan. âSun ainât even had her coffee yet,â you whispered to the stove, eyes bright. âLazy thing.â
You swayed from side to side as you moved, bare feet brushing the floorboards, the hem of your dress dancing over your ankles. The smell of butter filled the air, thick and golden, pooling around fried potatoes and fresh sausage, two links for you and four for Remmick.
You liked watching him eat. Liked how quiet he got when his mouth was full. Liked how he always chewed so neatly, so polite. You glanced over at the second plate and sighed dreamily.
âWhat a night,â you said aloud, to no one in particular. âWhat a night.â
You werenât soreânot exactly. But you could still feel the ghost of his mouth between your legs, the way heâd whimpered like a dog, like a man starved. âPoor thing,â you cooed to the skillet. âWorkinâ so hard just to sleep beside me.â
You flipped the eggs. Behind you, the house creaked. You didnât flinch. Just smiled, humming a little louder as you reached for the biscuits youâd baked an hour earlier. They were still warm in the basket, soft and flaky, slathered in melted butter and clover honey. You licked your finger clean as you set them out, plate after plate until the table looked like it belonged in a paintingâexcept better, because it was yours.
Remmick was still upstairs. Still sleeping, probably. You wondered if he was dreaming.
And then, just as you laid the final fork downâa scream.
Loud. Wet. Ragged.
You beamed. Clapped your hands once, delighted. âOh! There he is!â You wiped your palms on your apron and flounced toward the table, adjusting a napkin, fixing the syrup pitcher so the handle faced just right. Another screamâthis one more guttural, panicked, echoing down the staircase. You could hear him stumbling against the walls.
He made it to the first landing with a thud. Then again at the bottom of the stairs, thumping into the hallway like heâd tripped over his own feetâor maybe just from the pure shock of it.
You leaned over the plates and breathed in deep. âSmells like love,â you sighed, and then turned just asâ
âDarlinââ!â
Remmick burst through the kitchen doorway, rattling the frame so intensely you thought itâd crack. His chest was heaving, shirtless, still damp with sleep, pants barely pulled up right. His hands were shaking. His eyes were glassy and rimmed with red. And wrapped tight around his throatâsmoking faintly with every frantic tugâwas the collar. Thick. Tight. Silver.
His fingers trembled as he tried to yank at the buckle again, hissing when his skin touched the metal. You watched it burn him. Watched him keep going anyway.
He caught himself before he spoke, swallowing his curses, his breath, all of it down deep. Then he plastered on the sweetest expression he could muster and stepped forward, voice cracking with the effort to stay gentle. âD-darlinâ,â he said, âwhat⊠whatâs on mâneck?â
You tilted your head, blinking at him with wide-eyed fondness. Then giggled. âOh, Remmick,â you whispered, sweeping forward and throwing your arms around him before he could back away. âGood morninâ, sugar!â You kissed his cheek, lips brushing sweat. He flinched. Hard. But you didnât let go. You nuzzled into his neck, ignoring the acrid scent of silver against skin. âAinât you just the handsomest thing?â
He opened his mouth again, but you beat him to it. âI found it last night,â you explained, not even looking up. âRummaginâ through the cellar after you fell asleep. Belonged to one of the old hounds my daddy used to keep. Canât for the life of me remember his name. Wasnât a very nice dog anyhow. Died real sudden. Think he got into the swamp.â You giggled at that. âBut it was good silver. Canât just let good silver go to waste.â
Remmickâs throat bobbed as he swallowed. âDid youâŠâ he started, voice barely there, ââŠdid you put it on me while I was sleepinâ?â
You turned, eyes bright as dew. âI sure did,â you said, like it was the most romantic thing in the world.
He went quiet. You returned to your chair and sat, folding your napkin in your lap. âYou wouldnâtâve let me if you were awake,â you added with a little shrug. âSo I gave you the berries. Just a few. The ones that make your head all foggy and slow. Little bit of thatâll knock out a bull!â
His face paled. Remmick stayed where he was, breathing hard, the faintest whimper leaking from between his teeth as he tried and failed again to pry at the collar. You could see the skin starting to welt, to bubble faintly at the edges, little angry red patches spiderwebbing across his throat. But he was too scared to yell. Too scared to scare you. He knew better.
You placed a hand on your hip and gestured to the table. âNow,â you said sweetly, âI made you breakfast. Sit.â
He didnât move. So you stepped toward him again, slowly, and took his hand. âItâs alright,â you whispered, leading him gently. âAinât nothinâ to cry about, sugar. I think it suits you.â
He let you seat him. You slid his plate in front of him and kissed the top of his head. The collar hissed. You smiled. Then rested your elbows on the table, cupping your cheeks as you stared across at Remmick like he was the center of the whole world.
He hadnât touched the food yet. Still trying to remember how to move with a burning collar around his throat. Still calculating how much pain each twitch of his head would cost him. But finallyâfinallyâhe lifted the aluminum fork with a trembling hand and sliced off the edge of a runny egg. He didnât look up. Not once.
You leaned in closer, breath quickening as he tilted his head the tiniest bit, wincing when the silver sizzled against his neck. Oh, it sang for you. Right before he could slip the bite between his lipsâ
âSTOP!â
He froze. His whole body jerked with itâshoulders stiff, fork halfway to his mouth, eyes going wide like a deer in headlights.
You gasped and slapped your palms on the table with a dramatic squeal, chair skidding back as you stood. âDonât move a muscle,â you warned, grinning ear to ear. âAlmost forgot your surprise!â
His mouth opened, but nothing came out. Frankly, you didnât care what he wouldâve said. You were already turning toward the cabinet. The tall one in the corner, one that neither of you really checked, which made it perfect. You opened it slow, savoring the creak of the hinges, fingers trailing along the bottom shelf like you were picking out fine china.
And then, from behind a bundle of dried herbs and spicesâyou pulled it out. Thick. Black. Shiny with oil. The leash.
Remmick didnât make a sound, but when you turned around with it held high, his jaw dropped. Fully. Wide open, like heâd just seen a ghost. You cackled. âOh, sugar,â you chirped, skipping back over to the table. âYou should see your face!â
He blinked at you, stiff as a corpse. You laid the leash down on the table between the plates, smoothing the leather flat with one hand. It looked so good there. You couldnât stop grinning. âI been meaninâ to fish this thing out for ages,â you said brightly, dangling it just a tad before putting it back down. âDidnât even know if I still had it! My mama used to use it on that ugly dog. He hated it, poor thing. Choked himself half to death the first time she snapped it on.â
You beamed, as though recalling a fond memory. Remmick swallowed hard. Maybe it was spit. Maybe it was bile. Either way, it looked like it hurt.
âYou excited?â you asked sweetly, batting your lashes at him.
His lips trembled. âY⊠yeah,â he croaked, voice thin as paper.
You clapped, delighted. âOh good! I was hopinâ youâd say that! We can take it for a lilâ test run after breakfast. Maybe do a walk âround the coop! Or down to the swamp, say hi to Josephine.â You leaned closer and dropped your voice to a conspiratorial whisper. âSheâs gonna lose her mind.â
You dug into your food with a happy hum, cutting into your sausage and letting the juices soak the edge of your biscuit. Every bite melted on your tongue. You moaned, licking the honey from your fingers.
Remmick hadnât moved. He just stared at his plate like it might bite him. You noticed. You didnât mind. You gave him a look, head cocked, still chewing. âYouâre eatinâ slow today.â
He blinked, startled. âIâIâm just tryinâ to savor it,â he offered, voice small. âItâs real good.â
You narrowed your eyes, fork mid-air. Then shrugged and giggled. âYouâre so sweet to me, sugar. Always got such nice things to say when I cook.â
He smiled. Or something like it.
You jabbed a sausage link and made it dance on your fork, humming to yourself as you watched him cut another bite of egg. He moved like his limbs didnât belong to him. Like every inch of him was fighting something inside. You loved it. It made your heart sing.
âYâknowâŠâ you said thoughtfully, propping your chin on your hand. âI was thinkinâ last night. Right before I went to bed.â
He didnât answer. Just kept chewing, slow and silent.
âI was thinkinâ,â you went on, âthat we oughta build a little shed out by the swamp. A real one. With a roof and a table and some hooks. Somethinâ sturdy.â
He looked up at that. Not all the way. Just a flicker of his gaze toward your face. You smiled back. âWe could butcher âem out there. Hang âem up by the heels and drain âem before Josephine gets to âem.â You tapped your fork twice against your chin. âBet youâd like that. Give you somethinâ to do with all that muscle. Show me how strong you are...â
Remmickâs mouth was a grim line. His fork had stopped moving. But he didnât say no. Didnât say anything at all.
You decided to let him be quiet today. Let him have this last calm before the leash clicked into place. Before the whole day rolled out yellow and warm at your feet. So you just hummed. And you watched him eat. Each bite slower than the last. Slower than anyone had any business chewing.
You kept your smile. Kept your tone light and your hands folded in your lap. You even hummed a little tune to distract yourself. But inside? Your nerves buzzed like hornets in a jar. He was dragging it. Just to spite you. Just to stretch out the moments before the inevitable. Bite after agonizing bite, chewing each mouthful like it might be his lastâlike the eggs might dissolve into a final miracle if he just waited long enough.
You tapped your fingers against the table once. Twice. Took a sip of coffee you didnât want. Licked your lips and told yourself it was fine. That you were being patient. Kind, even. You hadnât lost your temper yet. Proud of yourself for that, really.
But when he reached those last few bitesâthose very last crumbs of sausage and flecks of yolk smeared against his forkâyou stood. Calm. Still smiling. And held out your hand.
Remmick paused mid-bite. His whole body tensed. But he didnât argue. Didnât whine or flinch or try to buy himself another minute. He just dropped his gaze, brought the fork to his mouth, and swallowed the last bit of sausage.
You snatched the plate from his hands the second he did. Light, sure. But quick. Sharp enough to make his shoulders jolt. You didnât even rinse it. Didnât pretend to care. Just tossed it into the sink with a clatter and turned back to him, your grin returning in full force.
Then you dropped. Right onto his lap. The chair creaked beneath the weight of you both, but you didnât give it a second thought. You wiggled happily, thighs spread wide, grinding slow over the hard line of him through his pants. You felt the way he stiffened. Heard the way he sucked in a breath through clenched teeth.
And oh, how it delighted you.
Your fingers found the leash nextâwhere it still lay coiled neat on the table. And you clipped it on. The snap of the clasp echoed like a gunshot. A soft hiss came from the collar, that same old burnâbut not nearly as loud this time. Like the silver was running out of fresh skin to char.
Remmick whimpered low in his throat, flinching under you, and you took your sweet time drinking him in. Blisters had risen now, red and mean, dotting the edges of the band like broken pearls. But what interested you more were the strange deep marks traveling out in tendrilsâlike veins. Darker than blood, winding up his throat and slipping just beneath the skin of his collarbone. Like the silver was trying to root in him.
You pressed your thumb just beneath the burn, watching the skin give way, soft and hot to the touch. He twitched. And your stomach fluttered.
He looked... God, he looked beautiful. Absolutely wrecked. Exhausted. Skin flushed, lips parted, eyes glassy with pain. Like something youâd starved for.
You wrapped the leash twice around your wrist, tugging it just tight enough to make him blink. And then you kissed him. Open-mouthed. Wet. Devouring.
He made a wounded sound when your tongue slipped past his lipsâlike he didnât mean to let it happen, but couldnât stop himself. Like the leash did more than just keep him close. It made him obedient.
Your free hand cupped his jaw, thumb dragging along the sticky corner of his mouth, smearing spit from your kiss across his cheek as you leaned in harder, grinding again. You felt him twitch beneath youâfelt the conflict thrashing in his hips. Part of him wanted to run. Part of him didnât.
The leather between your wrist and his neck tugged softly as you shifted, and you giggled when his tongue jolted in your mouthâlike a shock had gone through him.
You pulled back just enough to see his face. âDidnât think Iâd see you so flustered again,â you whispered, brushing your nose against his. âThought youâd left all that self-respect between my thighs, sugar.â
His eyes darted over your face, sweat trickling down his temple. âIâI ainâtâŠâ he started, but the words tangled and died before they found their way free.
You ran a hand through his damp hair. Then tugged the leash again. A sharp snap of silver tension, and he gasped, hips bucking up involuntarily beneath you.
You grinned. Leaned close again. âYâknow what I think?â you murmured, dragging your lips along the side of his face. âI think you like beinâ kept.â
âN-noâŠâ
You pressed a kiss to the curve of his jaw. âSure you donât.â
You rocked again in his lap, slow and deliberate, dragging yourself over the bulge in his pants, feeling it throb beneath the weight of you. His hands gripped the sides of the chair like he was begging himself not to touch you.
You giggled and pulled his face to yours, nipping lightly at his lower lip. âSuch a good boy,â you cooed. âSuch a pretty, pretty thing.â
His breath hitched again, and you felt his thighs tremble beneath you.
And thenâthere it was. You saw it in the slow, uncertain twitch of his fingers. The way they unfurled one by one from the wooden frame of the chair, creeping up, hesitant, toward the soft give of your thighs.
You waitedâlet them rise just enough to ghost along the edge of your hips. Then you stood. Abrupt. Purposeful. Yanked the leash as you went and forced him to stumble up with you, nearly toppling the chair backward in his scramble to keep his footing.
You giggled, all teeth and joy when you caught the way his hips jerked forward with the movementâwhen you saw the thick, unforgiving bulge at the front of his pants.
âWell, look at that,â you cooed, head tilting sweetly as your fingers moved down to brush against it. He hissed softly through his teeth, already trembling again.
âThereâll be plenty of time for that later,â you promised with a wink. âBut right now? I wanna test this little thing out.â
You gave it another playful tug, not hard enough to hurt, but just enough to make the collar snap taut against his skin againâjust enough to watch the muscle jump in his throat as the silver hissed and sizzled fresh against his blisters.
He whimpered, eyes fluttering. But he didnât speak. You wondered if it hurt for him to.
You turned on your heel and started toward the back door, your steps bouncing with glee, purposefully walking faster than usualâjust to see if he could keep up. The leash stayed tight between you. His bare feet padded across the kitchen floor behind you in uneven, scrambling little bursts.
You didnât look back. Not when the screen door groaned open. Not when you stepped out onto the porch.
The sun was already high, baking the roof tiles, bleached white and brutal overhead. But the trees lining the path to the barn were generous with their shade today, long-limbed and swaying, dappled light painting the dirt trail below.
You turned just enough to flash Remmick a grin over your shoulder. âYou better keep up,â you chirped. âWouldnât want your pretty skin boilinâ off, would we?â
He didnât answer. Just gave a tight little nod and braced himself as you set offâspeedwalking now, steps quick and light, kicking up little clouds of dust as you went.
The leash tugged and bounced between you with every footfall, and more than once, you felt the tension snap sharpâfollowed by the soft, unsteady scuffle of Remmick nearly tripping behind you.
He never fell.
But oh, how close he came.
Each stumble sounded like a prayer, a bite-back whimper, a half-muttered âfuckâ caught on the wind. And still, he followed. Always followed.
You beamed as you reached the wide barn doors and pushed them open with a loud creak, the hinges singing like they hadnât been oiled in years. You stepped into the cool dark and let the leash slacken in your hand, uncoiling it from your wrist so it dangled freely now, just barely held in your grip.
Remmick panted behind you, cheeks flushed, sweat glistening at his hairline, and you turned to him like a proud hostess. âWell,â you said brightly, âget to work, sugar.â
His brow furrowed. âWorkâŠ?â
You gestured at the far wall, where rusted tools lined the hooksâshovels, axes, hammers, nails in glass jars, coils of wire and thick rolls of canvas tarp. All coated in a thin shimmer of grime. A few had darker stains. One of them still had a little chunk of something clinging to the handle.
âYou sayinâ work like we didnât already talk about this?â you asked, voice rising into a high, mock-wounded whine.
His brows pinched together, eyes flicking uncertainly toward the tools again.
You frowned, winding the leash tightâfar tighter than you had earlier that morningâaround your forearm, tugging him forward with little jerks as you took slow, deliberate steps deeper into the barn. He stumbled after you, hands lifted like he meant to soothe you.
âWaitâdarlinâ, IâI didnât meanâplease, I wasnât forgettinâ on purpose, I justâI got distracted is allââ
âYou forgot about our project, Remmick,â you said with a pout so heavy it almost cracked your face in half. âThe shed, remember? Down by the swamp? We talked about it just this morning. You said it was a fine idea.â
You knew he hadnât said a word in agreement, but he certainly wasnât going to try and fight you on it.
âIâI know, I know,â he said quickly, nodding. âI swear I didâI justâmy mindâs not been right since I woke up with thisâthisâthingââround my neckââ
You yanked the leash hard, and he choked on the last word, the collar going taut again.
The sound it made was less of a sizzle now and more of a whimper, like the silver had grown tired of burning and instead burrowed itself down deep, content to throb inside his skin.
You gave him a sharp lookâone that shut him right up.
âStart gathering,â you said, so flatly you surprised yourself. âLumberâs in the corner. Nailsâre on the shelf. Youâll need the hammer, the shovel, and probably one of those little saws too. Unless you wanna build it with your teeth, sugar.â
He didnât argue. Just nodded once. And moved toward the tools.
You flounced back against the nearest hay bale and perched yourself there, crossing your legs with a lazy hum. And watched.
Hefting the heavier tools made his arms strain, muscles twitching in his bare chestâand only then did you remember he still hadnât put a shirt on. The sun slipped through the slats in the walls in thin, golden stripes, but Remmick kept shifting to avoid them, ducking just slightly out of reach each time they threatened to graze his skin.
Every time he bent down to pick something up, you caught yourself biting your lip.
He really was pretty.
Especially with that chain trailing from his neck.
And oh, those marks.
Crawling further now. Right below his jaw, down toward his chest, some even skimming his chin in those vein-like streaks. Blooming like angry vines.
You tugged the leash.
He flinched.
Another tug. He stumbled.
You laughed.
He looked back, eyes wide with something soft and woundedâbut didnât say a word. Just nodded once more, gripped one of the thick wooden planks in both hands, and hoisted it up onto his shoulder.
âMm-mm⊠grab two more while youâre at it, sugar,â you called sweetly. âAnd donât forget the hammer! Crooked walls would make me so upsetâŠâ
He obeyed.
And you tugged againâjust to watch the way his hands trembled, the way he jerked forward, like he was yours to puppet.
Which, of course, he was.
And you couldnât wait to make him prove it.
You waited hours for the sun to get its selfish little behind out the sky. Too bright, too bold, too hot. She always liked to steal attention. You told her soâout loud, a few times, while watching from the kitchen window, arms crossed over your chest and leash wound in your hand like a ribbon of patience. But she finally tucked herself away. Which meant it was time to get to work.
Remmick had been building like a man possessed. Quiet, focused, bare chest and back damp with sweat, mouth going slack with every heavy breath. And oh, hadnât he been good. All those planks cut to size, the posts dug straight, the frame already nailed tight. The walls were nearly done now, with only one side open to the swamp for your little friend to come and go as she pleased.
You sat in the grass nearby, knees hugged to your chest, cheek resting lazily on one arm as you watched the leash swing and tug with every movement of his neck. He was sweating. He was filthy. He looked beautiful.
âTake a break,â you chirped suddenly.
He hesitatedâjust for a momentâthen set the hammer down, brushing his palms against his pants. âDonât gotta tell me twice,â he said, and that smileâoh, that smileâblossomed out slow and real, his first honest one all day. No twitch behind the eyes. No edge of panic in his voice.
You beamed. He took a seat beside you, still too far, but you let it slide. For now.
You reached into the basket youâd brought and started pouring lemonade into a glass. Then paused. Thought better of it. With a bright hum, you pushed the whole pitcher into his lap.
âThere you go, sugar. You earned it.â
He didnât even hesitateâjust lifted the pitcher and drank straight from it, throat bobbing with every deep swallow, jaw flexing as he gulped it down like water in the desert. You watched. You stared. Your own mouth went dry.
âI love watchinâ you drink,â you said dreamily, scooting closer until your bare shoulder touched his. âLike watchinâ a big olâ dog at a water bowl.â
He choked on the last gulp, coughing softly. You patted his back, grinning, then plucked a sandwich from the basketâturkey, thick and cold with a generous smear of butter and two slices of tomatoâand unwrapped it slowly.
Remmick turned his head, brows lifting.
âOh, no,â you said, wiggling your fingers. âThis oneâs on me.â
And with that, you plucked off a corner of the sandwich and held it up to his mouth.
He hesitated. But not long. He opened, lips parting slowâand you didnât just feed him.
You slipped your fingers into his mouth, slow and deliberate, feeling the soft heat of his tongue as he closed around them. Then deeper. Just a bit. Letting your fingertips slide past his tongue and press lightly against the back of his throat.
He didnât gag.
Didnât flinch.
Just held your gaze.
Steady. Obedient. Unblinking.
Slowly, you began to pull back, your fingers grazing the sharp points of his fangs on the way outâlight, teasing, just enough to feel them graze your tips. A long string of spit followed, stretching wet and shimmering from his lips to your knuckles.
You lifted your hand, tongue darting out to catch the drool with a pleased little hum.
âThereâs my good boy,â you murmured, feeding him another piece. âMakinâ up for beinâ so sour yesterday, arenât you? Beinâ sweet now. Beinâ real sweet.â
He chewed and swallowed, his eyes flicking sideways, all that confidence sapped in an instance.
âYer takinâ care of me,â he said softly. âItâs⊠real kind of ya.â
âKind,â you echoed, like the word was candy on your tongue. âYou think Iâm kind.â
Another piece. Another bite. His lips brushed your fingertips this time.
You smiled. Wider. Licked your teeth.
When the sandwich was nearly gone, you dropped the last piece into his palm and watched as he finished it, your eyes locked on his mouth, your hands twitching in your lap. You didnât say anything. You just stared. Until he looked up. And then you pounced.
You pushed him backward, fingers splayed over his chest, and climbed on top of him in one fluid motion, your knees pressing into the grass on either side of his hips.
He made a soft, startled soundâbut didnât fight. Didnât move. Just blinked up at you, pink creeping up his throat.
You folded your arms on his chest and rested your chin atop them, gazing down at him, rocking just slightly where you sat.
âHave I been mean to you?â you asked, voice pitched soft. ââCause Iâve been thinkinâ about it⊠and I worry Iâve been mean.â
He went tense beneath you. A full-body kind of still.
âNo,â he said too fast. Too sharp. Then softened it. âNo, darlinâ. Yâ yâainât been mean.â
âReally?â
âMmhmm.â
âAre you sure?â
His bottom lip trembled. He bit it. But he nodded.
You grinned. Bright as the evening stars.
Then leaned down and peppered his face in kisses. Soft ones. Wet ones. One on the nose, one on the cheek, one at the corner of his mouth. His lashes fluttered with each press.
âMy sweet boy,â you whispered. âMy sunshine. My angel pie. My beautiful lilâ farmhand. Lettinâ me feed you, lettinâ me sit on you like this. Letting me love you.â
He made a soundâbarely audibleâbut it buzzed against your lips as you kissed his jaw.
You sat up, straddling him, hands resting lightly on his ribs. Then he stiffened, suddenly.
Huff.
You blinked. Turned your head.
A slow grin split your face.
There she was, Josephine!
Her big eyes and broad snout breaking the swampâs glassy surface, nostrils flaring.
âWell, well, well,â you cooed, tilting your head. âYou want in on our picnic, baby girl?â
Josephine huffed again.
Remmickâstill pinned beneath youâstared at her with wide, horrified eyes.
You turned back to him and leaned down close, nose brushing his.
âShe likes watchinâ,â you whispered. âLikes seeinâ you be good for me.â
He swallowed, hard.
You gasped like heâd confessed to a crime and slammed both palms flat against his chest. âYou ainât even pet her yet!â
The thud from your hands knocked the wind out of himâhe let out a stunned little grunt, halfway between a hiccup and a groan, like someoneâd punched him in the ribs. His eyes blinked wide.
âIâI didnâtâdidnât know I was supposed toâŠâ he stammered, breath catching as your hands stayed firm on his sternum.
âRemmick,â you said, voice low and grave as you leaned in close. âThat girl has loved you from the moment she laid eyes on you. She welcomed you into her homeâmy homeâand you havenât even given her a single pat on the head?â
He opened his mouth. Closed it. Tried again. âIâI donât⊠I mean, sheâs a gator, darlinâââ
âOh, hush.â You were already on your feet, brushing dirt off your thighs, your smile bright as ever. The leash gave a soft tug as you wrapped it tighter around your fist. Remmickâs body stiffened.
âCâmon,â you said, sing-song. âOn your feet, sugar.â
He sat up slowly, like his bones ached. âDarlinâ, I dunno if thatâs such a goodââ
You gave the leash another gentle yank. Not mean, not yet. But the message was clear. âNow, Remmick.â
He stood without another word.
You led him by the collar all the way to the edge of the dock, your pace just a little too fast to be casual. When you got there you flopped belly-first against the old, sun-warmed wood, your feet kicked up behind you. The water lapped quietly beneath the boards.
You patted the dock beside you. âGet down here.â
He hesitatedâbut not for long. Soon he was lying stomach-down beside you, arms tense at his sides, chest rising and falling with slow, measured breaths. Like he was trying very hard to keep calm.
You reached out toward the water like youâd done it a thousand times before, fingers splayed wide, wrist loose. And from the murk below, Josephine rose. Just her snout and those big sleepy eyes, surfacing slow and steady, her nostrils flaring once in greeting. Her wide head pressed against your palm, and you scratched under her chin, down her neck, nails dragging over the thick hide. She made that low, slow, rolling sound againâsomewhere between a growl and a purr.
âThere she is,â you cooed, rubbing her head with both hands now. âThereâs my good girl. My beautiful, scaly angel. God, you missed me, didnât you, baby? You missed mama. You missed your treats.â
Remmick lay frozen beside you, not breathing. Not blinking. You could feel the tension in him, like a little live wire strung tight at the edge of the dock.
You pulled your hands back slowly and smiled at him. âYour turn.â
He looked at you like youâd asked him to saw off a finger. âIâI donât think I shouldââ
You rolled your eyes, and your tone took on that extra sugary sweet edge it always did right before something snapped. âRemmick. She knows if youâre scared. She feels it. Sheâs an empath, remember?â
His mouth opened. âIâsince when isâgators ainât empathââ
âSheâll bite your damn hand clean off if you hesitate,â you added with a nod. âBut no pressure.â
He gulped. And, with a hand that shook like a leaf, he reached out.
Josephine let him touch herâbut just barely. He managed to graze a few fingers along her head, and for a moment she stayed put. Then she huffed through her nose and sank back down into the water, gone in a blink.
You sighed, fond. âShe donât like nervous men.â
âIâI wasnât tryinâ to beââ he tried.
âShhh,â you sounded, digging through the basket behind you. âShe still loves you.â
You pulled out a turkey sandwich and leaned forward, tossing it into the water. âThere you go, sweet pea,â you called, watching it land with a plop. âJust a snack, alright? Iâll get you a full meal soon. Promise.â
Josephineâs head rose again briefly. Then disappeared, sandwich and all.
You turned back to Remmick, your face practically glowing. âAinât she just the sweetest?â
He gave the water a long, slow look. His voice, when it came, was high and hoarse: âY-yeah. Real sweet.â
Remmickâs breath had evened out, but yours hadnât. You were too wrapped up in how soft his hair felt against your fingers, how his body melted so easily into yours tonightâlike he was made to lay right here, head on your chest, arms circled around your waist, every inch of him lax and humming from the dayâs work.
Youâd let him clean you earlier. Run that sweet, reverent mouth of his between your legs while the bathwater turned lukewarm. Heâd made dinner after, too, so gentle when he set the plate down in your lap and fed you the bits he noticed you liked most. Heâd been perfect. So good youâd even considered taking the collar off.
The thought had risen up, a quiet little whisper in your brain, as you looked down at him just nowâcurled up against you like a dog freshly dried and warmed by the fire. For a moment, youâd imagined slipping your fingers under the clasp, lifting the chain from his neck, kissing the spot beneath. Youâd even smiled at the idea.
But then you laughed. Out loud.
The sound made him twitch a little, like heâd heard it from underwater. You stroked his hair to soothe him, the warmth of his breath on your skin making it so hard to believe heâd ever been anything but soft. Silly thought. You werenât taking the collar off. Not tonight. Not tomorrow. Maybe never.
Your eyes had just begun to flutter shut when it cameâa sharp pop from beyond the trees. Like a firecracker. Then the low hiss of rubber gasping its last breath. You blinked, cocked your head. Another few seconds passed. And then, right there through the window: the silhouette of a young man coming up the drive. White. Frazzled. Bag slung over one shoulder and both arms waving as he called out toward the house.
âOh!â you squealed, lips already curving with glee. âRemmick!â
You cradled his cheeks and kissed his mouth, giddy as you shoved his face further into your chest.
âRemmick, wake upâweâre gonna do this one together, you and me!â
He grunted softly, blinking up at you, mind still foggy from almost-sleep. You didnât wait for him to catch up. You practically threw the blankets back and hopped out of bed, breathless with excitement as your feet hit the floor. He sat up slowly, still dazed, brows furrowed like he couldnât believe what heâd just heard.
âSomeoneâs here?â he mumbled.
âMhm! On foot. Tire popped, I bet. Looks all helpless.â You giggled, digging into the back of your wardrobe. âI was wonderinâ how long itâd be before another one of âem showed up uninvited.â
He stood stiffly, the creak of bed springs behind you betraying his hesitation. You fished around the top shelf until your fingers brushed cool leather.
âHere it is!â you said, spinning around with the muzzle in your hands like a prize youâd won at the fair.
The blood drained from Remmickâs face. You practically skipped back to him, grinning from ear to ear.
âNo, noâwait, wait,â he said quickly, stepping back. âI can behave. Iââ
But you didnât give him a chance to finish. You mounted him right there, legs wrapping tight around his waist as he stumbled back onto the edge of the bed, catching himself with both arms behind him. You clutched the muzzle between your teeth just long enough to use both hands to grab his face.
âYouâre not in trouble, silly,â you whispered sweetly. âIâm proud of you.â
He didnât move. You reached behind his head and clipped the muzzle into place, firm but not too tight. His jaw flexed slightly under the leather straps, but he didnât fight it. He just closed his eyes for a moment like he always did when he wanted to pretend he wasnât here.
âYouâre my best helper, you know that?â you chirped, patting his cheek once it was secured. âBut I donât want you gettinâ any ideas before Iâve had my fun. Or gettinâ too hungry. You remember what happened last time.â
He blinked. You beamed, smoothed your hands down his chest, then slid off his lap and stood tall.
âIâll be quick,â you promised, brushing down your nightgown and walking to the mirror, tilting your head back and forth. âThey always say you should look your best for company.â
He didnât answer, of course. Not with the muzzle on.
You could feel his eyes on your back as you grabbed a light shawl and wrapped it around your shoulders, humming quietly while you fixed your hair with your fingers. You heard him shift on the bed, a quiet creak of wood beneath his feet, the sway of the leash still hanging from his collar. You turned and offered him your hand.
He took it.
You led him downstairs with a big smile, reaching the door just as the knock cameâa hesitant, almost embarrassed little tap. You looked back at Remmick once more, just to drink him in.
There he stood, framed by the moonlight pouring through the window. Eyes dark and still and tired, lips hidden behind the black leather muzzle. Leashed. Collared. Silent. Perfect.
You turned the knob.
And opened the door with a smile.
The moment your eyes landed on his, you felt your blood start to sing. Long blonde hair, pale and tangled in front of his forehead like heâd been running his hands through it. Blue eyes, too soft and mellow for someone his age. No older than twenty, if that. His cheeks were flushed with exertion, and heâd clearly been moving fast, his white button-down stuck to his chest with sweat, sleeves rolled up to his elbows, shoes caked in dry mud.
He started speaking before heâd even fully reached the porch. âIâm real sorry to bother yâallâtire blew out back on the main road, and I ainât got a spare or no way to patch it, so I figuredââ
Then he looked up.
You watched his mouth falter mid-sentence, eyebrows pulling together in a way that made your jaw twitch.
His gaze fell on you first. Your nightgown. Your bare feet. The smile that hadnât dimmed even once. He squinted. Tilted his head just slightly. Looking you up and down like you didnât make sense, like you didnât belong here. You could see the words forming behind his teeth. Wondering whose house this was. Wondering if you were the maid or the mistress. You knew that look. Youâd spent your whole life learning it.
But you smiled wider. Steadier. Tilted your head right back.
And then his eyes shifted. To Remmick. And oh, how they stuck.
The young man blinked. Once. Twice. His shoulders went taut, and his jaw clenched hard enough to crack. He didnât even try to hide itâthe long stare, the bewildered skim of his gaze over the leather muzzle stretched tight over Remmickâs face, the silver collar buckled low on his neck, the black leash clutched loose in your hand. Remmick didnât say a word. Just stood behind you, silent and stone still.
The man's face rippled with somethingâconfusion, disgust, maybe even fearâbut he buried it fast. Took one full step back and cleared his throat, looking anywhere but at either of you.
âYâall wouldnât happen to have a spare tire layinâ around, would ya?â he asked quickly, voice breaking just slightly at the edges. âDonât mean to impose. Iâll be on my way soon as I can.â
Your smile didnât budge. âSure we do,â you said sweetly. âItâs a little ways out back, but weâll show you where it is.â
He nodded fast, grateful. âThank ya. I really appreciate it.â
But you didnât move. Not yet.
Because your mind was still ticking, loud and red and quick, on the ways you could end him. You pictured him bent over and gagging on the floor, his hands flying to his neck, eyes wide and wet as blood slipped through his fingers and soaked his shirt. You saw his head cracked open on a tree stump, the edge of your axe buried deep between those golden locks. You imagined peeling him apart slow, piece by piece, just to see how long it would take before his throat gave out.
Heâd scream pretty. You knew it.
And if you let Remmick off the leash? If you took off that muzzle and gave him just ten minutes?
There wouldnât even be blood left to mop up.
You stood there and stared, jaw slack with quiet delight, until the silence stretched too long.
A hand brushed yours gently. Large. Cold.
You blinked.
Remmick, still behind you, tilted his head down, muzzle twitching slightly as he nudged your arm. His palm hovered near, careful not to touch too much. Just a reminder. Youâd been still too long.
âOh,â you said suddenly, breath hitching with a laugh.
The man blinked. Nervous now.
You squeezed Remmickâs hand once as a little thank-you, then turned your grin back on the stranger like nothing had happened at all.
âWell, come on then, sugar,â you said brightly. âLetâs get you fixed up.â
And without another glance back, you stepped off the porch into the night, leash taut in your hand.
You took your sweet time with the walk to the shed. The man walked a few paces ahead, wiping sweat from his brow with the back of his hand. Remmick trailed close behindâhead down, footsteps silent, muzzle already dark with spit.
It felt like walking a pig to slaughter. The thought made you smile.
âYou from around here?â you asked casually, raising your voice just enough for the man to hear.
He glanced over his shoulder and shook his head. âNah. Iâm from up near Tunica. Just passinâ through.â
âTunica,â you echoed, lips puckering in mock thought. âAinât that where the river bends all funny?â
He nodded, smiling faintly. âThatâs the one.â
You hummed like you cared, hand swaying gently at your side. âAnd what brings you out this way?â
The man rubbed the back of his neck, shoulders slumping a bit. âI was cominâ back from a work trip. Construction job got cut short. Figured Iâd surprise my boy by gettinâ home early.â
You cocked your head, grin sharp behind your teeth. âOh, thatâs sweet. Little one?â
He smiled a little wider. âYeah. Just turned seven.â
âEven more reason for you to get back on the road quick,â you said, voice light as air. âCanât have him thinkinâ Daddy disappeared.â
He chuckled politely, missing your tone entirely.
âYou got a wife?â you asked, sing-songing it this time.
He looked back again and nodded. âSure do.â
âGood,â you said brightly. âMeans your sonâll still have someone to watch over him.â
Remmick inhaled sharply behind you.
It wasnât loud. Not to anyone else. But you heard it. Felt it, evenâthe tight recoil of breath through that muzzle, the slight yank of the leash in your hand from where heâd jerked forward. You didnât slow down. Didnât look back.
The man turned to you fully now, brow furrowing. ââŠWhatâs that supposed to mean?â
You barked out a laugh so loud it echoed off the trees.
âOh honey, nothinâ!â you said, voice too high. âMeant itâs good someoneâs there watchinâ him while youâre gone, thatâs all! My brain just runninâ ahead a bit, thatâs all. Donât mind me!â
The man forced an uneasy grin.
You rounded the final bend and reached the shed, looking even sturdier than how Remmick and you had left it earlier that day.
You gestured with a lazy wave. âTiresâre in the back. Lightâs back there too.â
He blinked. âYou donât got a switch up front?â
âNope,â you lied. âItâs one of them pull-chains. Back right corner.â
He hesitated, just a beat too long. Then stepped inside, head low, hands outstretched to feel along the wall.
You waited until his back was turned. Then reached out and undid the first strap of Remmickâs muzzle.
Click.
The second strap came undone slower. Your fingers lingered.
Click.
The muzzle dropped loose, hanging heavy from the bottom strap until you slid it off entirely. And there he was.
Mouth slick and twitching. Fangs fully bared. Saliva dripped down his chin in thick globs, smacking softly against his chest. His breathing was ragged nowâbarely controlled. Eyes blown wide, flashing red at the pupils, neck pulsing like a wild animal held too long by the throat.
You lowered your voice to a murmur. âWait.â
His claws were already showingâboth hands curled and trembling, fingers warped to talons, nails long and glinting in the moonlight. His arms flexed like they were begging to be loosed.
âI said wait,â you whispered again. âLet him find the light first.â
Remmick swallowed hard. He nodded once.
Inside the shed, you heard the young man shuffling farther in. âCanât see a damn thing in here,â he muttered. âYâall sure itâs in the back?â
You didnât answer. You just watched the muscles twitch in Remmickâs jaw, the way his tongue darted out to wet his fangs. His hands clenched, unclenched. That breathy whine he let outâbarely audible, like pain. He was holding himself back, just for you. Only for you.
A soft click. Then a low buzz. The lightbulb flickered once, then caughtâglowing dim yellow in the far corner. The man turned toward it.
And Remmick moved.
It was a blur, really. A shadow that passed before it could be registered in the mind. He was on the man before you could blinkâone claw buried in his shoulder, the other raking down his chest with a wet, splitting sound that sent a shock through the air. The man staggered, howling, shoes skidding on the wood floor slick with the eveningâs humidity and his own blood. But the scream barely made it past his lips before Remmickâs teeth found his throat. Not deep enough to end it. Just a warning. Just enough to make him scream again.
Remmick didnât kill him outright. Not this time. He made sure to stretch it out.
You stepped further into the shed, the door groaning shut behind you as your shadow fell over the two bodies. Your arms were crossed loose beneath your chest, the smile on your face softening into something dreamy and mean. Tender, even. Like you were watching a man recite poetry rather than slowly dismembering a living thing.
You crouched next to them. âGood boy,â you whispered. âSo good for me.â
He didnât look up, but you could see the satisfied tremor run down his back, his jaw twitching against the metal cage of his own control. You knew you wouldnât need the muzzle. Not anymore. Not when he knew how much you liked to watch.
Youâd taught him so well.
The man was still alive, writhing nowâhis pale lashes fluttering, chest heaving in broken spasms as he tried to speak around the ruined meat of his throat. It came out a gurgle.
Remmick had his claws hooked through his ribs, peeling back his shirt and skin like a page. The cartilage popped wetly. Something deep inside gave a muffled snap.
You cocked your head, breath catching, and let out a delighted little sound.
âOh, that was a good one,â you said. âDo it again.â
His lips peeled back in a snarlâblood dripping from his chin, his fangs a mess of crimson and sinew. His glassy eyes snapped to yours, searching your face for every little flicker of praise. You didnât even have to ask again.
He slid his claws deeper, dragging them downward with a slow, deliberate tug that sent shudders through what was left of the man. He jerked once. Twice. His legs kicked and went still.
Another rib snapped. Another noise from youâsoft, breathless, touched with something like laughter.
You moved closer. The floor was red beneath your feet. The metallic smell filled your head, and you couldnât help but to stick your tongue out, just to see if the air tasted how it smelled. It didnât, to your disappointment.
You leaned into the manâs face this time, watching his eyes struggle to focus on you through the blur of blood and salt and panic.
âI was right, you know,â you cooed, brushing his hair back from his face, careful not to get blood on your dress. âAbout your wife. Your son. Theyâll be just fine.â
His lips moved, but nothing came out.
Behind you, Remmick let out a moanâferal and needy, full of blood and longing. Heâd sunk his teeth into the manâs stomach now, peeling muscle away from bone, his tongue lapping over the exposed cavity like a man possessed.
You turned slightly to watch him, resting your chin on your palm.
He made a sound that mightâve been a laugh, muffled by a mouthful of lung. You could see the shake of his handsâthose gorgeous claws twitching, begging for more. His chest rose and fell with frantic rhythm. Still hungry. Always hungry.
You could always tell when he hit that pointâwhen the blood wasnât enough, when the meat beneath his tongue stopped satisfying and the ache between his legs outgrew the one in his belly. He was panting now, eyes locked on yours like he was starved for something you hadnât fed him yet. His mouth twitched around the torn-open cavity of the manâs stomach, strings of gore catching on his fangs. His chest heaved. His claws flexed like they didnât know what else to grab. And then he whimpered. That soft little sound he always made when the hunger shifted south.
You smiled back. Slow, loose-limbed and syrup-sweet. âAw, sugar,â you cooed, stepping over what was left of the man on the floor. âPoor thing got all worked up, didnât he? All full on blood and nowhere to put it?â His lips parted under the mess, his tongue flicking out slow and clumsy. He tried to nod, but his head lolled a bit to the side, too overwhelmed already to keep still. You reached out and cupped his chin, tilting his mouth up toward you. His cheeks were glazed in spit and gore, his breath hot against your palm. His eyes had gone wet and wideâunblinking. Pitiful.
âLook at you,â you whispered. âSuch a filthy little thing.â He whined again, louder this time, and the sound vibrated all the way up your arm. âDown.â He dropped like a sack of bones. Not even a secondâs hesitation. Muzzle gone, collar tight, blood still drying in patches across his jawâand he went down like it was the only thing he knew how to do.
âGood boy,â you crooned, pushing your nightgown up past your hips as you stepped over to straddle his lap. âYou want me to make it better?â His hands gripped the backs of your thighs, claws twitching, trembling with restraint. You laughed softly and cupped his face againâgentler now. You leaned in close, close enough to feel the heat of him thrumming like a furnace between your legs. He was already hard, already leaking, rutting helplessly up into the air like he couldnât stand not being inside something.
âAw, sugar,â you breathed against his lips, voice full of mock-pity. âYou didnât think I was gonna let you fuck me after all that mess, did you?â He blinked fast. Swallowed hard. His claws curled tighter into your skin. âLook at yourself,â you said, dragging your thumb across his bottom lip. âYouâre drippinâ. Youâre disgustinâ. You killed him like a pig and now you think you get a reward?â He nodded, frantic. âMm. Maybe. But youâre gonna work for it.â You leaned in and drooled into his open mouth.
He moaned like youâd fed him salvation. Your saliva dripped down his throat, thick and warm. He swallowed it like he meant itâlike it was communion, like it was blood. His eyes rolled back a little, lashes fluttering. One of his hands slid from your thigh to your hip, clinging like a lifeline.
âThere we go,â you purred. âThereâs my good boy.â
You sank down to your knees in front of him, dragging your mouth over the curve of his throat, lapping at the gore still caked beneath his jaw. He whimpered. Bucked once. The leash in your hand tugged taut when he tried to move too fast.
âAh-ah,â you warned, mouth brushing his ear. âBe patient.â He was already crying. Tears welled in the corners of his eyes, thick and trembling. He sniffled once, just the barest hint of it, but it made your cunt clench anyway. You reached between your legs and wrapped your fingers around the base of his cock, already leaking through the fabric of his pants, dark and wet where the cloth clung tight.
âIâll let you have it,â you whispered. âBut you gotta make me come first. Think you can do that, Remmick?â He nodded violently. âYou sure?â You dragged your thumb up the length of him, just light enough to tease. âYouâre not gonna get greedy like last time, are you?â He whimpered again, eyes red and glistening.
You smiled. Leaned in. Bit his neck hard enough to draw fresh blood. Then you shoved him down onto his back and mounted his face. The sounds he made werenât human. You donât think they ever had been. He tongued you like a starving thing, like your cunt was the last source of freshwater in the whole Delta. His nose bumped your clit again and again, sloppy and desperate, until your thighs were shaking and your fingers were wound in his hair hard enough to hurt.
And all the while he moaned, shamelessly so. You ground down harder, slick soaking his face, his cheeks, his collar. You swore you saw his eyes cross when you spat again, let it drip right down into the mess between his lips. He sucked it in like breath as his hips bucked uselessly into the air, trembling beneath you.
His mouth was a messâslick and starving, tongue working like it was trying to dig something out of you, like he thought if he licked deep enough heâd find god. But it wasnât his tongue that made your breath catch like that, wasnât his moaning or the obscene noises spilling up from between your legs. It was the fangs. Youâd felt them graze you beforeâbarely, just teasing little pricks of pressure when he got sloppy or hungry or careless. But now he was deliberate. Letting them drag sharp and slow along the tender seam of you, edged enough to sting, not enough to break skin. Not yet. They slipped over your folds, parted you with reverent care. Cool against the heat of your cunt. Maddening.
And thenâgoddamn himâhe grabbed your hips. Both hands. Clawed fingers curling tight around your waist, holding you there, anchoring you like he thought he was in charge. Like you needed help to fuck his face. You felt the dig of his claws, not breaking skin, but close. Too close.
Any other time, thatâd earn him a slap hard enough to ring in his ears. Youâd drag him by the leash and make him beg for forgiveness, make him cry while you jerked him off just enough to feel it, then left him dripping and untouched on the floor. But not now. Not when your whole body was locking up, thighs trembling, belly tight and aching, the pleasure pulsing low and vicious between your hips like something with teeth. Not when his mouth was this good.
Your orgasm hit like a thunderclapâsharp and brutal and fucking filthy. It tore through you like lightning, blooming behind your eyes, down your spine, in your belly, all molten and obscene. Your vision went white. Your thighs clenched tight around his head, grinding down hard enough to bruise, smearing slick across his face and into his mouth as you rode out every last trembling second.
You moaned loud and mean, head tossed back, throat bare and aching with the sound of it. His fangs pressed firmer, dragged once more across your clitâdeliberate, slow, cruelâand your whole body seized, another gush of come soaking his chin. It was too much. Too good. Too fast. He didnât stop. Wouldnât stop. Not even when your hips bucked to the side or your breath hitched high and painful like your lungs forgot how to work. He licked you through it, mouth open and greedy, drool and spit and slick all smeared together in a wet, glistening mess.
You seized the leash and yanked it with every ounce of strength you had, jerking his head back so fast it made his whole body flinch.
âI knew youâd get selfish,â you snapped, voice low, hot, vibrating with fury and lust. âI knew it. Couldnât just behave. Had to grab me like you fuckinâ own me. Like you ainât mine.â
His eyes rolled back for half a second like the leash alone could make him come.
You had already started to lift your hips when he finally came to. âNoâno, no, no,â Remmick choked out, voice hoarse and shredded.
You stared down at him with disdain curling in your gut and heat pooling thick between your legs. But you didnât stop him. Not when he pushed you back to the floor with a desperation so raw it made your cunt ache. Not when he climbed on top of you like a man possessed, already fumbling with the buckle of his belt like he thought heâd die if he didnât fuck you right this second.
âIâm sorryâIâm so sorryâI didnât mean it, pleaseâpleaseâIâll be good, I swearââ His belt clattered to the floor. Buttons popped. He shoved his pants down far enough to free himself, cock flushed and slick and trembling with need. He was panting now, a sob catching in his throat as he lined himself up and pushed in.
You didnât stop him. You watched him. Watched his face crumple with pleasure and relief the moment his cock sank into you, the moment he was back where he belonged. His mouth fell open in a silent moan, shoulders shuddering as he bottomed out, your cunt sucking him in like it had been waiting just for this.
âIâm sorry,â he choked, burying his face into your neck, into your mouth, anywhere youâd let him go. âIâm sorry, Iâm sorryâplease donât take it awayâI need it, I need yaââ His tongue pushed through your lips like he was trying to crawl inside you completely, hot and sloppy, tasting of blood and tears and spit. He rutted into you hard, fast, helpless, sobbing into your lips as his hips snapped against yours with a punishing rhythm.
You groaned into his mouth, not from the force of itâbut from how ruined he was. He was cryingâno, sobbingâagain, tears falling with every thrust.
âLook at you,â you said between kisses, teeth grazing his lip as he thrust deeper. âOn top but never in charge. Youâll always be mine.â
âI know, I knowâI knowâIâm yoursâI belong to yaâdonât send me awayâdonât take it backââ You dragged your fingernails down his chest hard enough to make him hiss, then gripped his hips and dug your heels into the backs of his thighs, pulling him in deeper, harder.
âYou want forgiveness?â you whispered against his ear.
He nodded, trembling.
âThen fuck me like you mean it, sugar.â
And oh, how he tried. Tried to rut into you like he could dig his way into your womb, tried to kiss you like his soul depended on it. He sobbed your name like prayer, like apology, like the only thing left inside him worth saying.
And when he cameâGod, when he cameâit was like something broke loose inside him. Like all that hunger, all that grief, all that cracked and clattering need had finally found the smallest hole to spill through. His whole body went taut, muscles locking like heâd been struck by lightning, and then he howled. Loud and guttural and torn straight from the pit of his belly, as his cock twitched hard inside you and spilled deep. Thick. Endless. You felt it flood your cunt with a heat that made your back arch, made your thighs quake, made you clutch at his hair just to feel something hold you steady.
Remmick sobbed as he kept grinding into you, every pulse of his cock another desperate little claim, another pathetic apology that soaked the inside of you with seed. You wrapped your legs tighter around him, locking him in place.
âYou stay right here.â
He whimpered again, collapsing fully into you, face buried against your throat, arms trembling as he tried to stay up on all fours but couldnât. Couldnât even hold himself up after the way he came. His hips twitched every time you clenched around him, milking the last thick spurts of come from him.
He moaned into your neck. Tried to thrust again. Failed. His cock twitched, spent and going soft, and his breath hitched like he might cry again.
âI didnât mean to be bad,â he whispered, barely audible. âI was scared yâwouldnât let me⊠I just wantedâjust wanted to stay inside, Iâm sorry, Iâm so sorryââ
You turned his face to look at you. âYou did bad,â you said, smiling. âBut you made up for it.â
You kissed himâdeep, wet, slow.
He melted. Boneless in your arms, body trembling, chest still hitching with the weight of what heâd given you. You kissed him again, sweet and slow, and tasted the remnants of his fear and relief on your tongue. And when you pulled backâjust far enough to see the shape of his face, flushed and glisteningâhe said it. Soft. Raw. Almost ashamed of how much he meant it.
âI love ya,â he paused, then raised his voice. âI love ya so much it hurts. IâGod, Iâd die for ya, Iâd kill for ya, Iâd crawl in the dirt and stay there if ya asked. I canâtââ He shook, breath catching again. ââcanât be without ya. Donât want tâ be.â
You just smiled.
âI know, sugar,â you said sweetly.
And without ceremonyâwithout breaking that smileâyou reached down and slipped the muzzle back over his face.
Click.
You gave his cheek a little pat, then rolled your hips just onceâfor the sole purpose of hearing him moan again, deep and pathetic behind the muzzle. His cock gave a feeble twitch inside you, and you laughed, light as dew.
He helped you get up. Still trembling, still leaking, still rawâyou stood. His hands obeyed yours when you pointed to the corpse, and together you dragged what was left of the man across the yard. His body left streaks in the dirt. Pinkish-red. Bits of viscera caught on rocks and roots. You didnât bother covering it up.
The moonlight was sharp tonight, painting the trees silver and casting your shadows long behind you. He followed without complaint, his leash slack between you, muzzle in place. Silent and obedient.
Beneath the water, still as stone, was Josephine. Her long body rippled once beneath the surface.
You gave her a low whistle.
She came.
All muscle and patience, her jaw parting with the faintest creak as you laid the man at the edge of the swamp. His head lolled sideways, hair matted with blood, one eye still open.
Josephine surged forward with a pleased soundâmore purr than growlâand you watched, grinning, as her jaws snapped wide and slammed shut over the manâs torso. The crunch echoed deep, wet and final.
Remmick sat beside you, still panting through his muzzle. You didnât speak. Just leaned your head against his shoulder and watched your girl feedâlimbs torn clean, guts strung out like ribbons, skull crushed between rows of ancient teeth. It took less than a minute for her to finish, and when she slipped back beneath the dark water with a satisfied grunt, the surface stilled as if nothing had happened at all.
You stayed there a while longer. Let the stillness settle over you like silk. Let your fingers toy with the leather strap of his leash. Let your pulse slow and even, heartbeat thumping with a rhythm made only for you.
Because youâd won. He was yours now. All yours. And the world, stupid little thing that it was, would keep spinning, none the wiser to what you were building out here. What you'd tamed. What you'd fed.
You rose at last, and he followed, crawling dutifully at your side.
oh u know heâs a horny motherfucker who loves to keep his cock in you all the time.
Iâm talking heâs gonna pin you to the bed with all his body weight to feed it to your greedy cunt. heâs got you on your stomach, on the bed, wearing nothing but a t-shirt, having thrown your underwear somewhere over his shoulder, lost in the darkness of the bedroom.
âtakinâ it good,â heâll grunt if heâs feeling generous. youâre pretty much completely stuck under him and you canât help but whine, sensitive from when he fucked you hours ago.
you know better than to beg for more. heâd probably make it twenty times worse, edging you and then not letting you come so youâd never be able to sleep.
when heâs convinced youâre done squirming heâll turn you so youâre both laying on your side and heâs no longer crushing you. heâs already pushing both hands up against your abdomen to make you feel him buried in you, manually pressing his tip up against your g-spot. âfuck,â you hiss as he teases.
he gives you a soft slap on your thigh. âtake it.â
he loves how warm you feel. he does it constantly because it puts him to sleep like nothing else can. it helps that it makes it easier to fuck you awake in the mornings.
if you gave him a hard time about it the night before then heâll probably pin your head to the pillow and hold your legs together so he can fuck your thighs from behind. and youâll whine and cry and beg and heâll spank you for it because you donât make the decisions around here, he does. and then heâll eat you out from behind and probably fingerfuck your ass for good measure.
when heâs feeling mean heâll absolutely make you keep him warm with your mouth. he loves to watch you gag as he works open your throat. heâll keep you on your knees for hours, holding your head down so you canât go anywhere. you already know youâre drooling everywhere, all over his skin, itâs everywhere. in that moment he thinks heâs gonna try 69ing you sometime.
anyways thank you for the ask đ«¶đ«¶đ«¶đ«¶đ«¶đ«¶ send more i crave your thoughts.
The sluttiest thing a man can do is gift you your favorite book with his annotations in it so when you read it it'll feel like you're reading it together with his voice running through your head.
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Summary - Lloyds had his eyes on you for weeks, but what he doesn't realise is, you've had your eyes on him too.
Warnings - NONCON, Dubcon, Stalking, Drugging, Kidnapping. 18+ Only! My warnings are not extensive so enter at your own risk!
Word Count - 2.5k
Part Of The Basement Husbands Series
He thought he was clever, slick, unseen, but he couldn't have been more obvious if he tried. You'd clocked him immediately after that first meeting, waiting outside of your work in a large black car that screamed 'Hey I'm a big tough guy with unlimited money!'.
You almost laughed out loud as you walked away from the coffee shop you'd met at just days earlier, hearing the engine rumble to life and crawl along behind you at a distance, until it settled in front of your small detached home.
You made a show of it of course, deliberately stripping off in front of open curtains, but keeping your back to the window, teasing him with the possibility of a peak but never giving it to him.
During the weeks that followed you made sure to give him what he wanted, guiding him to your favourite places, deliberately ordering your favourite foods, shopping in your favourite stores so he could get to know you.
You wondered when he'd be brave enough to speak to you again, instead of sticking to the shadows.
Soon enough gifts began to show up on your doorstep. Expensive items that showed his wealth, wrapped in exquisite paper and soft bows. You played the part, pretending to be distraught at the idea of having a stalker. Even calling the police for good measure, knowing that he was outside watching, waiting.
What Lloyd didn't know, was that when the curtains were drawn you laid back on your bed, fingers deep in your cunt as you came to the thought of him. To the image of that delectable mustache covered in your cream while his eyes were dilated and dark.
It was no surprise to you when he showed up at the coffee shop one morning soon after, smirking at you with wide blue eyes as he raked over your figure and ordered a black coffee to go.
"I need a name." You'd said with a smile, as you tapped on the register.
"A name?" He repeated cautiously.
"For the order." You giggled and his lips had tugged up into the most gorgeous grin at the sound of your laughter, making you internally preen.
"Oh of course." He grinned, "It's Hansen, Lloyd Hansen, Sugar."
"Sugar?" You queried with a raised brow.
To which he'd simply replied, "Well if you know what to call me I gotta call you somethin'." As if he didn't already know your full legal name, where you lived, your shift patterns and your life history to this point. He thought you were so oblivious, it was kind of cute.
That name alone led you to be able to do a deep dive on the web, finding out everything you could while you made your plans to make him yours. He had money, that was obvious, connections and was definitely stronger than you, all things you carefully considered and planned for. Because one thing you knew for certain, was that he had a plan for you and you'd be damned if he got the upper hand and was the one in control.
When everything was ready, you'd made sure to divert him one evening as he followed you home in the dark. You took a different route, stepping into a dark alley you'd scoped out weeks ago and you smiled widely when you heard his car stop, the door opening and closing as he jumped from his vehicle to stalk you down the darkened pathway.
Issue 1 Solved - His car was now abandoned in the middle of nowhere, not on your usual route home. Assuming he had people that knew about you and Lloyds obsession anyway.
You dipped behind a corner, before his shadow crept into the entrance of the alley, listening to his mumbles as he trailed after you, or thought he had.
"Where the hell you goin' sugar?"
"God job I'm here to protect you, poor baby could get jumped down here."
You pressed your palm to your face to stiffle your laughter before pulling out the sedative from your back pocket, slowly and quietly releasing the cap.
He got further into the alley, his figure now shrouded in darkness as it swept past you, still mumbling, still thinking he had the upper hand.
You tiptoed behind him, raising the needle and pressing it into his muscular neck with advanced accuracy.
"Mother fuck...." He groaned before dropping to the floor in front of your feet.
Issue 2 Solved - Get the big muscly man down so he can't fight back.
You skipped down the alley a few feet, humming happily before collecting a wheelchair you'd had stashed behind the dumpster. Your friend Jake owed you a favour or two and you couldn't risk Lloyd figuring out what was going on. That favour came in handy twice on that night.
After stamping on his phone and tossing it away, you heaved and huffed as you struggled to pull his body from the floor, finally dropping him into the chair as his head lolled backwards, arms dangling uselessly by the wheels.
You quickly tucked them over his lap, not wanting your precious boy to get hurt, before pushing his limp form to the other end of the alley where Jake had left a car for you, keys tucked under the front wheel.
He was placed carefully in the trunk, along with the now folded chair before being closed away from prying eyes for the journey home.
After finally arriving back, you had carefully dragged him into the house and down the basement stairs, accidentally hitting his head a few times on the way down, before placing him on his new bed, cuffing his hands to a hook installed in the wall and tying his legs together.
Issue 3 Solved - Get the bulk of a man home and into the basement restrained.
All you had to do now was wait, wait for him to wake up so you could bask in your victory.
A few hours later, while you pottered around upstairs, you heard the first yell come through your phone. You'd been keeping an eye on him to see when he woke up and you couldn't help but laugh when you focused your attention on the live feed, watching your big tough man thrashing against his restraints and screaming into the room.
"I'm gonna kill you!"
"Let me go you fuckin' asshole!"
"When I find out who you are I'm gonna ruin you.'
"Show yourself you fuckin' pussy!"
"Silly baby." You giggled to yourself, "You need more sleep Mr grump."
You clicked a button on the screen, releasing some sleeping gas into the room and you watched as Lloyds thrashing got weaker, his yells became slurred and his eyes finally closed, dropping him back into a deep sleep.Â
You tried to get a few hours sleep yourself, tossing and turning with excitement at everything that was to come. You almost caved and went down to see him, but stopped yourself, knowing Lloyd would need a good nights sleep.Â
In the early hours of the morning, you finally gave up, huffing air through your lips and rubbing your palms over your thighs before you rose from your bed and made your way to the bathroom.Â
You brushed your teeth and then your hair, pinched your cheeks to give them some colour and slid into a deep red, silk night gown that Lloyd had gifted you weeks earlier, before twirling in front of the mirror with a wide smile and a happy squeal.Â
Your panties were slipped off and kicked to the side with your foot before you made your way to your kitchen with a skip in your step.Â
You quickly prepared a glass of water and a bowl of fruit for your man and began the descent into the basement, pressing your thumb to the sensor lock to let yourself in the room.
Lloyd was still asleep, on his back in the middle of the large bed you'd provided for him, snoring softly, so you crossed the space and placed his breakfast on the nearby table before carefully sitting on the bed, angling your body so you could appreciate Lloyd's sleeping form.
You couldn't stop yourself from reaching out and running your hands over his black turtle neck covered torso, feeling his muscles twitch under your palm. You gently pushed the bottom of the shirt up to just under his nipples, smiling at the light dusting of hair scattered down the middle of his abdomen and marveling at the deep v that disappeared beneath his beige slacks.Â
Your fingers dipped under the waistband of his pants, stilling when Lloyd let out a soft moan in his sleep, clearly enjoying your touch. You giggled and flattened your palm over the apex of his pants, sliding it down and over his crotch until you felt his cock twitch under your hand through his clothes.Â
Lloyd groaned louder, hips bucking up into your palm as you began rubbing him through the material, cock growing harder and thicker with each passing moment until it was trying to burst from his trousers.Â
Wetness was pooling between your thighs, almost dripping onto the bed from just the feel of him alone and your resolve snapped, you couldn't wait anymore.Â
You climbed on all fours over his legs, slipping your fingers into the waistband of his pants and underwear and pulling them down to his knees, licking your lips as his thick, hard cock bobbed out of its confines, the tip red and weeping from the small touch alone, begging for you.Â
You reached out and took it in your fist, stroking it a few times before shifting on your knees until you were hovering over his core. When you swiped it across your folds you let out a soft moan, already weak as his velvety head pressed to your core.Â
You pushed yourself down slowly, eyes rolling and pussy pulsing around his length from the glorious stretch, while Lloyd gasped and thrust his hips upwards. When you finally settled, clit pressed to his tuft of hair and cock buried so deep you could feel him in your stomach, you took a moment, inhaling a deep breath before you slowly lifted your hips, starting a steady rhythm as you began slowly fucking yourself of his cock.Â
Lloyd groaned beneath you, head shaking back and forth and long eyelashes fluttering as he began to come around.
"What the fuck?" He grunted as his eyes slowly opened, wrists gently tugging at his cuffs while he took in what was happening.Â
His gaze landed on your body, confusion lacing his brow as he took in the night gown with a subtle recognition, before his eyes narrowed on your breasts, bouncing in front of him as you continued grinding and bouncing on his cock.
You watched his face go through the motions, between confusion and lust, before his nose wrinkled and he let out an angry growl, dragging his eyes up to finally meet those of his captor.Â
They looked at yours, narrowed and dark, before they immediately softened at the sight of your face, your mouth hanging agape as you moaned above him.
"Sugar?" He grunted, tugging against the restraints once more.
"Morning baby." You grinned, placing your palms onto his torso so you could support yourself, while you began fucking your cunt harder and faster onto Lloyds cock. He let out a loud moan, muscles rippling along his arms as he tried to pull them down, whether to grab your hips or strangle you to death he didn't know, all he knew was that he needed you beneath his palms.
"What's going on sugar?" He grunted, "What have you done?"
You grinned widely, pussy fluttering around him as you worked yourself closer and closer to your release.Â
"Explanations later baby." You panted, "Fucking first."
"Oh fuck." Lloyd groaned, head dropping back against the pillow, eyes locked on the way your pussy was swallowing his cock with every grind of your hips.
"Untie me." He growled, "I want my hands on you, right fuckin' now."
"No can do baby." You smirked, "Can't trust you yet."
"Fuck you feel so good." He moaned, "Knew you'd feel good, please let me touch you sugar, please, I'm beggin' here."
"Next time baby I promise." You breathed, "Just relax, let me make us both come."
"Fuck." He growled, "You're in so much trouble."
"You're not in charge right now baby." You giggled, making him groan as you slapped your core against his groin.
You could feel your orgasm approaching, your stomach tightened and your body flooded with heat from your impending release.Â
"You close baby?" You moaned, fingertips digging into his taught muscle as you tried to hold your orgasm back, to wait for him.
"So close sugar, gonna fill you up." He groaned softly.Â
You doubled down, grinding against him faster and faster, watching as he groaned and grunted, eyes rolling and cock twitching until he let out a loud moan and you finally allowed yourself your release, pussy clamping down on his cock as he filled you with his cum.Â
Your hips stilled, breath coming out in ragged pants as you came down from the high, grin tugging at your lips from the best orgasm you'd ever experienced in your life, weeks of waiting and planning leading to this.Â
Lloyd's chest rose and fell harshly beneath your palms, cock softening inside you as he came down from his own release.Â
You carefully rose off of him, revelling in the wet flush of cum that dripped down your thighs as you lifted your leg over him.Â
You pattered your way to the attached bathroom, relieving your bladder and cleaning yourself up before returning to the main room while Lloyd watched you with narrowed eyes, softened wet cock sticking against his thigh.
"What the fuck are you playin' at Sugar? He growled angrily.
"What?" You smirked back at him as you crossed the space, perching on the bed next to him, "Like you weren't gonna do the exact same thing."
"That's not the point." He sneered, "Now you're gonna let me go, or you won't like what I do when I get my hands on you."
"Oh baby." You sighed, reaching out to place your hand on his jaw, thumb brushing over his thick mustache, "I'm more than happy to come home with you, to be your little Sugar."
"So untie me." He grunted through gritted teeth.
"I will baby I promise." You smiled softly, "But first we're gonna figure all this out, because I'm not gonna be some little basement wife and I can't let you go until I'm sure you won't just try to turn the tables on me, until I'm sure you see me as an equal."
"You're fucking insane." He hissed.
"Takes one to know one my love." You grinned.
You leaned down, placing a kiss to his snarling face, giggling against his lips when he sighed and gave in, kissing you back hungrily, tongue pushing it's way into your mouth to finally taste you while he let out a satisfied groan.
You pulled back with a smile, patting him on the chest, "Come on now big boy." You teased, "Calm down and have some breakfast, let your Sugar take care of you."
warnings: 18+ content (MNI or be blocked indefinitely), dark! reader/OC, player! Cameron Cade, infatuation, kissing, stalking, use of the n word, murder/death, obsession, cussing/swearing, smuttt â pnv penetration, pregnancy sex, dirty talk, confessions, creampie.
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on the jukebox: âa thin line between love and hateâ by the persuaders đ
six months later â Venice, Italy
âWhat can I start doing to get us back to where we used to be?â
Cameron Cade stood in your shared, conjoined bathroom that attached to your master bedroom. He dressed in a crisp white shirt and slacks, you caught him in the middle of him putting on a tie.
You appeared at his side through the mirror, still dressed in your silk pajamas from the night before. Your dark hair messily blown out and cascading down your shoulders.
You, his dream at one point and now his worst nightmare.
He was numb.
Heâd been that way since you forced your way back into his life, since he watched you kill Sadie right in front of him, since he felt himself just give up.
âI donât knowâ was all he muttered. That was all he could give you, in fact that was all he gave you since you moved to Venice.
You tried, you fucking tried.
Besides your sigh, the only noise occupying the space of your European master bedroom being the fresh morning air coming in waves, twirling your curtains. Birds singing every now and then.
Cameron continued dressing himself as if you werenât standing next to him. Heâd sneak a few peeks at you through the mirror but he mainly focused on getting himself ready for work at the office.
The sight of your arms raised to fix your hair into a ponytail slowly caught the CEOâs attention.
He said nothing, he just watched you. Your silk pajama cami shirt raised with every overhead work of your hands to form your hair into a proper ponytail, softly exposing the reality that plummeted Cameron Cadeâs heart.
Time rounded your belly with every passing day. You were about five and a half months along now according to your new doctor here in Venice.
Your body began forming the inevitable linea nigraâ that vertical line up and down your belly button just a shade darker than your complexion.
This was real, there was no going back.
Not to mention the thick glisten that reflected off of your hand every now and then.
He didnât know why it shined so bright this morning but it was enough to get his attention, especially when you ran your hands through your hair.
Cameron didnât know why you wore a ring. Or rather, he didnât understand why. He didnât have plans to be engaged to you.. nor did he want to.
The private life of having jetted off to Venice provided you and Cameron with a sense of normalcy than what you were used to in California.
There wasnât a need to keep up your appearances for the public. The people here in Venice didnât need to know that you and Cameron were âengagedâ.
The man stopped trying to figure you out a long time ago.
The drop of your shirt snapped Cameron from his trance, only when he looked at your stomach again, you were still pregnant. It wasnât a dream.
âI, um, just wanted to let you know that Iâll probably run some errands today while youâre gone but Iâll clean up. I know youâre about to leave but I cooked breakfast. Can I make you something quick or take with you to work?â
You met his greenish hazels with a pleading look in your own.
You wanted to do something for him, Cameron wasnât himself and you hated it. He hardly spoke, barely ate. He was so checked out, it broke your heart.
These days with your pregnancy, you seemed to crave Cameron a lot more than you usually did. You were told that was typical with your hormones.
You cuddled up to him more in bed, touched him more, you just had to be around him.
The sex was slow since the move to Venice and what your body allowed being pregnant. Sometimes Cameron wasnât for it.. most times, he just couldnât deny hovering over your needy body and stuffing you full of him.. fucking you deep into your Wyoming mattress sized bed.
It was easy to get lost into you and immerse into a reality that told the man that you were really his and this love was real.
Even when he didnât know how he felt about you.
One of the many times being now.
âIâm not hungry, Kayâ He murmured, finally tying his tie. He opted to walk clean past you and out of the bathroom but you stopped him with a gentle grasp on his bicep, he glanced down at you.
âPlease, babyâ
You and Cameron stared at each other for a charged couple of seconds.
âPleaseâ you practically begged, still gripping his arm.
The more he peered into the stupid, cute, pathetic look in your eyes, the more he wished things worked out differently. The more he glanced down at the fucking rock on your hand, he wished your bond was real.
He wondered if heâd ever grow to love you authentically instead of feeling like if he didnât, youâd kill him and actually finish the job.
But you were so pretty⊠and fucking pregnant..
Cameron sighed, âIâll eat tonightâ
To you, that was a win. You nodded.
Leaning in, you kissed the corner of his lips and smiled sweetly at him.
âI love youâ
When Cameron didnât say it back, you swallowed back a lump in your throat, forcing yourself to understand.
âIâll see you tonight, donât wait upâ
.
âGirl, you did not let me fly all this way privately for me to find out youâre engaged!â
On the days where Cameron worked and left you at home, you chose not to sit around being depressed.
That wasnât Kaymore Lake. Not prior to becoming pregnant and not currently being pregnant.
Thankfully, you had Brandi Webb to thank for that. Having you two sat down in a private dining area at one of her favorite spots, she sat beaming across from you.
âI mean, I knew you were carrying but engaged? Kaymore, this is amazing! How does it feel?â
You glanced down at the rock, it glimmered under the warm Venice sun. You sighed, dropping your shoulders.
âWell.. Iâll get back to you on that when it actually feels realâ
Brandi took a beat as she studied your face, your body language.
âBut then I think about how true that is.. and if Iâm even being real with myself, you know? Does he really love me? Does he actually care? Does he enough to make this real so I can stop living a lie?â
Tears welled in your eyes with the more you spoke and surely enough, they gently cascaded down your cheeks.
The sight broke Brandi Webbâs heart. She leaned over the table with the napkin and dabbed at your wet cheeks, patting under your eyes. Muttering for you not to cry.
âItâs always one step forward and ten steps backwards. I just want to be loved, Brandi. I want him to love me but something is always happeningâ
Brandi fully moved to sit next to you and fully engulfed you into a sisterly hug, her scrawny arms hugging you similar to how your mother would.
Brandi was four years older than you but she truly took you under her wing like a mother. You grew to love it even in the face of moments where you hated it.
She gave you one last squeeze before pulling back and cupping your face.
âDonât get to sobbing out here, itâs not good for the baby and you are too pretty for thatâ
You playfully rolled your eyes and giggled.
âNow while I can empathize with your desire for love and the yearning for it, I feel I need to remind you that you are further along than a lot of people out here asking for what you are. Tell me those things you have, list themâ
âEverything every girl wants in life. Now the circumstances surrounding all of those things might not be picture perfect but whoâs taking the goddamn picture?â
Brandi gave you a cocky look, awaiting for your agreement.
âYou have nothing to prove to anyone but yourself. No more press, no more public scrutiny, no more Sadie Daniels, nothing. As for the man at home, what was the last piece of advice I gave you about him that had you moving?â
You didnât have to give it much thought at all.
âMake him see youâ
âUh huhâ
âBut how?â
All Brandi Webb could do was give you another smile. This time it was borderline comforting and unsettling.
.
âHow was work?â You muttered from Cameronâs side at the dinner table.
He stared at his plate, forking around at the salmon and vegetables before deciding on a piece of broccoli and eating it.
âWork was fineâ
You nodded, also taking a bite out of your food and chewing. The air had the potential to grow uncomfortable, you opted to continue the conversation.
âBrandi came to visit me today, she took me for lunch. Sheâs really excited about the babyâ
It was his turn to nod, staying silent.
âAre you excited?â You tried to meet Cameronâs eye but it stayed on his plate, âabout anything?â
When he shrugged, you couldnât help but to let out a sigh. You didnât mean for it to be as loud or dramatic.
âWhat do you want me to say, Kaymore?â Cameron leaned back in his seat and crossed his arms. Finally looking at you at least.
âSomething, Cameron, anything! Make me feel like Iâm not talking to myself, please?â
âSo you want me to pretend like everything is okay? Will that make you feel better, Kay?â
âDonât talk to me like thatââ
âNo, answer me. Is that what you want me to do? To pretend like our relationship isnât built on lies and deception? Like I almost didnât die because of it? Because of you?â
You blanched at the man before you, âyouâre blaming me for that? Like I wanted to just kill you out of the blue? I can admit that I went overboard but are you forgetting the role you played? Because you did exactly thatâ You played me, Cameron!â
Cameron closed his mouth and averted his eyes to the wall in front of him, he clenched his jaw.
âYou knew that I chose not to date and why I didnât open my heart up and you still hurt me, so Iâm sorry for wanting to make you hurt the way you hurt me. Iâm sorry that Iâve chosen to forgive you, Iâm sorry that I want to move on, Iâm sorry that I want to start over with you even when you want nothing to do with meââ
The sound of your sobs filled the dining room. Shaky cries, heaving breaths, sniffles.
Cameron Cade felt his own body betray him, he glanced over at you with tears in his own eyes, a soften in his heart. You were wiping at your red face.
âIâm sorry that Iâm pregnant, Iâm sorry for Sadie, Iâm sorry for thatâ Iâm just sorry, Cam! Iâm so sorry!â
The man had seen and heard enough. He moved his chair next to yours and immediately brought your body into his hold. One hand caressing your back, the other massaging your hair.
âI-Iâm sorryââ
âShhâ Cameron muttered, âitâs okay, just breathe for me, itâs okayââ
âNo, itâs notââ
âIt is because I say it isâ
âBut you hate me and Iâm trying to fix itââ
Cameron pulled back and stared deeply into your eyes, both of you looked at each other.
Your eyes were more red rimmed and burning than his, his greenish hazels wore a soft pink tint.
âI never said I hated you, Kaymore. I just.. I just wanted some time to keep processing everything. I had to keep working out my feelings about you.. about us. I just didnât know what to do and I still donât.. but I donât hate youâ
That made you feel a bit better.
âBut you donât love me either, Cameron and thatâs all I want.. I just want to be loved, I want to be loved by you, I want to feel loved by you.. but Iâve caused all of this damage to you and us.. I just want to know how to fix itâ
Your hands slithered up and held onto his wrists, gazing intently into his eyes.
Neither of you said anything for a moment and for the first time in a while, Cameron Cade felt like he could finally see you for you.
The real Kaymore Lake beneath the riches, beneath the short temper, beneath the many layers you hid behind.
Leaning in, he pressed a soft kiss to your lips. Not once, not twice, not even thrice. Just a couple of times for you to lose count and slowly relax into the man.
âAll you have to do is be here and as long as weâre trying to be better for each otherââ
One of his hands dropped down to your satin nightgown clothed pregnant belly that protruded through the material.
âAnd better them, thatâs all of the fixing that can be doneâ
He rested his forehead on top of yours, you could make out his steady breathing.
âIâm sorry tooâ he began, âI realized I never said it.. my ego and my pride made it so I never planned to do so either. I just got caught up in wanting to have fun and thinking I could do whatever I wanted.. not thinkinâ about anybody but myselfâ
Cameron pulled back and kissed your lips again.
âYou didnât deserve that, Kaymore, and Iâm so sorryâ
You reached up and cupped his face, swiping a single tear that slid from his eye. You could feel the regret steaming off the man before you.
With one more kiss, you eased yourself into Cameronâs lap and wrapped your arms around his neck, squeezing him tight. His arms folded around your waist.
âI love you, Camâ
This time when Cameron didnât say it back, you didnât feel a ways about it.
This was the most clarity you had from him since you two got involved with each other. You knew where his heart and mind was and he knew where yours was.
You were his and he was yours. Even if he didnât verbally say it.
.
If time was what Cameron Cade needed, it was time you gave him. And time mightâve been the best thing for your relationship.
Cameron finally felt lighter. He smiled more, he greeted you every morning and night, he was less timid.
He felt more comfortable hugging and kissing you, even pulling your body closer in the middle of the night to cuddle should he have felt less of your body heat.
Maybe not the arrogant and cocky man you met in the beginning, but he was getting there. You loved it nonetheless.
He actually seemed to remember that you were pregnant and began paying attention. Youâd catch him every so often staring at your belly, even going out of his way to reach out and caress a random spot on your stomach.
âWhat do you think weâre having?â Heâd ask you randomly one day during a lunch outing.
Youâd had enough of your food and wanted to be close to him, opting to scoot yourself in his chair and relax against him, your back to his chest. Like magnets, his hands found your belly.
âWhat would you want?â You replied back. He shrugged.
âWhat do I look more like? A dad with a daughter or a dad with a son?â
The thought made your heart flutter.
âAs long as youâre in their lives, it doesnât matter much to meâ
You didnât know where the lot of Cameronâs switch came from but you didnât question it.
Much like tonight, the tall man still stood tall even while he kneeled before you with a leather box in hand.
âI love you, Kaymore Lake. Through the uniqueness of our journey, Iâve realized that I was always meant to find my way back to you. Besides the blessing youâre creating, youâre the only one Iâve got in my life and I wouldnât change that for the world. Will you marry me?â
Dressed in the best suit from his business, Cameron Cade wore a plastered smile while hope twinkled in his eye. Your hair was straightened out, your body hugged in a dress that had you feeling your best.
A small crowd gathered and erupted when you happily saidâ
âYes!â
Sliding out the ring youâd been parading, Cameron slid on a freshly cut, heavyset rock on to fill the void. It dazzled with ease under the Venice night sky.
He held onto your waist when you kissed his lips in both pure bliss and gratitude.
âI love youâ Cameron murmured, âIâll always keep you safeâ
A promise?
Youâd found yourself waddling back towards the restaurant as the last few patrons were exiting, you had to use the restroom.
With your advancing pregnancy, your bladder ached all the time.
The restrooms were empty when you entered and remained that way when you exited and approached the sink to wash your hands.
Just as you were reaching for the door handle to leave, the door pushed opened. Except it wasnât another woman coming in.. it was a man⊠and it wasnât Cameron Cade on the other side.
His dark eyes locked on yours and darkened.
âOh, Miss Lake.. so this is where youâve been hiding..â
You felt your heart sink, all of your nerves beginning to stimulate.
âDo I know you?â
The man smirked, âIn due time but all you need to know is Iâm coming to collect a debt. You left a family very broken back in the states over the murder of their baby girl..â
Sadie Daniels.
The man fully walked inside of the bathroom, steadily approaching you. You didnât miss that he locked the door behind him. One step forward, you took a step back until your back hit a wall.
You gulped, âYou have the wrong person, trust me, I did not get involved in that. Iâve completely uprooted my life and started over, okay? I am very pregnant so if youâll excuse me, my husband is waiting for meââ
âThe same man you killed her for? Iâm sorry, Miss Lake, I cannot let you leave.. not without confirmation that youâre as dead as Sadie Daniels, itâs what her family wantsâ needs actuallyâ
When the man full on approached you, you screamed. Youâd left Cameron in the car but you cried out for him anyway.
The man took you by the throat with both hands and squeezed, pressing your body against the wall. There was no remorse in his eyes even as he began lifting you up, you tried you swat his hands off of you.
Tears welled in your eyes but the lack of air is what had them blurry. You just barely caught sight of the bathroom door being tackled open, the piece of wood damn near coming off of its hinges.
âKaymore!â
You hardly heard him. The man, in a panic, dropped you. You caught yourself on your hands, weight baring on your side just perfect enough to see the show in front of you.
Cameron Cade was on a roll.
The poor man wasnât being spared at all. Cameron continued to punch, his head snapping left and right, his nose bloodied and decorating Cameronâs knuckles.
âBaby, who the fuck is this?!â Cameron loudly called out to you, he roughly grabbed the man up by the shirt, âwho the fuck are you, nigga, and why are you attacking my wife?!â
The man shot Cameron a bloody smile. âSadie Daniels sent me.. her family wants revenge and I am here to serve itâ
You could see the panic in Cameronâs eyes from where you were sitting. The nervous gears going off in his head replaying that sick memory that was part of the reason he jetted to Venice in the first place.
He didnât need to do it but it was your favorite thing to see.
You watched him brandish a knife from his back pocket. Cameronâs chest heaved as he glanced over at you, he had a look in his eye almost like he was looking for your approval.
You nodded. Smiling.
âServe it, huh? Iâon know how.. canât do that when youâre deadâ
A swift jab and plunge in the middle of the manâs chest took his life completely, it was done. Cameron Cade wasnât though.
Soft blood splatter coated his face as he yanked out the knife and began stabbing the man again.. and again.. and again.. and again.. and again.. and again.
The cherry on top?
Cameron slashed that blade from ear to ear across that manâs throat. Blood rich in the color red pooled beneath the man.
Cameron standing up and walking over to you is what had you snapping out of your trance like state. Heâd shoved the knife in his pocket without a care in the world. His bloodied hands reached out to pull you up.
âMy baby, my baby..â he muttered, giving you a once over, âare you okay? Did he hurt you? Hit you anywhere?â Concern laced his greenish hazels.
âNo, Iâm fine. Babyâs fine tooâ
You both glanced over at the dead man behind Cameron.
âHe was coming here to kill me, Cam.. because of her.. a-and you killed himââ
Cameron took you by the chin, a newfound look of determination in his eyes.
âFuck yeah I did and Iâll do it again. Should they even try to send anybody to my doorstep on some avenginâ shit, I might just do âem worse because youâre mine now, Kaymore. Youâre carrying my child. Iâll be damned if anybody call themselves tryna harm or put hands on whatâs mine, you understand me?â
You simply nodded.. with a soft bite to the corner of your lip. Cameron didnât miss it. He leaned in and kissed you once more, a bit more heatedly this time around.
âCâmon, let me âgetchu homeâ
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Home being your home.
Home being the threshold you crossed where Cameron Cade followed you up the steps, a nonverbal conversation paired with a heated energy that it felt like you two hadnât had in a while.
Home being the master bedroom where Cameron Cade was on you like white on rice.
Lips devouring yours and carefully walking you backwards with hands on your hips until the backs of your knees hit the bed. He switched positions, pulling you on his lap.
Bliss covered you like a blanket and wrapped you up in something lustful, in something that had your back arching and that familiar slick covering your pussy.
It seemed like when you opened your eyes, you were still in Cameronâs lap, except heâd stripped you both completely naked. The only thing on you being the ring.
Your adorable 5 month pregnant belly brushing against Cameronâs bare chest. Internally, it was driving him fucking crazy.
Cameron sat on the edge of the bed with your body carefully hoisted in his arms, your eager pussy just barely hovering over his hard and awaiting cock.
Your blown eyes stared down at his as he began sinking you down.. little by little, inch by inch until you were stuffed full of him.. until Cameron was grabbing handfuls of your ass to guide your rhythm.
âI missed you, babyâ You cried out as you rested your forehead on his, a moan tearing from your throat. ââmissed you so fuckinâ much.. canât nobody make me feel as good as you doâ
Cameron nods and pecks your lips, nibbling on your bottom lip, âI know, pretty girl, I know.. daddy missed you too.. missed having you this close to me.. fucking you so deep..â
You cried out some more, the pleasure charging up your body on a level way more intense than you were used to. It had to be because you were pregnant.
You tossed your head back, it welcomed Cameron to attack your neck with rough kisses. Marking your skin all kinds of reds and purples. You held the back of his head there.
âCan I tell you something?â You muttered. Cameron nodded. âSeeing you kill that man kind of turned me on.. loved seeing you get rough and dirtyâ
From below, Cameron began fucking up into you, his feet planted firmly on the ground, hands gripping at your hips. His head fell onto your chest, you could feel his breathing splaying over your skin.
âYeah?â He murmured, âI saw the look in your eyes.. you liked that shit, I knew it.. this pussy real wet, I can tell.. fuck, babyâ
Cameron managed to maneuver you on your back and under the covers, the duvet draped over his broad shoulders. His gold link dangling over you.
He rocked into you in languid, shallow thrusts. Your legs locked around his waist, your arms looped around his neck, you were so fucking noisy. Cameron loved it.
âI loved seeing you kill for me.. because thatâs why you did it, right? For me?â
Cameron wasted no time dignifying your question. He kissed you deeply.
âHell yeah, baby.. all for you and only for you. Iâll kill everybody and burn this shit to the ground if it means itâs just usâ
His thrusts picked up, he began fucking you harder. Cameron let out a deep groan at the feeling of your nails sinking into the skin of his back and scratching down.
âI donât want nobody else, Iâon give a fuck about anybody else.. itâs all you, baby girl.. fuck..â
ââM so close, baby, please donât stopâ you whined pathetically.
His name stayed on your tongue as you reached your high, your walls snapping, releasing, and creaming.
âYou love me?â Cameron asked, a rasp in his voice. You could tell his release was imminent. He looked you square in the eye, you nodded immediately.
âSo fucking much..â you took one of his hands and rested it on your stomach, âI know you love me.. look at what you did to me, baby.. canât nobody ever touch me or do what to do to me. My body is yours to do whatever you want withâ
Taking a hold of his chain, you pulled him down until your faces were barely inches away, your lips brushing against his.
âRemember what I said before? I wanna have all of your babies.. and youâre gonna give it to me.. just like that, baby, just like that..â
That mightâve been the easiest thing to send Cameron Cade into the abyss of pleasure. You swallowed his loud groans with a kiss, his body staying seated and pulsing inside of you.
Neither of you said anything or chose to come up for air, still choosing to be all over each other and kissing passionately.
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âHowâs it going with making him see you?â
âThis mightâve been the best thing we came up with. You gotta come visit me more, Brandiâ
The next morning had you soaking up the Venice sunshine in your backyard in your cabana. Laptop on your bare thighs, your glistening pregnant body in a two piece bikini.
You had your earpiece in your ear as you got comfortable.
âSo you cried some tears, told some lies, sure, weâve been there and done that. I gave you an idea but how did we execute it?â
You grinned, chuckling to yourself as you hit send on the wire transfer in front of you. Ten million dollars with such ease.
âNot we.. not even me, he did it. Exactly how I planned itâ
Your mind thought to the lifeless man on the restaurantâs bathroom floor.
âHe got made a martyr but his family is getting one hell of a paycheck. I paid that man to die. All he had to do was mention the dead bitch once and Cameron.. he snapped. The best part? That man didnât know about our lives in the states, there was no vengeance at all. I just had to scare him a little bit.. had to remind him that heâs not going anywhere..â
You were confident of a smile on Brandi Webbâs end.
âAnd it worked, didnât it?â
As if on cue, the backyard doors opened to reveal the man youâd always love. He donned sunglasses, a muscular bare chest, and basketball shorts as he approached you.
In the same instance, the wire transfer successfully completed and you quickly closed out the tab.
The closer Cameron got, the better you saw that he was cradling a bowl of fresh fruit. He wore the biggest smile as he entered the cabana.
âFor you, my ladyâ
You accepted the bowl and accepted his bent down kiss to your lips as a thank you. He also cutely bent down and kissed the front of your belly.
âI love youâ he said.
âI love you tooâ you replied back.
Grabbing a pineapple, you plopped it into your mouth and chewed.
You watched Cameron disappear back into the house.
âAnd it worked, didnât it?â
âLike it always does and how it always will..â