whenever I tell someone where I’m going for college, they ask if I’m excited. Of course the obvious answer is yes (everyone asks “are you excited” to obviously-exciting things)
My hesitation is how much I’ll miss my life, my friends, my family in my hometown. I have a routine here. It’s scary to move to another state and start over and wonder if your friends are starting over “better” than you, or making friends they’ll prefer over you forever.
I’m ready to get out of high school and lead a more exciting life. Maybe I wish I could do it all over again differently. Maybe I wish I had more time. Maybe summer will come and I’ll just want to stay in July forever and ever and ever. (I think that’s what’ll happen. No school, just being with friends and family in my home state, doing what I’ve always done every summer.)
I don’t want to return to a mess next year. I hope, with my friends, we continue to click like no time ever passed when we reunite. And I hope I make new friends at college. But I mostly hope all my friends come back.