My promise to myself, to him, and to Him
I promise you, in this time you're taking to figure things out, i will free myself from this. I promise you, I will be the best version of myself that I can possibly be. I promise you, will not be chained by this anymore by the time you are ready. I just need Him to give me strength. All the strength in the world. Strength to resist Strength to rise above. I need to remember I have this space. I need Him to remind me when I'm struggling. So I can let it be an encouragement. So I can wake up from my trances, And remind myself what I am striving for. Please help me, God. I need your help. I want to be free so badly! I have been fighting against this for so long! Free me at last! Remind me what i am doing. Remind me of my goals. Remind me of the consequences. And please, let him be gracious. I will need his forgiveness. I will need his willingness to accept me, Even dispite my secret ugliness. I pray he will be able to see me not as a monster. I pray he will accept me. But help me, God, And I promise, with all my soul and my being, That I will be free.
