Jan 16, 2019
Feeling like an evil loser today. Second day of my period also. When I’m bored I seek attention and I get possessive over that attention even if the person giving isn’t significant to me. I started depending my self worth on that again, so lame. Started hating on someone that did nothing to me. My guards are up but i just don’t trust people... also manifested as I looked at how lacking I am in confidence these days. I think being seen and given attention is my only connection to the ground these days. If I faded so easily maybe I will just detach and go away. I started isolating myself randomly. I don’t have clear reasons for the things that i do but they feel necessary for whatever bad seeds I let grow in my spirit . Weeds.
