What makes the Destiny 2 situation even more frustrating for me is that I barely got the time to enjoy it because, due to me getting hyperfixated on Destiny 2, everytime I play or interact with it I get overwhelmed from excitement to the point of panic. I've been dealing with this for 10 years.
Everytime I get a new hyperfixation nowadays it gets to a point where I get so overstimulated from it to the point of panic or a meltdown. Many people don't realise how debilitating this is. Where you really want to interact with something you're invested in but can't.
People don't realise how incredibly terrifying a meltdown is. The cold chills, the shaking, the racing catastrophic thoughts and the nausea to the point of throwing up. Sometimes multiple times.
Not gonna lie. My meltdowns are one of the most scary thing I have ever experienced.
Nowadays even drawing stuff related to my hyperfixations can overwhelm me. I fucking hate it. I hate the mental block I'm experiencing because everything I want to do could cause a meltdown.
Idk where I'm going with this post. I just needed to get this off my chest. Fuck capitalism/corporate greed (which caused the whole issue with Destiny) and fuck my hopelessly autistic brain.
