your best friend hooks up with her bae and thats all she can talk about and your feels are over working in your body and you just start crying all randomly and your solution to everything is becoming a cat lady with 12 cats for the 12 months of #datsinglelife and then you realize you're allergic to cats and that you might die of the overload of cat allergies and all your friend can say is "eventually you'll find someone", and then you just kinda crumble and fall and your ovaries are all in a mush.....

If she wasn’t hard at work out in the fields or tending to the animals she seemed to always hover around me and watch me toil over maps and books. She had a knack for knowing when I needed a break and despite my best efforts to continue working, she would grab me by the arm and push me out of the house to either go exploring, run to the local town’s festivities or teaching me the finer points of spell slinging. Shes even saved my life more times than I care to remember but she was always smiling when she did.

Never did figure out why she became so infatuated with me but then again I really didn’t care.

I eventually gained enough courage to ask her to marry with me. It shocked even her but she accepted emphatically.

Unfortunately it was not to last. It wasn’t long after we got engaged that the Dominion reared its ugly heads and took her away from me. I’ll never forget that day as I held her in my arms and she slipped away she smiled and said “Thank you.”

It still gets hard but sometimes I can still feel her nearby.

I know she waits for me on the other side of the void. Still watching over my dumb reckless self.

Every day.

Yet, it seems so easy, but it’s so hard.

  Some days I can feel the warmth of it,

Some days it just slides right by,

Some days I feel as if I’ll never find it.

  I can’t see in front of me,

Behind me,

Or to the left or right.

I’m lost.

  It leaves an eerie feeling in my stomach,

Sadness in my bones,

Mixed emotions in me.

It’s like I’m looking for a light in thick…Black fog…