#d.g.b.

I thought this time would be better. I was so wrong.

Lol I still love you and that's so naive of me. I know you were just using me for sex. I know from the bottom of my heart that you never loved me. I know I deserve better than you, but you're all I want. People say you're dumb for leaving me, but I'm the dumb one for wanting you. I just want to be loved by you.

I'm so sad that I'm nauseous and I need to puke but I'm sitting here dry heaving like an idiot because I haven't eaten anything.

Sorry I wasn't good enough for you. I'm sorry you'd rather be alone than with me. I'm so fucking sorry.

Why am I so sad all of the time? I try my best to be happy; I really do. I just wish you would comfort me or at least talk to me.

I've always been dead set against allowing anyone or anything to affect my emotions in a positive way. I've only ever allowed things to bring me down and make me feel awful about myself and just life in general. But man does this boy make me happy.