#cyber texting

I saw a button that said: "I would kill myself but my Ex would get Survivor Benefits." For some reason, it just screams Bones' snarkiness.

I wanna cosplay Junko. :c

Obviously not dead. Just cant tumblr at home besides personal txt. Blame dad.

So being me, I forgot my house key at home. Im driving back home from a friend's and it's like... 1, 1.20. I get back, it's dark (usually there's the front light on). Ok fine whatever. Car doesn't have garage opener because it sits outside, so can't get through there. Checks front door, locked. Normal. Goes around to the back. Gate's opened. Huh.... Okay..... Checks back door into garage. Locked. Normal. Checks backdoor. Locked. Normal. Well bro has been consistantly been up till two lately, let's knock on his window to his room. No reply. Okay maybe he's at the computer. No reply. Well great I am stuck outside. Sends him a text and calls mom's phone several times to get his attention. Nothing. Texts friend back to see if I can spend the night possibly. Nope. Ok whatever. Knocks again on windows. Goes back to her room and see if she can get in through there. One of the latches is locked and can't be opened from the outside. Well great; can't get in and I can't wake up my parents to let me in cuz they will kill me. Stands outside for several minutes, fearing scorpions. Friend gives idea for me to go to Dennys. Ok. Not bad idea; I have my laptop and shit with me. Goes to put gas in cuz car was near empty. Cleans windows becauss killing time. I start heading off to the Dennys when mom calls. Well shit, here's what I wanted to avoid. Picks up, yells at me for my foolishness (nothing new) and says that bro was waiting for me (I didn't know this). Came home. Got yelled at more. "I didn't hover around so you I could raise you to be a thinker. You are stupid. Who leaves the house withlut keys. Brother was waiting for you blah blah blah. Where were you going to go you cant be out late at night blah. Did you try knocking?" I response in kind. "Well I didnt want to wake you up. Thinking I would be kind and let you sleep (since i know she doesnt sleep well). But oh wait, I am heartless I forgot about that (referring to something she said last week). And yes I did knock. Several times." and in short im 'grounded' and cant 'stay out of the house past 10'. Which fyi, i am not going to listen to. I am not here by choice, which she did say that I am. Tl,dr: got locked out. Tried everything to get in. Nothing. Couldnt stay over at friends. Tried to go somewhere to kill time and mom called. Got yelled at for being out late when I wasnt trying to wake her because her yelling was the exact thing I was trying to avoid. Got "grounded" from staying out past ten. Fuck that noise.

Help I think I am in love with my best friend and that can't happennnn.

I have to let this feeling towards my friend die. I have no place in his world but as a friend.

I know I am the only one that can save myself..... But I dont know if I can, or will. Am I just too comfortable being broken? Or am I still waiting for 'that knight in shiny armor' or some 'deus ex machina' that will make me better?

SCREAMING do you know how HARD it is to find fanfics of your ot3 when there is no ship name and the fandom is small?????????!!!!!!?!?!?!?