here’s the thing:  in order to feel really comfortable in the rpc again and 1) not overwhelmed by being here and working three jobs and taking care of my health and attempting to put a little time into my other hobbies and my family, 2) not feel either pressured to do various things or interact with people where I don’t necessarily feel entirely valued for a variety of reasons, 3) not be anxious about a dash that moves fast and also requires me to leave on notifications for things I’ve tumblr savior’d just in order to load pages because so much is blocked, and 4) generally just needing a massive change to kick myself into gear... I’ve decided I’m going to need to majorly downsize. 

I understand that this will probably upset some people, offend some of you, etc. I know some of you who are invested in me will be disappointed to have me go. some of you will wonder why I’ve chosen to continue interacting with some people and not others. I’m sorry in advance. The bottom line is that I love writing, I love RPing, and I need to take some steps to be able to continue doing that. 

I may re-follow people in stages, as and when I feel okay to do so, but it will not be everyone and I won’t interact with anyone I don’t follow first. (Right now I follow 250+ blogs. Never again, yeesh.) This is not a reflection on you ic or ooc, this is just something I need for myself. I appreciate each of you and your presence and the fact that you’ve been with me throughout this journey, and I hope that the world brings you good things. 

[ ooc: good morning~

I spent my morning teaching and then with my hands in the dirt. The flower beds are far from done, there's still more weeding and planting to do, but they're coming along. The rabbits have been eating the pansies so we're looking for a good natural way to prevent that, and I'm going to extend the petunia patch to double the size that it is and put some lilies along the back to give the garden some height too... anyway I'm proud of it so far. Especially given all my health issues, this garden has been a bit of a trial, but I'm really enjoying seeing it come to life.

Today I’m flying out to visit my bestie. I’m nervous about traveling during a pandemic but I literally spent yesterday beaming all day because I need this break so bad. So I’m going to go enjoy myself and be on here in between when I’m not out doing fun things like wandering through parks in chilly weather, exploring abandoned places, smoochin’ on my boytoy, and eating lots of delicious food.

So I get to use a graphic I made approximately 4 years ago: VACATION ALERT!! I’ll be away until the 31st, and then get my 2nd dose on the 1st so I may be out of commission for a bit after that too. I’ll keep y’all updated like I do!

I’m hoping that I can watch f&tws while I’m in self-quarantine and then get some replies done. I got a few done already and they’re sitting pretty in my queue until I have a few more to join them~!