#curiousauthoress

sometimes i do not know who i am. does that make sense ? like i see all these lovely girls with their lovely boyfriends and i hate them so much because they're happy all the time, and i should be happy, because i have lysander and friends and gosh, everything is going good in my life but i just (1/3)feel like everything is going to go down the drain again soon and i will be nothing but that girl forever stuck in december, with memories of the anime girl who loved me and the boy in the dress blues, and the boy who claimed to love me, and i become that again, no one will want to be friends with me (2/3)and i guess what i'm trying to confess is that i hate feeling like there's something wrong with me when there's not and all i want is to cry (3/3)