#csi x reader

“It’s been a while since you’ve dug these out,” you said, grabbing one of the crossword books and flipping through the pages to see your husband's chicken scratch across the boxes. 

“With having a lighter week for cases, I thought we could work on these,” he said with a smile. 

You smiled. “Why not?” 

Finding a pencil in the side table drawer, you turned to an unstarted puzzle. He did the same next to you, except he grabbed an expert-level Sudoku book. 

You worked your way through the easier answers like ‘Casino Card Game ', with nine letters. Blackjack. And ‘Desk go-with’, five letters. Chair. 

As you scribbled away on the crossword, Grissom worked peacefully next to you. Glasses perched on the middle of his nose, pencil end placed against his lips, eyebrows scrunched together. It was one of his thinking faces. 

Now, you were smart, you weren’t Gil Grissom smart. The average crossword you could complete by yourself without having to look at the answer guide, use Google, or ask him for help. His crossword books were a little more advanced than the ones you would grab. 

“Pacific Ocean discoverer…six letters…” You mumbled to yourself, secretly hoping for him to help you. 

“I believe that’s Balboa.” He said, not looking up from his book. 

“Oh?” You said, filling in the name he told you. 

“Yes, his full name is Vasco Núñez de Balboa. He first saw what we now call the Pacific Ocean in 1513 after he crossed the Isthmus of Panama,” he said, filling in a number on the page, “The Isthmus being the narrow strip of land that connects North and South America.” 

“How do you have all this knowledge stored in your brain? And for your brain to not be like five times its normal size?” You laughed, putting your pencil in the book before shutting it. 

“Because that’s physically impossible for it to happen,” he said while taking his glasses off and looking over at you. 

You shook your head, standing up and walking towards the kitchen. “You must have a second brain hidden in your abdomen somewhere.”

“Again, physically impossible, honey,” he called after you, his eyes following you. 

You looked back at him from the doorway. “Do you want some tea, my giga-brained husband?”

“Only if you make it for me.”

One and a half months to go

Upon entering the third trimester, the world had narrowed to the confines of ‘your’ bedroom. The door, once a portal to the shared life you were forced into, was now a steel barrier, a constant reminder of the control that had tightened around your neck like an ever-present noose. It had become the norm that you would often spend two days a week staring at those four empty walls, the silence broken only by the frantic rhythm of your own heartbeat. He would claim that it was in your best interest, his voice a soothing balm masking the chilling reality.

"Honey, I'm a Doctor, I know what I'm talking about. Rest and let me take care of you," he’d say, the words a cage around your spirit. Never once would he mention the baby steadily growing within you, a silent testament to the life he was slowly isolating.

By this point, you had missed so many necessary appointments. The accumulating stress was a palpable thing, a lead weight tightening in your chest, making each breath a conscious effort. More stolen time that you’d never get back, critical moments on a journey without your true co-pilot and partner. The joy that should have filled these months had been replaced by a gnawing fear, a constant ache of loss. Nick, the father of your child, was missing out on feeling every kick, on experiencing the shared excitement of cravings, and on seeing his unborn child on the ultrasound screen as the tech moved the probe to document the growth. The intimacy of the journey, the shared anticipation, had been stolen. His life too was slowly being erased from the picture.

There had been no assigned midwife to guide you through the prior months, no friendly face in a doctor's office. You had not seen the inside of a medical practice in the entirety of your pregnancy.

You were HIS patient, a possession, not an individual with any agency over your own body and health. The bare minimum that he had actually done was to prescribe you the prenatal vitamins and to have a dietitian tailor the ideal meal plan at stage of each trimester. Even these were tinged with suspicion. The dietitian was a close friend of his, who had taken you on off the books as a personal favour. Just another way to reduce any paper trail that could lead to your discovery. The sense of isolation was absolute, a suffocating blanket woven from lies, manipulation, and the chilling certainty that you were utterly alone.

It made you wonder how many others had been where you were sitting, but failed to meet his impossibly high standards. You were just the latest in a string of women kidnapped to be moulded into the object of his desire. He saw himself as a sculptor, meticulously crafting his perfect woman, and you, the raw material, were at his mercy.

It had taken time to earn his trust, to be left alone in the property without the constant presence of a chosen companion; the cleaner, the cook, or even the gardener, all were utterly loyal to the Good Doctor. Knowing that every external door and window was latched, and that the keys were always on him, offered little comfort. There was no way to escape, not that you hadn’t tried opening each door and window during your daily explorations, a ritual of hope that quickly turned to despair. After a few weeks of repeated visits from one room to the next, searching for any sign, any clue, any opportunity, it was then that you first found more than a single faded stain on a single piece of clothing that hung in the very back of the wardrobe.

The discovery sent a chill through your veins, a grim confirmation of the unspoken horrors you had come to suspect. Concealed beneath a few loose floorboards in the master bedroom and tucked away in the dusty recesses of the attic, you unearthed a horrifying collection of evidence, each item a testament to the Good Doctor’s depraved deeds.

The inventory of evidence included dozens of Polaroid pictures, faded and warped with age, depicting a series of terrified faces, each one a mirror image of your own growing dread. The locations varied, from the meticulously manicured gardens of the estate to the cold, bare-bones confines of the basement. A chilling assortment of hair, neatly bound with ribbons of silk, a grotesque collection ranging from the vibrant crimson of a fiery redhead to the pale, ethereal strands of a young woman with eyes that haunt your memory.

The diary, bound in leather and worn with use, held secrets more terrifying than anything you could have imagined. Its pages, filled with elegant yet frantic handwriting, told the story of another victim, another life stolen by this pillar of the community. The name “Eliza” was mentioned with a reverence that felt both perverse and deeply unsettling, a name you had only ever heard uttered in hushed tones, a forbidden whisper that sent a shiver down your spine.

The evidence was carefully put back in its hiding spots, and as a result, the case began to unfold in your mind. While you were attempting to understand the reason for your abduction, there was a lingering fear that he would realise you were getting closer to the truth. His library, with its imposing bookcases lining the walls, had been a welcomed find as you wandered through the halls.

You had spent countless hours escaping into the worlds contained within the pages, losing yourself in tales of adventure, romance, and intrigue. Yet, despite the comfort the library offered, and despite the captivating stories that held you enthralled, you always read with one eye fixed upon the door. Having been a police officer for a few years, your guard was something that you had honed and therefore could never be lowered even for the briefest moment in this house. The silence, broken only by the rustle of turning pages and the occasional creak of the aged wooden floor, was both a blessing and a curse, a constant reminder of the danger that lurked just beyond the sanctuary of books.

Yet, you often found yourself staring up at a particular oil painting, a portrait of a smiling young woman dressed to the nines, tucked away in a nook of the library. Her gown, a vibrant emerald green, shimmered in the faint light filtering through the high, arched windows, the fabric seemingly alive with movement. Her dark hair, piled high in intricate curls, was adorned with glittering jewels that caught the light, and a subtle smile played on her lips, hinting at a secret known only to her. You had questioned him, curious about both the artist and the subject, hoping to learn the story behind the woman's captivating gaze. You envisioned a tale of love, loss, or perhaps a clandestine affair, something to break the monotony of your captivity.

But when you had turned, expecting to find answers, you were met with a wall of silence and a look in his eyes that you’d never seen before. It was a sorrow, a deep, aching sadness that seemed to emanate from him, a vulnerability you had never believed your kidnapper could possess. The cold, calculating man who had held you prisoner for so long was gone, replaced by something broken, something that had clearly suffered a profound loss.

“Ask again and I won’t hesitate to snap your neck;” This had been the first time that you had glimpsed beneath the mask and seen the true nature of the real man. Void and unfeeling, ready at the drop of a hat to end your life and find a replacement, he was a danger not only to your body but to your soul. The threat hung in the air, heavy and suffocating, a stark reminder of the precariousness of your reality.

Heavily pregnant and a sitting duck in the serial killer’s lair, you were petrified. The air hung thick with the metallic tang of fear. The single bare bulb hanging from the ceiling cast long, dancing shadows, playing tricks on your eyes. You could hear the incessant creak of floorboards somewhere beyond the locked door, a constant, unnerving rhythm.

Striving to be accommodating, you played the role of the compliant, dutiful wife. You forced a smile when he entered the room, your heart hammering against your ribs. You endured his scrutinising gaze, his endless purposeless touches. The constant violation of your privacy. The familiar warmth of your growing belly calmed you as you rubbed your hand across it, feeling your child’s lively response to your touch. A tiny kick, a gentle nudge – it was a lifeline in this abyss of despair.

“I’ll always keep you safe, baby, I promise;” you vowed with an air of conviction. The words were a shield against the encroaching darkness, a defiant stand against the monster who held you captive. You closed your eyes, picturing your child’s face, its future, a future you were determined to secure. You would see it though, your child would survive even if it was the cost of your own life. The thought, though painful, filled you with a fierce resolve. You would use every ounce of strength, every flicker of intelligence, every opportunity to protect your unborn child. This was your purpose now, your only reason to fight.

You bit your lip, a nervous tremor in your hands, trying to quell the growing excitement as the butterflies in your stomach fluttered like mad, their wings beating a frantic rhythm against your ribs. How could not be looking forward to tonight; hopefully the first of many dates to come. You had never thought that he might have seen you as anything other than a friend and a colleague. Yet he had been the one to ask you out to dinner after having kissed for the very first time.

That was just over forty-eight hours prior. As soon as he had gotten home, a text message had come through with a time, date of when he could pick up, with no obvious indication of where he would be taking you. It had been a welcomed surprise that kept sleep at bay for a few hours as your mind had relived that evening’s events. Sleep came eventually, sweeping you away into a wonderful dream that you never wanted to end.

The next morning, you had discovered a sweet good morning message; you had briefly struggled to reply, but soon enough the perfect reply came and was sent shooting off into the invisible superhighway connecting all electronic devices. You felt as if you were floating on cloud nine; this is what it must feel like to have died and gone straight to heaven.

The next few hours blurred together as you messaged back and forth, laughing at his terribly pun-filled jokes before firing back with one of your own. Whilst a giddy smile remained in place as you went about your day. It had always been easy to talk with Nick, but this felt fresh and on a completely different level. Nick had been called in on his day off after one of the team had called in sick. However, he had stated outright that he couldn’t cover the day after, as he had immovable plans. You, not that his team, knew that.

A very visible blush exploded across your face as you reread the last message for the third time. You were that important; he wanted to see as much as you did where this went. To explore the very notion of being romantically entangled, to see if it worked just as smoothly. You dared to believe that you and Nick were compatible, but you were willing to risk it all for this chance.

As you pulled more clothes out of your wardrobe, you failed to notice the figure lingering outside the window. Watching your joy as you bounced about the ground floor room, trying on each item with a skip in your step. As you hold the next potential first date outfit in front of you before looking critically in the mirror. You could not see the contempt in their gaze, knowing that this little show was not for them but for another who was completely unworthy of you. The thought of you, happy, perhaps even in love with another, was a sickness they couldn’t stomach. Fear rose up as thoughts that you might be slipping out further out of their reach, that their control, their carefully laid plans, were slowly unravelling.

The cogs turned, springing into life; a familiar icy dread settled in. Time was slipping away as the figure, hidden amongst the overgrown greenery creeping up the walls, as they moved from one of its favoured perches. It was time to set the events in motion. The carefully crafted web of deceit, the subtle manipulations, all had to accelerate. There was so much still left to do before the last sands of the hourglass slipped away. This plan would not happen overnight; it was a symphony of carefully orchestrated events, a long game of chess where you were the queen. But soon, very soon, you would be theirs, and this pathetic display of happiness would be but a distant, forgotten memory. The thought of that moment, the sweet taste of victory, steeled their resolve, and they faded back into the shadows, the hunt now fully engaged. The first move had been made.

Three weeks later

Agent Montgomery arrived at the crime lab later than she had anticipated; traffic on the Strip had been a nightmare. It had extended for over a mile, a solid, creeping line of red taillights that had tested her patience to its limit. This was her breaking point, compounding the never-ending headache this case had created. The late hour, deadlines, and pressure from the higher-ups, as well as the LVPD's internal stress, mounted, especially with the victim being one of them.; it was the unsettling nature of the crime itself.

A grim expression crossed her face, revealing her current mood: a mix of frustration, exhaustion, and a gnawing unease. She ran a hand through her already dishevelled hair, the weight of solving the case pressing down on her. She had hoped to share the news with Nick Stokes, the partner of the victim, a criminalist. But given the tension that had arisen within the Department since the FBI had taken over the case, she understood the looming decision that she might have to keep him in the dark a little longer, for now. Unexpressed worries and frustrations filled the lab, creating a stifling atmosphere.

Even with the possibility of unlocking additional resources from the Federal Task Force, her presence was deemed a hindrance in the search for their friend, colleague, and loved one, as she was viewed as an outsider. Walking into a police department with a sense of discomfort was not an unfamiliar experience for Aveline.

She entered the trace lab. Nick was at the microscope, hunched over his work. His brow was furrowed, and his eyes narrowed as he peered through the lens. He was completely absorbed, oblivious to everything around him. The usual lab technician, Hodges, was absent, his frustratingly dry wit missing.

Aveline, hesitant, lingered just inside the doorway, unsure of how to interrupt. She had spent the morning piecing together a crucial piece of information – a breakthrough, really – that she needed to share with Nick immediately. A phone call would have worked, a quick and easy way to convey the data she had painstakingly uncovered. But something held her back. The news was too significant, too delicate, to be delivered in such a casual manner. She needed to see his face, to gauge his reaction, to ensure he understood the gravity of the situation. She needed to be in the same space, to feel the shared tension and excitement.

Finally, Nick looked up, his gaze shifting from the microscope to the world beyond. He saw her standing there, framed by the door, and a flicker of surprise crossed his face. He realised he wasn’t alone. He found her lingering in the doorway, her expression unreadable. She held a manila folder in her hand, its contents undoubtedly related to the research they were both immersed in.

Her mere presence was enough for him to know its significance. A phone call would have worked to share what she recently learnt, but Aveline didn’t feel at ease using that way to communicate this to him. The information felt too important to be relayed in any other manner than an in-person discussion.

“You found something, didn’t you?” His manner of speaking subtly conveyed a glimmer of quiet hope, which was evident in his words. His words direct and straight to the point, there was no beating about the bush.

The set of his jaw wasn’t rigid, but relaxed, almost inviting. His eyes, though reflecting the weariness of the long months without his girlfriend, held a spark, a faint but persistent flicker of optimism that, like a small fire in the hearth, offered warmth and the promise of light. The subtle tilt of his head, the almost imperceptible lift of his eyebrows at certain points, all worked together to weave a tapestry of understated hope, a silent assurance that, despite the challenges ahead, this was something worth striving for, something to be optimistic about. This wasn’t a boisterous proclamation, but a quiet undercurrent of belief, a gentle persuasion that resonated long after the particular conversation ended.

Agent Aveline took a deep breath, maintaining her composure. “Over the last week, we received a tip through the hot-line. A potential sighting of a woman matching your partner’s description at a hospital in California. The local authorities are reviewing the CCTV footage and have shared it with the Vegas lab here for their own analysis.”

“California?” Nick’s surprise was evident as she delivered the update. The room buzzed with a frantic energy that amplified the raw emotion churning inside Nick. He hadn’t even been able to fully process the information before the words erupted from him, a mixture of disbelief and searing panic. His voice cracked, betraying the tremor that ran through him. “A week; you’ve known about this for an entire week!”

He ran a hand through his hair; the gesture failed to soothe the whirlwind of worry that consumed him. Each second felt like an eternity, a slow torture of unanswered questions and agonizing possibilities. His heart hammered against his ribs, a frantic drumbeat mirroring the chaos within. The vibrant image of her, the warmth of her smile, the sound of her laughter, all flashed through his mind, each memory a fresh stab of fear. All he knew was that she was still out there in the clutches of a serial killer, in the unforgiving place, and he was utterly and completely in the dark. He turned towards the stoic figure standing beside him, the federal agent who had delivered the news.

After hearing the loud voices coming from the hallway, DB Russell stepped into the trace lab. He recognised the escalating tension and the potential for the situation to spiral out of control. Stepping into the lit space, he saw the two figures, that of Nick and Federal Agent Aveline Montgomery. He could see that Nick’s face flushed with anger; the lack of any recent evidence, the silence and ever-present worry were eating away at him.

The air crackled with unspoken accusations and simmering resentment. Without hesitation, DB moved between them, his presence immediately commanding attention. He raised his hands in a gesture of peace, his voice calm and measured as he began to try to de-escalate the situation, attempting to diffuse the conflict before it could erupt into something more. He started by addressing each individual, acknowledging their frustrations and encouraging them to express their feelings constructively. “Aveline, I’ll take it from here”

"Nick, calm down." DB placed a hand on his shoulder, a gesture meant to soothe the frantic energy radiating from the Texan. "We're doing everything we can. I know this is hard, but we need to follow procedure."

Aveline continued, her voice gentle yet firm, her brow creased with concern. "The tipster provided a partial license plate number, and our tech team is running it through the database. We're also cross-referencing it with the hospital's parking lot footage. We have security footage of the area from the last few weeks, and we're meticulously reviewing it, frame by frame, in hopes of glimpsing the vehicle and, hopefully, the detective."

Nick pushed DB's hand away, his frustration evident in the sharp movement. His dark hair was dishevelled, and his usually sharp eyes were bloodshot, betraying sleepless nights and mounting anxiety. "I've been going out of my mind with worry," he practically snarled, pacing the small workspace. "Every day feels like an eternity. And now, you're telling me she might have been in California?"

"We don't know yet, Nick," Aveline said, her tone soothing, as if speaking to a frightened animal. "That's what we're trying to piece together. The tip we received detailing the supposed sightings mentioned the Golden State, but the information is still unconfirmed. But we need to remain objective and not jump to conclusions. Premature leaps in judgment can lead us down the wrong path and waste valuable time."

DB's voice was firm, authoritative. "Nick, I know this is difficult, but you need to trust the process. We'll find her, I promise. We've handled similar cases before, and we have an additional team of dedicated professionals working alongside us. For now, I need you to focus on your work here. Let us handle the investigation. We will keep you informed every step of the way."

Nick's eyes darted between Aveline and DB, his emotions a chaotic mix of desperation, anger, and a flicker of hope. "How can I focus on work when my girlfriend is missing? I should be out there searching, doing something. This waiting is killing me. Every second feels like an agonizing stab. Why aren't we doing more? Why aren't we looking everywhere?"

"I understand," Aveline said, her gaze softening, her professional facade cracking slightly to reveal a genuine empathy. "My team is dedicated to this case, and we're making progress, albeit at a pace that is often frustrating. The process takes time; you know this. We'll keep you updated, I promise. You'll be the first to know if any new developments surface."

As Nick's shoulders slumped, the fight draining from him, DB spoke up. "Why don't you take a break, Nick? Clear your head. We can manage things here for a while. Why don't you go get some air? Maybe grab some coffee. You're no good to anyone in this state." He gestured towards the door, hoping to offer some small solace in the suffocating atmosphere.

Nick nodded, his anger deflating. "Fine. I'll... I'll go for a walk. But keep me informed, please. I need to know if there's any news." Aveline watched him leave, her heart heavy with the weight of the situation. The man's retreating figure seemed to shrink with each step, a stark contrast to the imposing figure he usually projected. His shoulders were slumped, his head bowed, and his hands were clenched into fists at his sides, a testament to the internal battle he was waging. The weight of their shared responsibility pressed down on them, a silent understanding passing between them.

"Thank you for stepping in," Aveline said, a sense of camaraderie forming between them. "I'll keep you updated on the lab analysis. Hopefully, we'll have more answers soon." The sterile environment of the lab, usually a place of focused activity, felt unusually quiet.

Meanwhile, the simmering fury that he had kept contained for so long was now unleashed, erupting and dominating his every thought and action as it surged to the forefront. Every memory, every imagined scenario, fuelled the inferno within him. As he continued to walk down the silent hallway, the weight of his anger became more apparent with each step, which seemed heavier than the previous one and echoed with each footfall as he headed out. The linoleum floor reflected the flickering overhead lights, casting elongated shadows that danced and twisted, mirroring the chaos in his mind. The familiar surroundings of the building, usually a source of comfort, now felt alien, a constant reminder of the life he was desperately trying to salvage.

Your head pounded, feet hurt and you felt so belittled and all around shit about yourself. You wanted nothing but to get home to some quiet and hide.

Unlocking the door you quickly slipped off your shoes, put down your bag and went straight to the kitchen. Grabbing some water you gulped it down allowing the cold liquid to spread through you. Wiping some residue from your mouth you were startled when you heard movement.Turning quickly your eyes met the form of your boyfriend coming to the doorway.

“Gil, you’re home.”

The man nodded “I have been for a couple of hours. Early day. Sorry if I startled you.”

“It’s ok.” you placed your glass by the sink ready to wash later. “I’m just on edge.” you said plainly.

“Long day?”

“Unbeliveably.”

“Shall we sit?” the man offered. Nodding you moved towards him and as you passed him he quickly pecked a kiss to your head. He followed you into the living room. The two of you took a seat next to each other and you could hear the radio in the room faintly playing. You smiled to yourself while you made yourself comfortable next to the man. Leaning back in the chair he put his arm across the back and gestured for you to place his legs on his lap, doing so you leant back against the arm of the chair and let your head fall back. Bringing your hand to you forehead you gave it a rub, trying to relieve some of the pressure there. 

“What happened today? Anything you want to talk about?” the man picked his book up from the arm of his chair.

You let your arms flop either side of you and stared at the ceiling “I was made to feel like an utter fool. Given someone else’s workload. Finished it to the best of my ability even though it wasn’t in my specialist area at all. Then was given a last minute presentation by Frank to prepare and present before the end of the day. It honestly, couldn’t have gone worse. Frank was in the audience and took part in grilling me in front of everyone. Saying I didn’t know the answer to some questions and would get back to them wasn’t enough apparently.” 

You took a deep breath and could feel tears welling up “He then tore me apart after everyone was gone and said I was a disgrace… so yeah, a pretty decent day.” you finished sarcastically.

The man lowered his book and turned his head to you, reaching his hand over to yours he held it gently. “You’re anything but useless. You’ve proved yourself time and time again. You go above and beyond for them every day. I really wish they’d stop treating you like this.” placing his book down he scooted closer to you, wrapped his arm under yours and around your back and pulled you closer.

The dam broke and the tears started to fall. “I just try so hard. I really do.”

“I know” he rubbed your back comfortingly.

“I’m not just saying it. It exhausts me to the core how hard I work and try for them and it just feel so unfair and like everything gets thrown back in my face. I’ve worked there for so long.”

“they take advantage of you, pile your plate high, because they know you can do it and for Frank. He’s just misogynistic, we’ve both know it for a long time. He hates how good you are at your job and gets a kick of humiliating you. It isn’t right.”

You turned inward on the man and sobbed harder, his hand came up to your hair and held you. “It’s ok Y/N. You’re ok.”

He held you while you sobbed for a while, when they started to subside he added “you know I could always get you a job at the lab.” 

You pulled away from the man slightly “I’d just look a fool there too.”

He shook his head “Stop being so hard on yourself. I know you’re feeling down but you and I both know anywhere else would be honoured to have you.”

You looked away from the man and wiped your face and nose ungracefully. "I just want things to be a little easier that’s all.” 

“I know.” he agreed “and they will. Take next week as a fresh start and then decide if it’s worth carrying on with them or starting fresh somewhere else. If you decide to walk away next week. That’s ok, we’ll be ok while you look for something new. I can help out. Please don’t worry about anything. Just yourself and your wellbeing. There’s no need to run yourself into the ground over something that doesn’t value you.”

You listened to the man silently and nodded when he finished speaking. Moving into a more comfortable position next to the man you curled up into him while he lay his arm around you. 

“I love you so much Y/N. I just wish you could see your worth all of the time.”

You welled up slightly but didn’t cry this time. “You make me feel so loved.” your words were quiet next to the man.

“I’m a very lucky man.” he lifted your hand and placed a kiss to it before lowering it back to it’s original position.

The two of you sat silently and listened to the music for a while.

Thankful you had the weekend to recover you settled closer to the man and let out a breath. Although you’d had an awful day and deep down you could still feel it right now you embraced the peace and quiet, the warmth from the man and the closeness between the two of you.

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