#cs speculation

So there’s been a lot of discussion about whether or not Officer Rogers is the Killian we know and love or some other version of Hook.  There are many reasons why I think he needs to be Emma’s Killian.  Don’t get me wrong.  I do not want Emma and Killian to be separated.  But there are many reasons why it makes sense.  

First, if it’s not our Killian, then he loses that connection to Henry, as well Regina and Rumple.  We would also lose the possibility of Killian having flashes of Emma and eventually remembering her when the curse breaks , discussing their life together, and doing anything he can to get back to her.  As long as we somehow get a reunion between them eventually, then I am okay with them being separated for a time. They are true love.  Nothing can separate them forever.  And this would be a way to keep Emma and CS alive on the show for us.

But, most of all, when I watch Officer Rogers, I want to know that it’s the same man who fell in love with Emma and who she fell in love with.  Her true love. The man who broke down her walls.  And that every moment they shared together, he experienced.

When I look at him, I want to know that his mouth is the one that bandaged Emma’s hand.

His lips are the one that kissed her for the first time in Neverland and every time after.

His hand is the one that wiped away her tears when she thought Snow died in the EF.

He’s the one that traded his ship for her.

His arms are the ones that held her and picked her up when she nearly froze to the death in the ice cave.

His hand is the one she held on their first date.

His body is the one she tackled on the bed because she was so happy to see him alive and she almost confessed her love for the first time.

He was the one she trusted with her body and was able to rid her of Rumple even for a few moments as the Dark One.

He’s the one who gave his life to save the others and went to the Underworld.

It was his body she tackled when it was engulfed in flames to prove they were true love.

It was his lips that kissed her hand and then held it as long as possible as they said goodbye in the Underworld.

His face is the one Emma peppered with kisses when she saw him alive again.

It was his arms that lifted her up and kissed her the first time she said ILY during non-crisis time.

It was his lips that kissed her hand during story time when he reassured her that she could overcome anything.

His eyes were the ones she looked into as she asked him to move in with her.

It was his hand that slipped her engagement ring on her finger twice.

It was his body that pressed against hers as he said she smelled delicious.

It was his hand that she slipped his wedding ring on.

And it was his arms that held her as at they danced at their wedding.  

A couple of days has passed and I still have so many conflicting feelings about last episode. I need to write them down to make peace with myself.

Is this detective Rogers-Hook the same Hook we have loved for the past 5 seasons? I think this is the main question, and there are many possible different answers...all of them acceptable ones. It mostly depend on how you feel about it. From my point of view, he is another version of that character, but he's also another person.

A person is not only made up by its own history, but also the present, the day by day... and, most of all, what define us is the decisions we make each day and the people we meet during our journeys.

Killan Jones has a past life that we all know, which is in common between "Wish Hook" (or however you want to call him) and the Hook we have seen on our screens the last five years. Think about the Hook who met Cora... that's the person that he was at the time Regina's Dark Course struck, full of vengeance against the DO and willing to do anything to achieve his goal.

Then he met Emma...and step by step he decided to change, to become a better man. Emma more than once has told him referring to his past self "you are not that person anymore"... so he WAS a different person before meeting her.

I am not saying that this new Hook doesn't deserve his chance to prove us that he could be a hero as well. I'm going to give him this chance. First of all because A&E have never disappointed me in the past, so I want to be optimistic and I'll be here wanting to know all about this new Hook's life, or at least the part of his life that we still don't know. I'm ready for a new tale. And I also believe in Colin's professional skills, he loves this character and he will surely provide us with another wonderful performance.

But don't try to convince me that this is the same Killian Jones I've loved for so many years, because he is not. I've met my husband 17 years ago, and if I had never met him, I'd probably be a completely different person. I wouldn't be living in a different country, I wouldn't have met a lot of people that are now part of my life, I wouldn't have my precious son...and so on... So Killian without Emma Swan, and all the people him met because of her, wouldn't be the person he is now. Not better nor worse, just a different one.

Another thing I'd like to underline... I've read so many times in many blogs, when the curse will break, there will be a sweet reunion between Henry, Hook and Lucy. But this Hook is not Henry's stepfather. This Wish Hook has never spent time stargazing with Henry, has never told Henry about young Bae, has never taught him how to swordfight. Wish Hook has never tried to save Henry from Zelena, has never learned what a "wookiee prisoner gag" is, has never asked Henry to be his best man at his wedding...and so many other moments they shared together. Wish Hook met Henry when he was already a grown-up man. And Lucy is not Wish Hook's step-granddaughter. So I don't expect a tearful reunion at the end of the course anymore.

I understand the people who decided to abandon the show...for me the biggest shock of last episode wasn't that detective Rogers is a "different" Killian... the worst thing to swallow was to say goodbye to our loved Killian Jones. We knew that Jen was leaving the show almost five months ago. It was hard to accept, but I did, because I love Jen and I understood her choice of pursue different goals in her career. At least I had enough time to prepare myself to a farewell with Emma. What I wasn't prepared for is that I had to say goodbye also to Killian... the Killian I knew. So I understand the deception that some people felt.

I was talking with @saraswans this afternoon about the different identities that our characters could have in season 7 when this idea popped in my head and I couldn't get rid of it, so I decided to write it. This is a sort of canon-future/AU speculation. Although Emma doesn't appear physically, her presence is there in some way. Since Henry kept his name despite being possibly cursed, I have decided to do the same here. It has been written in a moment, for that reason, it is unbetaed, so my apologies in advance for all possible mistake.

Summary: Killian Jones is bored in his office and decides to have a little fun, even at the expense of his sister, Regina. (Speculation of season 7, a possible curse on our characters.)

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Thank you very much Sara, for always being there, cheering and supporting me :)

Killian glanced sideways across the hall. In front of him, his sister was in her office, the glass walls giving him a perfect view of her brow wrinkled in concentration, her gaze focused on her computer. Around him, the rest of his co-workers remained silent, not taking their eyes off their screens. Everything was so predictable and boring that he felt the need to bring in some fun, despite risking his sister's anger.

Hidden in his work space, a malicious giggle bubbled in his throat, his lips curled into a wide smirk. He stared again at his computer, his fingers gliding agilely over the keyboard, his eyes following the multitude of characters flying across the screen.

He loosened the knot of the bloody tie his sister had forced him to wear every day. A drop of sweat fell down his temple, his glasses sliding over the bridge of his nose. He couldn’t avoid the signs of nervousness as the adrenaline rush through his veins due to his small act of rebellion.

So the sneak peek was obviously what this picture was from:

It’s right in front of that hill he fell down, and he’s all dirty, so it makes sense.  They were apparently filming at this location until 1:30am on this day (per the Leaf Lady’s twitter), and I think we can now confirm that one of the stand-ins was definitely for Tiger Lily given her complexion and dark hair.

I’ve decided to write this little fic after seeing sneak peek #2 for episode 6x15. My mind kept going to Killian and how he’d feel if he knew Emma had packed his things after his disappearance. The events happen some time after 6x15 or in any case, after Killian’s return. I hope no one takes offence at this, I’m a fan of both Emma and Killian, and I’m not overly worried about how the episode will end. Hopefully there aren’t many mistakes (it’s unedited).

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They’re eager to get back home, to have a glass of wine and maybe relax in front of the TV for a bit before retiring for the evening. She’s attached to his elbow and it’s the most homey feelings she’s ever felt. But then, he’s always made her feel this way, even when she was fighting with all her might against the idea of “them”.

As soon as they enter through the front door, Emma’s eyes fall on Killian’s chest. It’s still beside the couch, where she’d left it. She looks at it guiltily. “Maybe he won’t see it” pops into her head, but she’s not that lucky.

She knows the minute he notices it, because his muscles grow tense beneath her hand. He just stands there looking at it for a few seconds and his silence makes her grow weary. She’d like to tell him she’s sorry. That she’s still afraid to be left alone, even after everything. But that it has nothing to do with him. “Killian…”, she starts, trying to figure out how to tell him everything that’s on her mind at the moment.

He looks at her then, and the words get stuck in her throat. He’s looking at her with such a hurt look in his eyes, like a puppy that’s been kicked by his beloved master, and her heart clenches. It lasts but a second, because he closes his eyes then. He still doesn’t say anything; just takes a few steps inside their living room, sighing heavily.

She wants to go to him. To ask him for forgiveness. She knows he had planned to leave, to find himself - he’d told her everything that happened to get him trapped on board the Nautilus - but he’d changed his mind. He’d always changed his mind in regards to her. No matter what, he’d always come back, he’d put her first on countless occasions. And her first reaction (and second and third, if she were perfectly honest with herself) after she’d noticed him gone, was to believe he’d left. She takes a first step towards him.

“Don’t.” He doesn’t turn towards her, but he passes his hand through his hair nervously. “I know why you’d think I’d abandoned you - bloody hell, I was expecting you to - but, Emma, I hoped you’d see to the man inside like you’ve done so many times before.”

His words cut like a blade through her; she’s never been actually hurt by a sword before, but she imagines it would actually hurt less. And the worst thing is that he’s right. After she’d gotten over her trust and abandonment issues, she’d seen the truth.

He sighs again. “I know why you did it and it’s alright, Emma. I understand.”

His reassurances don’t have the intended effect, though. It just makes her feel even worse because he’s always been so understanding and gentle with her.

He turns towards her then and closes the distances between them. He cups her cheek then, wiping an errant tear away. His eyes turn gentle, then: “It really is alright, Emma, I understand.” His thumb brushes her cheekbone in a soothing caress, then he steps back. “I’ll be in the shed for a bit, love. I … I need to put some order in my thoughts.”

She doesn’t stop him as he leaves through the back door. It kills her that she’s once again done this to him. And not a few days ago she’d stood there berating him for letting old fears overcome  him. Some fine example she is. A regular case of the pot calling the kettle black.

No more. She’ll never let those thoughts get the better of her. Not where Killian is concerned. Next time her demons will decide to play with her, she’ll think of this day and what it’s meant for them. Killian deserves her trust - her absolute trust.

Sighing, she bends over to grab the chest. She’ll put all his things back before he comes back. And she’ll cook his favourite dinner. And maybe later she’ll sooth all his hurt in other, more enjoyable, ways, too.  

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To propose (alternate theory) to this post

That hopefully makes it less sad. He was using the day that Emma and Henry were out on the canoes (seriously?) to run the errands of A) buying the ring and B) talking to Archie when his FFIL (future-father-in-law) waylaid him with “Hey, need your help tracking down my demons” business. And of course he had to help because of that whole “being old fashioned and wanting David’s approval” thing. 

So he’d never gotten home in time to hide it. 

Because Killian was going to have an elaborate proposal, and it certainly wasn’t going to take place on a night when Emma’s plans included watching a movie with Henry, Milk Duds and popcorn.