#cryingiscathartic

I am mostly just sad for myself — for giving up my dreams — for accepting fear and cowardice — for feeling ashamed at my lack of self-assertion — for feeling ashamed because of feeling ashamed — for my incapacity to listen to my intuition — for allowing friendship to fade from love — for growing out of a childhood love — and mostly of all, for indefinitely being in love with an impossible fantasy for nearly the last decade of my life ( it was you who showed me the way. it was you who named us.)