#cryingforever

I knew this was originally meant to be a series finale. Imagine how much it would hurt if it actually was. I just rewatched the scene where Coulson gives his speech that included the quote above, for some reason I chose to think of it as if it were a series finale. It’s as if this quote was not only meant for the team, but also the fans, cast and crew, and anyone who made this show possible. Ever since we started watching this show, we signed ourselves up for both the good moments and bad moments. Anyone who watches this show would know that it was five years worth of a roller coaster ride, and along the way some managed more hopped on and some hopped off. We were there, together, through all of this whether we knew each other or not. 

I’m going to be honest, I have never cried more in my life than for Agents of SHIELD. I usually have no problem moving from one show to the next if one is on hiatus. This time, it was harder to let go, even if its for a year. This episode was too much like a series finale and I can’t think otherwise because it seemed so final...if you get what I mean. I refuse to accept that Coulson is still dying, even if those last days are spent with Melinda May. He deserved to live a long happy life with her, occasionally visit the team and a series regular because without him there is no SHIELD. Although this episode was beautiful, amazing and a strong contender for one of the best written episodes, it was also heartbreaking and I wouldn’t call it a “Satisfying ending” because it is implied that Coulson will die at some point. The fans didn’t put all that effort into #CoulsonLives just to have him die five seasons later.

In that speech, it was as if Coulson was speaking to us rather than the team. As if we signed up to lose him. Many of us had a strong connection with the team and those were the ‘good’ people we got close with. In the end, some were taken away by through devastating deaths, some never returned, and some are saying goodbye as season five ends (if it were a series finale). I don’t even want to began to imagine what that’s like. He even said “Who’s like us....Damn few.” He is right, we are a small but active fan base, and there are very few that are like us. How many shows exist because the fans battled long and hard to bring back a character? None that I know of. That’s what makes us different. Remember, the moment you started watching this show, you became an agent of SHIELD.