#crlnesdiary

So the most recent/last guy I met is from a bar in Boracay last March 12 (went there Sat night). I really like him to the point I kept on praying/wishing for a second chance of meet up with him, one where we’re not drunk. Why do I ask? It’s because he seems a great guy. I have this list of things I want a guy to have and he’s a check on all of the things you would know on a first meet/date. God I really hope for a second date with him. Also, kinda sad that I think I messed up this second chance by initiating a chat with him in IG. He just seen my last chat.

Elyu’s guy birthday today.

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I met a guy during my first solo travel. He almost ticked off everything that’s on my ideal guy list (a finally moment too!!), some of which are: he’s taller than me, nice job, family oriented, does hiking, plays sports, and likes pets. And since I know his soc meds, I learned that we have the same likes in some things, one is that he likes the stars bec he’s been sharing NASA posts. He also uses expressions that I use a lot too.

But since I know his soc meds, I’ve found things to make me think twice. He has lots of girl friends in FB — albeit some of which are from dating sites and every time I look at his friends/followers list I always see a girl with big boobs, he’s anti-Leni, he posted a video during his Cebu trip that for me felt like nabastos yung girl kahit di kita face nya, and his tiktok posts.

I’m so confused tbh. I really like him a lot because we have so much similarities but I feel he’s bastos or medyo fuckboy. But ughhhhh we kinda did my ideal perfect date (sit or lay down while watching city lights or stars then kwentuhan about anything) on our first meetup (we sat and watched the city lights while having kwentuhan) and also his height!! He’s the first guy I’ve dated who’s taller than me. Tapos yun nga check na check kasi halos lahat ng nasa list ko. Then we’re supposed to climb Mt. Pulag on September, I don’t know yet if it’ll really happen. But right now iniisip ko na what will happen next if matuloy nga yun? Or pano na pag di matuloy? Like do I unfollow him na sa IG and forget him? Like he’s just a memory na lang… (well medyo sanay na ko kasi ilang guys na rin ang naging ganto na but it’ll still hurt).

Why are there nights na ganto, naiiyak na naman ako that me and Mio ended things. Sabi na kasi wag ko na icheck acct ni girl pero chineck ko pa rin and found out that they ate outside today. Nakakainis lang that before today, everytime i looked sa acct nya I wish na sana may story sya na lumabas sila so I’d know na okay sila and when it happened, bakit may lungkot sakin?

When I saw her story na kasama nya pala si Mio sa Bataan, I wasn’t hurt and that it looked like he didn’t like he was on the trip. Pero ngayon I just felt sad pero napapangitan pa rin ako kay girl (hahahaha), how she sama him sa stories nya pero behind her back he’s dating others pa naman 🙄, and how his standards became so low (comparing her to Pearl and me 💁🏻‍♀️).