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This past few days, parang may pader na tumataas sa gitna naming dalawa. Ewan. Parang naniniwala ako sa dream ko. Parang sign talaga yun para sakin. To tell you honestly, komplikadong komplikado  na relasyon namin. Wala na siyang time para sakin. DI niya na ako kayang puntahan sa classroom or sundan sa locker para tanungin kung kamusta na ba ako. Everything has changed. Naks charaught. Pero seryoso todamax. Wala nang iloveyou galing sakanya. And to make things worst, sobrang liit lang ng pagkakamali ko, parang big deal na sakanya and we wont pass a day without having issues. Madalas kameng magtalo. Haixtsz. Mahal na mahal ko pa siya (di ko kinaya shet) pero gusgo ko lang ba malaman kung ganun parin ba siya sakin. Efforts? Walang wala. Balewala lang talaga ako. Unimportant facet of his life ganun. Sawang sawa na ba siya? Lagi nalang. Lagi ko siyang binibigyan ng space para magisip, and mind you na ang laki laki na ng gap ng relasyon namin. Haixtsz. A little advice & some words of wisdom please? So devastated to the point of breaking down and giving up :'(

HU ANG GALENG NIYA :(

Panaginip ko kagabi. Grabe. Ikwento ko lang ha, Kasi ganto daw yun, since away kame ni Zach sa personal tsaka sa panaginip ko, tinanong ko daw siya. Sabi ko sakanya "Ayaw mo na ba sakin? Bakit naman?" Tapos siya, lampake. Tapos basta di ko maexplain. Parang may iba yata siyang gusto sabi ng panaginip ko. Ewan ko. :( Umiyak ako sa panaginip ko, tapos nafeel ko na umiiyak na rin ako habang natutulog. As in. Iyak talaga. Pero di ako nagising. Na feel ko lang, ganun. Haynako. :( Grabe na thizz. Late na pala ako. Kalangan ko raw pumunta ng School since Mayor ako. Haha waley. 

"Love is patient. Love is kind. It does not envy. It is just." The truth is, love has nothing  to do with waiting. Love has no fault. Love just come and go. Love just sits and waits for the right moment. We, ourselves make it complicating and disastrous. We, ourselves make it hard to understand. We make it as complicated as it is. Love is not complicated. Love is simple. We just tend to over think things about love. Love can wait. People can't. They demand the love that they want back. They demand the love that they need. They demand the return of investment from the person they've cropped in. They demand immedietly the belonging of love. We're always in a hurry to grow up. To get hurt and to feel pain. We're always in a hurry for a returned love. We're always in a hurry to feel and share love. But to tell you this, love has nothing to do with waiting. Love waits. Love stops. Love starts and Love ends just how it's supposed to be and how it's supposed to do.

Shet. Birthday ni Zach bukas. Tapos ngayon ko ibibigay yung letter ko para sakanya kasi di naman kame magkikita bukas. Ewan. Parang di niya gustong tanggapin. Kaya isusunog ko nalang bukas. Hays :( Tapos ang dami pang nagyari T.T

DDMiss ko na talaga si frogyyy. PUTANGINA. Iniwan ako ng paker eh :( pero saludo ako sakanya kasi grabe guise!! Love na love niya gf niya. Kahit ano pa yang mahahalagang materyal na bagay, igigive up niya para sa girlfriend niya. Ohdeba? Bigyan ng chicken mami. HAHA miss you paker! :’( ingat mwa