Im a sobbing mess, y'all. And if I am, I can only imagine what a state Amy is in.

Thank you is small words but they're filled with everything in my heart.

I truly didn't think we'd make goal this year, not when we needed so much just a week ago. I even told Amy we needed to reevaluate the goal back in November.

Yet, she persisted. She believes in Louis and this fandom so very much - even when so many can be so mean-spirited.

To all the artists who donated raffle and auction items, thank you. I know from personal experience the time and energy we invest in our handiwork, only to give it away and hope it helps in some small way.

To those who donated, tweeted, reblogged - Amy may be the soul of 1DFansGive, but you are the heart that gives us the strength to keep going. We can make all the drives in the world, but your support is what gets us to the finish line.

So again, thank you.

i’m so incredibly grateful for @lesbianslovelouis & @createdoutofnecessity & @laynefaire and everyone else that puts so much effort into creating, running, and promoting these charity drives. thank you so much.

and i’m so very, very proud of this fandom.

nobody, nobody can drag us down.

Hiiii everyone. :) very very long time no talk. I’m sorry I left you all at a time of fandom peril (right when hiatus started) but I think of you all fondly and honestly the fandom was in many ways so so good for me - I grew, I learned, I accepted myself....Harry looked me in the eyes...I followed the band around their tour for four consecutive shows l, and I had a ton of fun. No regrets, and there never will be any!!

IG has been bugging me to post a life update, and after my lovely Dani’s shout out too, I guess I should say something. 2017 has been by far the craziest year of my life - I got engaged, AND married, we bought a house, adopted a dog, and wildly enough, I’m pregnant too. You’ll be pleased to know that my husband is fairly short, and has blue eyes, so I’m praying for a Larry baby - little and adorable, with blue eyes and luscious curls. It’s possible. I’ll let you know. Unfortunately it means I have to miss the Harry concert I have tickets to in June, but he would forgive me if he could kidnap my first born. We will see.

This is really embarassing but as I have some new furniture I had to tidy up and now I can't find some of my sketchbooks. Sooo. Because I can't find the sketchbook with the winnig drawing I made something new. It isn't drawing but a practical thing. I bought these two cooking tools and decorated them with woodburning :) (Larry inspired). I really hope anyone won't be disappointed.

WELL IM CERTAINLY NOT FINE AND IM NOT EVEN WATCHING