#crazysemester

welp, this is embarrassing.. I've been MIA for what-- two months? Yikes.

I actually fulfilled my "March" happiness, which I'll get too.. ill sum up the last couple months in this post.. but I don't want to make it a long, winded blog post on minuscule details. This semester got crazy in April. Gotta love nursing school, oye.

SO TO RECAP:

March:

In the month of march, I took the time to understand what it means to be a volunteer versus being forced to do community service. At UD we have a program called UDAB, University of Delaware Alternative Breaks. What happens is, during spring break, you spend your whole time away doing a service project. I went to Mississippi. Words cannot explain what that trip did for me. Beside getting a tan and going in the water, I reconnected with myself while Doing Good (lolz Delta Gamma reference, couldn't resist...) We went down in hope of environmental service. It was titled "gulf coast restoration" so, in my mind I'm thinking that we're going to see the effect of the BP oil spill or something. The heart of the trip was focusing on how to rebuild after Hurricane Katrina. Very long story short, we used oyster shells in chicken wire (approx 45 lbs each, got my work out in holler) and planted them along the coast of a devastated island. You see, the islands are what really protect our coast. They slow down hurricanes and keep back the ocean. Hurricane Katrina literally cut  this one island we worked on IN HALF and, I walked about about a football field out into the bay and barely went above my knees. It was seriously unbelievable what I was doing because Katrina happened back when I was still in high school... so crazy. The trip also reminded me of why I appreciate nature. I forgot how incredible it is to sit still and just enjoy the surroundings; quite spiritual and brought me to a center with myself. 

April:

Get back from spring break, and "I'm like whaddup I got... A MILLION THINGS DUE." Thanks Macklemore for that... anyways. Yes, April was absolute hell month. People complain of "hell week," in April alone I had 6 exams and 3 assignments due.Sounds like I'm the one now bitching right? Yes.. sorta.. but still! I had so much on my plate with nursing I literally dropped off the face of the earth. Sorta of. And then of course everything Greek related happens in April like... AIR-FUCKING-BAND WOO. The one great success I can honestly pull to my happiness for April. I was one of the choreographers for this dance competition that greek life participates in, and sweet baby jesus, I'm a proud mama. We worked hard, of course with a bunch of girls A LOT of estrogen was occurring at all times.. but I had so many people make a point to tell me how they felt it was a great improvement and entertaining. It also reminded me of why I love dance. It brings out a leader and a passion in me that is indescribable. Its like my heart, mind, and soul all energize each other.. okay deep-- woah. Anyways, even if I got annihilated by exams, I worked my ass off and that's what matters most. 

May:

Oh hey, finally caught up.. sorta. This month I really got my shit together to kick some serious ass for exams and assignments. Even though my GPA isn't stellar, all I want to do with my life is be a nurse. Y'know, I use to want to be a police officer. Too many people have told me my first impression is either a sweetheart or a "badass to not fuck with" (thats a direct quote) Its flattering! And I cant see myself being passionate about it, but there's something that's truly special to the science of Nursing and to the care of other whom are sick that really makes me feel complete. In lab, I feel like I am where I'm meant to be... if that is even english. Yes, my classes are hard as hell, but if it were easy, anyone could do it. To top it off, I learned that I'm interning at A. I. DuPont children's hospital in the fall and I honestly couldn't be happier. This semester  I felt a loss of passion.. and honestly it was really frustrating, but after working my ass off, being a part of my chapter's success.. I really feel that fire back in my heart.

SO WHY AM I RETURNING TO THIS? 

I owe it to myself to finish this out. Tomorrow (well now today.. I need to go to bed..) my Big and I taking a road trip home! I can't wait to show her New England and specifically my home, where I grew up. I want to take June to explore what I saw went "wrong" in the last few months so that in the fall, and even just in my ADLs (nursing for "activities of daily living".. nerding I know) I can be more successful. I also want to go back to learning to love myself. Its a practice everyday, and because I had a run-down month, I've lost some touch with that. Its almost halfway through 2013, I need to keep it up!

lots of pictures are now coming.. woot. I'll explore one later.. hopefully. hehe