The best.

is it possible? is it attainable? am i trying to hard? NO. I want to run the farthest I can. I want to run the fastest possible. I want to be the best. I want to be fit, skinny, and pretty.

In all honesty, I want my boyfriend to say I'm sexy AND pretty. We have those conversations and he goes silent when I mention the fact that he doesn't think that of me.

I'm going to get skinny because, as dumb as this may sound to those of you who ACTUALLY know me in real life, food is currently taking over my willpower. It just does. And i'm not okay with that. I'm not fat, But I would like to be skinnier. I want to be the envy of every girl in school and have the guys be jealous that their girlfriend doesn't look like me when I walk around at the pool. sounds stupid? not to me. not to anyone who desires to be gorgeous.

And the best part? I WILL achieve this. soon. not by summer. not even by spring break. BEFORE THEN. and it makes me excited :)