#crazy creature

Do you know how I am feeling right now? I am in mixed emotions. I don't know exactly what to feel. I don't know if I am this sad because I'm missing you or I am sad because of what you are making me feel? You wanna know what you're making me feel? You're making me feel like some worthless piece of crap. Yeah. You wanna know why? Because I feel like you don't care for me anymore. Do you even realize how hard I am trying just to reach you? Just to keep the things between us as it is. Do you even know what am I going through right now? I know you don't. How would you if you can't even tell that behind my smiles are tears. Haha. Funny, isn't it? I have loved you so much but this is all I get. I know you love me, too. But I just can't feel you anymore. What's happening? Please tell me I'm wrong. Please tell me that all I am thinking are not true. I feel so hopeless right now. And I know I'll be fine. Because after this post, I'll close my eyes and just pray to God and ask him to help me get through all this that I am feeling. He's the only one who can help me right now. And after this post, I'll forget everything and all I will remember is that I love you. Crazy, isn't it? I'm too young for this but yet I feel it. Haha. This is insane. I love you.

Love,