#cptsdwillgraham

I am pretty much 24/7 worrying I’m supporting some FSMF shit here hahaha 🙃 I definitely don’t think repressed memories are rare, or even that it’s rare to come out in some form like exotrauma.

It’s the... complete lack of caution, I guess, that gets me. That I do see people spread around posts like “repetitive or obsessive thoughts are always a sign of abuse, or even some specific type of abuse” and it’s like hoooold on buddy. Even if that sort of stuff didn’t lead to “classical” false memories or whatever, it does make people worry, “Wait does that mean I was abused?” and that’s. unpleasant if that’s not already part of your thinking and you’d have no other reason to think it. So it feels like a similar mentality here.

And I don’t know how literal people are thinking when they say “reflect.” My abuse reflecting this body having been abused? Cool, whatever, Fear of fire? Fine, that’s hypothetically sensible. But once you see “there’s no way to have something-like-flashbacks, especially somatic ones, unless it’s connected to real trauma; your phobias and triggers must have some clear direct connection to what happened” (stuff we have seen) it’s like, aaalright, gonna have a hard time with all these bizarre religious triggers, the specific injuries I remember,  my bizarre problems, etc.??? Especially with this added idea that I shouldn’t care about, deal with anything I remember that I’m not assuming happened to the body, that’s just less important fictional stuff that should go away when unrepressed, thaaat’s gonna cause problems.

i don’t disagree but i think then there’s work to be done re endogenic systems who maintain that they don’t have a medical condition because they are fundamentally different from people who are deemed by psychiatry to have a medical condition and not because, like… psychiatry particularly despises and pathologizes traumatized people

yeah agree, that’s also Not Great behavior we’ve seen all around :’) like, as if there’s Actually Really Objectively Pathological Multiplicity that Deserves to be pathologized, or whatever

(I wonder how much easier those sorts of conversations would be if there weren’t systems more directly engaged with psychiatry saying, “Those endogenics must be experiencing something completely, entirely, radically different from anything we experience”? like it can be kinda a clusterfuck all around; we’ve definitely spoken with other non-traumagenic systems who feel the need to basically add disclaimers to everything they talk about, “this isn’t about DID! because DID is something very different!” because they’ve been attacked for “”conflating experiences””. ugh all around.)

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I’ll point out that I don’t know how otherkin communities are dealing with this, I’m not otherkin and honestly, I generally don’t connect with how most otherkin talk about their memories, especially traumatic ones, cuz I mean for starters, I’m pretty much literally the same person barring, y’know, dissociation in the life I remember haha. You ask me, me and all my issues just walked into this body at some point.

There’s this chorus (external and, lbr, internal) of “Well, have you considered...? You should Think Critically and Introspect and be Very Sure, and even if you have thought about this for years, remember that you might be entirely wrong about everything, and it’s irresponsible to just talk about exotrauma without disclaiming it as maybe-all-just-repressed, and probably even irresponsible to present the idea of exotrauma at all” that gets frustrating after a while, and even counterproductive when “Well, I’ve come to the conclusion that nothing makes sense and nothing is real” is a pretty common outcome. But it’s in the name of concern and making sure that people receive the proper help, right?