#cpr res

As I lay in the back of the ambulance I feel my already slow heart fall to a stop, the heart rate monitor flatlining and letting out the dreaded continuous "beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep". The paramedics don't waste a second in removing my bra, my breasts falling to either side as my heart lies still between them.

As soon as the bra was thrown to the side a young paramedic put his hand on my chest, trying to find a pulse and rubbing my sternum, my breasts jiggling with every movement.

Getting no response the paramedic quickly put one hand atop the other and started compressing my heart "one, two, three..... come on Violet come back to us....twenty-three, twenty-four, twenty-five.....thirty"

After 3 rounds of compressions I heard the flatline stop, one of the other paramedics immediately shouting "We have Vfib! Charge the paddles!" it was silent for a moment as i feel the gel hit my skin "charging 150 joules....Clear!" I feel my body spasm a bit as the electricity shocks my heart "No change on the monitor, lets hit her again, charging 300 joules....Clear!" this time i feel my body lifting from the gurney before crashing back down, my breasts jiggling with the shock. I hear the paramedic let out a low growl "Still nothing, charging 360 joules....Clear!" this time there was a change in the monitor, however not one that anyone wanted, a loud "beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep" filling the ambulance as i flatline for the third time.

The young man let out a series of curses quickly beginning another round of rapid compressions "come on.." he growls out, i hear the other paramedic in the back quietly ask "should we call it?" but he ignores her, his full focus on bringing me back

Another 2 rounds of compressions go by until i hear "We have vfib again!" the young paramedic shouts, his hand slowly grazing over my bare breasts before charging the defibrillator "Shocking at 100 joules...clear!" still nothing.. "Again clear!" I felt my body spasm again but nothing changed "Charging paddles to 300 joules, clear!" my body jolted off the gurney before crashing back down, my breasts jiggling before falling motionless once again "Come on fight! Charging paddles to 360 joules..clear!" My body jolted as a weak heart rate suddenly appeared on the monitor, my lungs taking in small breaths of air "she's back.." he says, letting out a sigh of relief.

The relief however appeared short-lived as less than a minute later my body started seizing, my breasts and chest shaking wildly until my body fell motionless again, a flatline accompanying it once more.....

i hear the paramedic let out a series of curses "shes flatlining again, starting compressions" he says, giving me fast and deep compressions for the next 30 seconds before checking my pulse again, my heart still refusing to beat. "Come on! Come back to us!" he yells as he thumps my heart 3 times before starting vigorous chest compressions again. After a lot more cycles of cpr and thumps to the heart he manages to get my heart back into vfib.

"Charging paddles to 200 joules...clear!" my chest jolts as the electricity runs through me, my heart still fibrillating in my chest "shocking again, clear!" once again there's no change on the monitor. I hear the other paramedic tell him that I've been arresting for too long and that they should call it but he refuses, charging the paddles to 300 joules and shocking my heart again "clear!....no change, shocking again clear!" he rubs my sternum, begging my heart to beat before charging the paddles again "shocking at 300....clear!....again clear!" he glances at the monitor, my damaged heart still feebly trying to hold on "Charging 360 joules...clear!" my body jolts off the bed, my breasts jiggling greatly from the shock but before my body has a chance to fall motionless again he shocks my heart once more "Clear!"...everything is silent for a moment when suddenly i take in a small breath, then another, and another, the monitor showing a sinus rhythm "shes back" i hear the paramedic sigh in relief "hook her up to an oxygen mask and check her blood pressure, we cant let her crash again"

It was then that I heard my front door click open- "Darling?" I hear my boyfriend's voice call from the other side of the house, the man checking every room until he came across mine...and the sight of me laying lifelessly on the bed.

"Darling?!? Please no..no no no no no no" I hear him mutter in a panic as he checks my non-existent pulse and rubs my heart, begging for it to beat again.

After recieving no response he lifts up his fist, slamming it down onto my sternum before checking for a pulse, repeating the action another 2 times before letting out a low breath "Come on sweetheart..come back to me"

Choking back a sob he intertwined his hands, placing them on top of my heart, and started pumping "one..two..three.......sixteen..seventeen..eighteen......twenty-eight..twenty-nine.. thirty.."

Tilting my head back he gives me 2 deep rescue breaths before feeling for a pulse, letting out a cry of relief when he feels the faint drum of one against his fingers. Quickly he picked up the phone to dial an ambulance, little did he know my heart was too weak and would once again fail on the way to the hospital......