countrising said: I know how you feel. Me being fired from my last job has completely fucked my self confidence , especially the way it happened. I went from being told I was doing amazing, to the next being told I wasnât good enough and my job was on the line.
countrising said: I get super bad job anxiety all the time now. I constantly feel like I forget to do things or Iâm making mistakes that no one is telling me about. Itâs absolutely the worst. :(
countrising said: So you have my sympathies friend. <3 maybe if you can and your supervisor is cool, talk to them about it? A little reassurance from your direct boss can always help.
EXACTLY EXACTLY, like. It doesnât help that at my last job NO ONE CAME TO ME to tell me I was messing up or not meeting expectations, people would apparently complain to my manager, but then he wouldnât come to me and see what my issue was, heâd just put things in place to try and rectify it WITHOUT telling me, but because Iâm not fucking stupid, I knew SOMETHING was wrong but Iâd be damned if I knew what.
But like, do you want to know the kicker here? During my evaluation at my current job I did bring up the fact that I lacked confidence in my position and ability, even in the face of positive feedback, and you know what he tells me??
Heâs shocked because heâs trying to learn confidence from me! He says that âEven though you are quiet and do not speak much, you have confidence in what you do say, and that is something I want to learn from you.â
So itâs like. Both me and my boss are nervous wrecks trying to not put too much stress on each other which is KIND OF FUCKING HILARIOUS. Heâs a new boss, Iâm a new admin, weâre both just trying to do our best and not let on that weâre both wrecks and I think thatâs fantastic.