#corvus talks

"A souls desire"

By: Corvus

The desire for another's body is prominent.

But it's not really a carnal need that drives it.

More so the need to feel that another being becomes part of your soul.

I would like to connect my mind with someone else's as if we were two wandering spirits, searching for warmth and signs of life.

I need my soul to caress another person's.

I long for that connection that many can feel.

I never had a manual for these things.

But when you dance on a tightrope, what moves you is the beat of your heart.

I hope my dance is with a partner.

Finding a person who understands my psyche is complicated.

That would mean opening my chest.

Showing my organs and allowing them to touch them.

Trusting that their touch will be tender and soft.

My body is too small for how large my emotions are.

My heart beats as if it wants to escape my body.

And my mind has always moved faster than my mouth or my feet.

If I could find a person who wants to cross their soul with mine.

Maybe there I can finally understand what human connections are.

Maybe I can understand what it means to be human.

My reflection becomes distorted and my body moves further and further away from my soul.

My leg fails and walking has become a torment.

Sleeping with pain is far from something easy.

But nothing in this life will keep me from living.

I am movement.

Running hurts.

It hurts too much.

But if I stop it will hurt more.

May my pains intersect with those of someone else.

May we be each other's balm.

You're in luck anon! I was writing up a thread on this exact thing for hitting 5k on twitter. To start with I'm using Clip Studio Paint Ex on an ipad so I'll be referencing material both free and paid from the CS asset store. I start by doing a LOT of rough layers so I like having a realistic pencil with good weight control – Currently I'm using the Artemis Pencil Set

Inking is my bread and butter and probably what I put most of my time/attention into. I like pens with texture to them, so I tend to download a bunch to play around with. My mainstays are the pens by User Hmm (001, 002), and I've also used the YOTTI PEN2 and this Textured Pen recently. 

 I'm still figuring out rendering/painting at the moment so I'm trying lots of different things – The blocky Amiette Flat Paint, grainy Soyo Oil 2 and smooth Mono Shade are all ones I've used in the past. I also like the markers in this T-Marker set, which also includes the marker paper texture I use in all my drawings! A piece feels unfinished without it.

Some bonus stuff, I use gradient maps quite often (001, 002, 003, 004) and also avail of the 3D assets, most importantly the perspective boxes. 

 Phew! Hope this helps, anon.

Though I don't love everything about Royal's ending what I do appreciate is how open it leaves Goro Akechi's situation to interpretation. You want to headcanon that he's dead and Ren has to carry that guilt and regret around the rest of his life? You can. You want to imagine that Goro runs into Leblanc 2 weeks later fresh as a daisy, scoops Ren up into his arms and they get married and have 10 healthy, strapping children together? You can do that.

My personal interpretation is that he's alive, maybe under some sort of official (Anti-social force? Special Ops?) supervision. He's unable to get in touch with the PT as a result but I also think he probably wouldn't even if he was free to. He was expecting to die, not just for the entirety of third semester but ever since he set down on his path of vengeance, and grappling with the fact that he's suddenly got a life stretching out in front of him with no vengeance to drag him along is a lot to deal with. I like to imagine someday down the line him accidentally running across Ren and Ren giving him a punch in the face for letting him believe he was dead lol.

Will there come a day where official Atlus content will contradict that? Maybe! But that's okay. I'm interpreting the tone of your message as a little stressed anon (sorry if I'm reading it wrong), please remember fandom this is a space to play in and have fun, if it's causing you more anxiety than joy maybe take a break. The most important thing is that Goro Akechi lives on in our hearts 💖

I only have tumblr and twitter so if you see my work somewhere else, it wasn't posted by me!

Thanks anon! Here's a few I've added the past few months I really like.

Julien Baker – Hardline

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6pGBIAiJPF4

 “I'm telling my own fortune/Something I cannot escape

I can see where this is going/But I can't find the brakes”

Pillow Queens – Liffey

“Someday you'll have my head/you'll have my head on a silver plate”

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZxHQbL11gzM

Johnny Goth – Hit Me Right

“When you shoot me right through my heart I die/But when you pull the trigger it feels so right”

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZnSot8ou1F0

And of course One Last Kiss by Utada Hikaru because I will turn every single Kawoshin song into a Shuake song so help me god

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0Uhh62MUEic

That's just a small selection, here's a link to the full Shuake playlist if anyone wants it!

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/7sUDhrNPW0xfKyKAc8cFIc?si=8xsqRdwLTBWydpokojOHGw

Thank you as always for your kindness and support, I know I don't post all that often but all your lovely messages mean the world to me! It keeps me going 💪 ❤️