A/N: got a boost of energy this week and felt like it hihi don't know if anyone will even read this, but ty for joining the ride ๐
A/N: also, TQM is basically RR, with a little twist to fit y/n and corpse's story better. so definitely recommend listening to it while/after reading! byeee
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A letter from a lover to a lover on their wedding day.
โ Word count : 576
โ Warning : Swearing as always
A/N : hi friends long time no see! I thought about a little update for What If enjoyers and this happened. don't know why. enjoy! Until next time (ษห ยณ(หโฃหc)
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Dear y/n,
if youโre reading this, it means that weโre actually getting married today and that Iโm keeping the promise I made to myself. You know I'm not good with words, but I'll do it for you. I'll do it because I promised myself that you would understand the depth of my feelings for you -and not in a bang confession of a song, but with actual words written on paper. The song... I can't listen to it anymore. I swear to god, when I do, my brain just goes; "your constant harassment of the female gender makes me sick". Anyway, I'm drifting off. I'm really fucking nervous.
So I'll tell you everything. The truth, the ugly truth, no bullshit.
Wanna know what made me make that promise? (I'm really happy you're reading it in a letter and I'm not telling you face to face cause you'd want to kick my ass). The night you proposed, you were sleeping peacefully and I was just a mess. I couldn't stop thinking about our future together, about the fact that it was probably the stupidest mistake we could ever do. But you rolled around, and I looked at you. You had the stupidest expression I had ever seen on anyone's face. Like ever. So fucking weird. I laughed to myself, couldn't stop, or else I'd have to realize that I was terrified because at that very moment I understood that, ultimately, you'd break my heart one way or another.
I walked into our story blinded by your light and it's like I have only awoken at that moment. You said I should trust you, but for a long time I wasn't able to. Because I'm no easy person to live with. Because I love you so much, I was convinced that it would hurt like a bitch, that there wasn't any other possible way. I'm still not sure about that one, but that night I didn't care anymore. I knew there were no going back, that no matter how scary it was, you'd have to be loved and feel loved, and I wouldn't let anyone do it for me.
In the end, it's a very selfish decision. What would I be without you? What would I be for that really fucking stupid sleeping face?
So I put on my big boy's pants and write this letter instead of getting ready. Sykkuno keeps walking back and forth. I think he's desperate at this point. But I can't stop thinking about you. I wonder what you're doing right now with Rae and Brooke with you. Nevermind, I don't wanna know. I wonder what you'll look like walking down the aisle, what dress you chose. Do you think I'm going to cry? I'm probably going to cry because you're the most amazing, most stunning woman I've ever seen, and I really don't know what else I could do. I'm already emo just thinking about it. About how lucky I am to have found someone as wonderful as you and I canโt believe weโre really about to do it. Being in love is cringe, but if you say a world about it, I'll mansplain, manspread, manipulate my way out of this one. Fuck you in advance actually.
Anyway, now I really realized what's happening today and I'm fucking shaking. I can't believe I'm about to marry my soulmate. But I guess I'll see you soon. I'll be the man in black waiting for the love of his life.
a/n: sorry for just disappearing again!! my bad. but here's the new chapter :) let me know what you guys think, i love reading the comments you leave. also i have a couple ideas for this story. i could do all them or just a couple, but i wanna hear what you guys think. i'm gonna post those ideas in a separate text post, posting it right after this.
