#corbynbessonfanfic

He Loves Me Not | Jonah/Corbyn

Part 3

*Corbyn’s POV*

I wake and realize that y/n is still in my arms. I can’t help but smile. It’s been so long since we’ve been like this. I’ve always loved her, things were just complicated. It breaks my heart seeing her so sad like this. I wish I could take all of her pain away, just so she’ll be happy. I love Jonah and everything but I want to fucking destroy him for hurting y/n like this. She doesn’t deserve the hurt he gave her. I heard my phone buzz and saw Jonah’s name pop up.

“Hello?”

“Hey Corbyn... is um y/n there?” Jonah asked

“Yeah” I said sternly

“Can I talk to her...?”

“I don’t think that’s a good idea right now Jo”

“Please Corbyn. I know she’s in the guest bedroom. Bro I’m begging you. Just let me talk to her” Jonah pleaded

“She’s not in the guest bedroom. She’s sleeping on my chest”

“S-she’s what...?” Jonah said sounding hurt.

“Yeah we fell asleep on the couch together” I told Jonah.

“Why would you do that to me!?” Jonah yelled

“You destroyed her Jonah. You fucking broke her heart. How are you going to live with that” I yelled back. There was silence on the phone and I heard Jonah crying.

“I have no excuses, I fucking love her. I hate myself for what I did to her. But please, I already lost her, I can’t lose you too” Jonah cried. I took a deep breath trying not to lose my cool

“I’m not going anywhere Jo. I’m just pissed right now. You’re still my brother” I reassured him. We talked for a little bit longer and after a couple of minutes we hung up.

“Was that Jonah?” I hear y/n mumble

“Yeah, he wanted to talk to you” I said

“I should probably meet up with him sometime today”

“What? Why?” I asked

“I never really gave him a chance to explain himself. I don’t know if I wanna be with him still, but I’ll at least give him the chance to explain everything to me” she replied

“Makes sense, I guess. Just be careful I don’t want you to get hurt again”

“Awww Corbyn. Don’t worry, I’ll be careful.” Y/n said as she reached up and kissed me on the cheek. I wanted so bad to bring her closer to me so I could kiss her on the lips.

“Y/n?” I asked. Saying fuck it to myself.

“Yeah?” She asked as I cupped her face in my hands and kissed her. To my surprise, she kissed me back. It reminded me of old times, back when she was my girl. Why the fuck did I ever want to let her go. “What was that for?”

“Just wanted to remind you that you have me. If things don’t work out with Jonah, I’m here” I said

“Thank you bean” she said as she gave me a quick peck. “I’ll most likely be back later, if that’s alright”

“You’re always welcomed here hun” I said. With that y/n got up and walked towards the door. Giving me a quick smile before walking out the door. “Fuck!” I yelled.

*Your POV*

I left Corbyn’s apartment and had a lot on my mind. He kissed me! His kiss felt like home. It wasn’t until he kissed me that I realized how much I missed him. He’s always been there for me, even after we broke up. You don’t find that a lot. I called an Uber and had them drive me to mine and Jonah’s place. I was extremely nervous going there cause I don’t know what he’s gonna say. I arrived at our apartment and paid the Uber, then started walking towards the door. Once I got to our door I knocked and waited for an answer. Just then Jonah opened the door.

“Y/n!?” Jonah cheered

“C-can I come in?” I asked

“Of course, you still live here” he smiled

“Thanks” I said as I walked into the apartment.

“I’m glad you’re here, but what brings you here?” Jonah asked

“I figured I would give you a chance to explain yourself.”

“Okay babe. I’ll tell you anything you want to know. But first can I show you something?”

“Um sure” I said. I followed Jonah into our kitchen.

“I wasn’t expecting you to be here so soon, but I was hoping you would stop by, so I did this for you. And I know it’s never gonna make up for what I did to you, but I wanted to show you that I do still love you and I do still care about you. I looked around and was amazed. There was a bouquet of sunflowers and roses (my favorite), my favorite candies, laying on the counter was a box filled with bath bombs, candles, bath salts, and a note that said “I’m sorry I suck, forgive me?” He also had my favorite wine.

“Jo-“ I started

“Oh wait, I almost forgot!” Jonah said as he turned off the kitchen lights and revealed fairy lights all over our kitchen ceiling. It was so breathtakingly beautiful. Jonah then went and grabbed his guitar and started singing.

“Every time we got closer, I pushed you away

Pulled you right back just to give you the pain

If I was your sinner, then you were my saint

Guilty of breaking your heart

I lie here awake, thinking of all the games I played

I let you wait, hundreds of promises that I

(I never made, ) I fell forever in a daze

('Till you walked away, ) because of the words I didn't say

There is no me without you

And you don't realise what you're missin'

This time I'm on something different

Let me show you why, for real” Jonah sang, he started crying in middle of the song and stopped. “I love you y/n. I can’t do this without you.”

“Then why did you cheat? Why wasn’t I good enough for you?” I cried.

“Oh baby, you’ve always been more than good enough. If anything, I’m not good enough for you.”

“Why Jonah. Why did you do it?” I cried. Tears were coming down my face so hard that I couldn’t see.

“I swear to God I didn’t mean to. I-I was drunk and there was this girl. She kept whispering shit in my ear and she was getting in my head. Before I knew it I was surrounded and she pulled me outside. I-I blacked out and I woke up in her bedroom... she was in her bra and underwear and she got in the bed and gave me this fucking hickey. I-I didn’t stop her. I don’t know why. And then-she uh she asked me to have sex with her. I swear I didn’t mean to, I was so drunk that I thought we were together and not her.” Jonah explained through tears

“Did she look like me?” I asked

“Well, no but-“

“Then how the hell did you think that was me with you”

“Y/n I don’t know!” He cried. He walked up in front of me and got down on his knees. Resting his head on my shoes. “I’m so so so sorry baby. I promise if you give me another chance I’ll earn your trust back, I’ll make you the happiest girl in the world.”

“Get up” I said. Jonah stood up and looked down at me. Without thinking I wrapped my arms around him and buried my face into his chest and started crying. Jonah rested his head on top of mine and hugged me back tighter.

“I love you y/n”

“I love you too Jo. But I haven’t decided if I want to stay with you or not” Jonah didn’t say anything he just held me. “Have you had any sleep?” I asked

“No, every time I closed my eyes I saw you leaving me...” Jonah said

“Jonah, you need to sleep.”

“I can’t fall asleep without you in my arms. It’s too hard. Could you-could you maybe stay the night with me?” Jonah asked

“Jo- I don’t think that’s a good idea”

“Please y/n. Especially if there’s a possibility we won’t be together. Can I just have this one last night with you?” He pleaded.

“Just for tonight. I guess” I said “I have to call Corbyn though”

“Okay. Thank you baby”. I called Corbyn and told him that I was staying with Jonah. He was not too thrilled about that. I promised him I would come over in the morning and we will spend all day together.

“Hey, you ready for bed?” Jonah asked

“Yeah, lets go”. Jonah and I layer down in bed. Jonah was sleeping shirtless like he always does, and I laid my head on his chest. This very well could be the last night together. We both needed this.

“Goodnight y/n”

“Goodnight Jo” and with that we fell asleep.