My mom mad just because I’m expressing myself on the internet (TikTok) that I want to die ALSO no one is gonna see my posts because it’s a private account and im not really gonna make it public anytime soon AND ANOTHER GOOD FACT the only people who can see my posts is my friends from school and OHHH I just KNOW using the word “my mom” and she’ll take it as “I hate my mom so much Waa Waa waaa she won’t let me use my first amendment (freedom of speech) when obviously it’s not what it is. I’ll pretty much tell my mom anything BUT telling her I want to die because I know that woman will say “No you don’t and you’re not depressed.” Actually imagine the IRONY when SHE expressed the fact that she’s depressed and also wants to die (I guess I got that DNA depression from her lmao) and somehow it’s different because everyone is suddenly supposed to drop their grandma’s ashes and run over to her to pat her on the shoulder and feel bad for her n shit. Because “raising kids is hard” I’m 100% aware that kids are difficult to raise but it’s expected and also ur number one job is to not let ur kids die and that doesn’t mean saving ur daughter from cancer it also means saving ur daughter from killing herself and ALSO DON’T BE A GOOD REASON WHY UR CHILD WANTS TO DIE my sister is kind of my 9th reason to why I want to die tbh she always checks on my stories when I vent and she thinks that means something “I love and care for my sister and I know her more than she knows about herself” bullshit, I rather be saved my a serial killer than my own sister. That’s how much of a whore she is for my brothers I have nothing against them because they don’t make me feel like I want to die they are pretty decent brothers. My father IS AMAZING I love my dad a lot when he found out I was suicidal he checked on me everyday even though he was busy at work and he was actually the first to answer the phone from school when my mom couldn’t answer. I know she is busy from work but it’s not a good excuse to not answer the phone when I’m on the verge of dying. As for my dad, he actually cares and pays attention to me more than my mom could ever do all she does is just go on TikTok showing her pussy off to her friends and fake moans for money and somehow she calls it “not cheating” you know emotionally cheating is a real thing right? Not everything has to be physical but you’re too Stubborn and incompetent to admit you’re wrong. Maybe that’s where I got my narcissistic traits from. This fucking whore keeps gaslighting me into thinking that I’m the victim in everything whenever I lose friends or get into an argument. And I recently lost my homeboy all because “I’m right and they’re wrong” like I should be coddled all the time IM 15 YEARS OLD I’m getting older and people will expect me to mature (which I admit I don’t want to) but I have to mature somehow or else all my friendships will fail in the long run and I don’t want that to happen. I will explain some of my diagnosis and self diagnosis in the next post (if I’m lucky to live the next day)

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