as now one of the older members in the group, taeyong feels it a responsibility to check up on the members from time to time, more often than not. he’s always been one of the older ones anyway, despite his cheerful and rather youthful demeanor, but now that he’s technically the second oldest member, he realizes that he has to step up a bit and start acting like a hyung to the other members a little more. after a whirlwind of news in january, they’re already starting off with equally as overwhelming news this month -- taeyong himself is somewhat exhausted of the change, even if he accepts everything that’s new and trusts the process.

he knows that other members won’t feel the same as he does -- and it’s understandable to feel those feelings, because they’re indeed very valid things to be concerned or worried about. taeyong tries to at least ease some of their minds with whatever he can offer. “hey, jihoon,” taeyong begins, offering a small wave as he steps into the living room, where jihoon has apparently been sleeping, “do you want some ramen? i was going over some of the new song’s lyrics and got hungry so i decided to come in here and make some, wanna join me?”

in what seems like the blink of an eye, convex goes from thirteen original members down to eight -- then back up to thirteen, with no breaks seemingly in between each departure and arrival. overwhelming is an understatement at this point -- taeyong hadn’t been expecting two more members added to the lineup. the more the merrier, he always says, but if he had at least a few months to prepare for something like this, then he would be physically more excited about it. he has no problem with the new faces -- it’s refreshing in a way, but again, it’s an enormous change that warrants at least three months to fully process.

but of course, that’s never the case.

not only does he have to make conscious decisions to pay attention and spend time with the new members ( as one of the oldest in convex now, he feels it’s a responsibility ), convex is also gearing up for a comeback -- a comeback with a new, full convex lineup that he sees either being absolutely monumental or incredibly confusing to the general public and their fans. lots of risks are being played here, but he trusts the process -- and he hopes he can help the others trust the process, too. maybe it’s his detriment being a diehard optimist.

he’s going over some new choreography during the middle part of his break period -- it harkens back to debut, and it tugs taeyong’s heartstrings a little. a new beginning, he presumes. then, the door flings open, and taeyong jumps, his head snapping around to see who it is that has caught him daydreaming. his features soften when he realizes it’s one of the new members, jaehyun. “ah, hello, jaehyun-ah, i didn’t see you there. come to practice a little? need some help with anything?”