#convert probs

I know nobody probably cares, but the reason I've kind of abandoned this blog is because I was sick of people making me feel """not jewish enough""" even though I'm not jewish yet, and I know I'm not there yet, but people are really out here making it seem like I'll never get there. As if I didn't already have imposter syndrome lmao

At the time I considered myself pretty estranged from Islam. And I wanted to imagine an Islamic environment in which I could belong. I felt all kinds of shame as a Muslim. People say Catholicism is a religion of guilt and Islam is a religion of shame. It's a different feeling--you can't show your face or look people in the eye knowing you have these little doubts inside you. A lot of Muslim kids end up leaving Islam because they have these double lives that they can't reconcile. So, I was trying to write about a world in which that wasn't a problem.

When everyone at church is ethnic and dancing all well