#constantly growing

Exactly🥰

There’s no judgment here we have all had shitty cards handed us. Along the way we have to keep faith that person seeks whatever healing that needs to be had. Remember our humanity as a whole never ever the humiliation of others or ourselves but the habilitation of our minds and behavioral actions that follow. Anyone that has ever done wrong by me I don’t wish them harm nor do I hate them, I wish them healing. Those unhealed judge themselves harshly and others enough. Those healed embraces the parts inside that doesn’t belong and also struggles with it still. Only it’s not to the extent to control them and their lives. It is our yin & yang. It is why someone healing has a hard time processing at first, learning about the things we ourselves contribute to or main cause of. Without that self awareness and knowledge ….acceptance, forgiving, and loving that part of us we too would also stay in self destruct mode due to trauma we couldn’t control. While not realizing we’ve been given a gift.

A chance to break cycles, change, adapt, lesson the severity of our behavioral outburst in any given situations and circumstances that may or may not trigger us in our journey. My healing has taught me to love that once broken self, made her stronger, take accountability & responsibility for my own actions or anything I contributed to or with…. It’s given me the ability to correct such behavior. It has taught me to be gentle to recognize my own struggles & strengths. To those unhealed I was once unhealed. Therapy helps, it doesn’t mean you’re weak, it doesn’t mean you’re broken beyond prepare. It’s to teach you to love yourself, to be kind to yourself, finding yourself to know what parts of you was outside influenced before & after trauma, happenings in your life in general. Peace from within despite what you’ve been through and what you may still have yet to go through. It’s training our minds to rewire our way of once negativity living to a more positive way of thinking and healthier being. An equal balance, so you can live in peace not pieces. The relationship with yourself is the most important because it is you that has to live there.

That is the in depth type of conversation I bring to the table when I allow someone I don’t know in my life! I am at peace with myself, nothing to prove or defend, I continue to improve & heal myself accordingly and know what work I’ve put in thus far. I know my own bad habits, toxic traits, I’m very intuitive with myself & surroundings. I keep them in check and not afraid to say if and when I did wrong, where I wrong someone, to come up with a solution in order to correct my own problematic behavior. I notice when some kind of disturbing changes within someone else that happens but also if there’s any within myself. I’m not afraid to call out toxic behaviors this includes my own. I listen & very open to what my therapist says in order to keep growing. My growth shows, I know to some people they can’t understand my frequency, (my energy) the level I am on and that’s ok, hopefully one day they will. In the mean time I am damn proud of myself!