#confessionals.

“I cancelled the show because I will never be who those women want me to be. I will never be weak, never be soft spoken, never bend to their demands and will, and I will never change the way I honor and love my husband” she said outright. “This experience will never be a wrongful one to me. I think in the time of my life where I pitched this idea, it was timed perfectly. I could not have predicted anything that happened to me, however the show helped me manifest through the majority of it because I don’t know how it would have been handled if I didn’t have millions of eyes on me during it all” she said. “I loved my idea, I thought it was a great way to unite women and show the World the backbones that we have to be in comparison to our husband’s that get so much limelight while we are always faded into the background. However that’s not what it was” she said sadly. “It hurts me a lot to have done what I have had to, but I think it was the right decision for everyone.”

“I think during the duration of the show I have lost more then I have in my entire lifetime” she stressed. “At first I just wanted to tell my story. I wanted to people to see what true love was. My husband is white, I am black, that within itself is a story. We helped to build each other up and I hate the way the show displayed us tearing each other down. I struggled with fertility, I wanted women to know they were not alone. All the money my husband and I possessed at the end o the day barely helped to correct that at all. It’s easy to see me wearing a 20,000 dollar purse and think my life is a fairy tale, it isn’t. And I wanted people to see that” she said as she looked down. “But I didn’t think that being yourself would cause so much pain” she said eye fixed on the floor. 

“I put faith in a group of women who only plan of action was to divide and conquer the woman who’s hands they fed from” she said looking up at the camera. She stared at it for a while before she spoke again. “Rachel Hudson....” she paused. 

“I trusted that woman with my life” Mercedes said. “Rachel was someone that I thought genuinely cared about me. The second I thought of the show and the blueprint was set. I knew she was someone I had to bring along. Because she deserved to take the bite out of the same apple as I did. She was paid far more then the other women, she was purposely given more air time. I had her back even when she stabbed me in mine” she explained. “We were suppose to be more then friends we were suppose to be family” she said. “Sometimes... it’s your own family and friends... that turn against you at the drop of a dime.”

“I would have given her anything she needed. The shirt off my back. I was always a call away. I loved her, she was my son’s godmother... it’s just astounding. I hope whatever lie she tells herself, whatever piece of sanity she holds on to to get by when she thinks of what she did to me. I hope it comforts her, all the days of her life. Because karma is a honest bitch and she does not miss any deserving people.”

“All the same I wish Tasha well as well” she said shrugging her shoulders. “It’s nothing else I can offer that, I trusted a young foolish ass girl and I got exactly what I deserved” she said honestly. “I am closed off and reserved because all my life whenever I have opened up about anything from my past people always use it to hurt me!” she stressed. “I become this punching bag and I am forced to deal with whatever shit people throw at me and not dare throw a punch back. That time has ended.... ended with a friendship” she sighed. “I expected more out of Tasha I really did, because she was a great friend and someone I would have never expected to rub me the wrong way but she did. And that ship has sailed, never to return.” 

“My mental health isn’t a gag joke for these chatty bitches tea brunches. My past hurt me and could have destroyed me if I let it. But I rose above, so fuck anyone who thinks me faltering into depression is something to me laughed at” she added with a raised eyebrow. “It’s not me reverting back into my old ways that defines me, it is my ability to do so and conquer it that does” she said happily. “I am happy with myself, sometimes maybe not, but mainly I am happy with the one I turned out. The woman that they try to portray on tv is not me, not even a little bit” she said shaking her head. 

“No” she said rolling her neck “Samuel and I are never getting a divorce for any women looking forward to it, you have to wait until your next lifetime Petunia because I don’t know how else you are going to get him” she said sarcastically. “He and I very happy despite what people think they know. He is an amazing man and an even better father to our kids” she spoke confidentially. “I think he will always be misunderstood and that is fine he doesn’t seek acceptance from anyone. I think a lot of these women much like Rachel are obsessed with the man he is and wishes they had one just like him” she said lifting a figure for emphasizes. “He’s cocky, he’s arrogant, he’s feisty, he’s sarcastic, he’s witty, he’s domineering, he’s bold” she listed “and sadly enough you never got to see how compassionate, nonjudgmental, affectionate, and open minded he is” she said. “I’ve learned over the course of 10 years, most people just don’t like my husband because they aren’t my husband. But there can only be on Samuel Evans.... and I got ‘em” she smiled. 

“I am most looking forward to the closure of it all!” she said clasping her hands together and holding them up to her mouth as she got emotion. “I am looking forward to the vacations, being in the stands again, watching SJ and Samaria grow!” she cheerfully wiping a tear. “We are expecting a new bundle this October and I just honestly can’t wait to experience that all over again, those moments have been the most intimate moments Samuel and I have ever shared” she confessed. “Samuel is over the moon, of course, he always wanted a large family and after all the hard work and the countless dollars we put into treatments. We have finally been able to expand our family” she said looking to the floor again as she wiped another tear. “It is going to be SO hard to say goodbye” she said sniffling. “But bigger, better, and brighter things are on the horizon” she breathed. “I pity any enemy I have, it’s a sad sad day for them because they don’t win, their evil lies with them and them only. I leave this show with more than I had when I came. I made so much money off of something that started off as a pipe dream. The power... can corrupt people. And I don’t think through any of this I have ever changed. I am still Mrs. Mercedes J Evans, America’s favorite house wife and doctor” she said smiling brightly, she blew a kiss to the camera before she moved to stand up in front of the camera tugging her mic off with one hand on her protruding belly.