#conception journey

I don’t want to be envious, but it feels like everyone around me is fulfilling their dreams and, as usual, I’m stuck waiting and waiting and waiting for something I’m not sure will ever come.

My period is 8 days late but several pregnancy tests have been negative. I know irregular cycles are common after coming off of birth control. I know I’m not patient and it will happen eventually, likely within 6 months, and this is only month 2.

Where we are for this month: (maybe a bit TMI)

We’re post ovulation and hopefully just past fertilization but no guarantee. My nipples are really sore and seem slightly enlarged(?) but I’ve never been off the pill so that may be normal for my luteal phase.

I have high hopes but it’s too early to be sure. Ahhh we have to wait like another week before we can get an accurate result from a pregnancy test.

I’m actually holding down this new job and doing well and liking it. It does stress me out a bit and I spend too much time worrying about my caseload of kids but that’s empathy for you babeyy. It’s all good I’m working on work life separation (and newly diagnosed OCD) in therapy.

Bit of an accusatory tone.

I did some research on this. There's very little clinical evidence, and what there is is kind of inconclusive. It's actually more likely to affect sperm than eggs, sometimes causing "lazy" sperm. An abundance of anecdotal evidence on pregnancy Reddit threads also cited dozens of people who had no trouble conceiving, and some were heavy weed users.