#como misadventures

i was reading up on entropy for a writing project and thought "whoag this is just like the pale from DE" and then realized that the scientific field around studying it in universe is literally called entroponetics. thought canceled weve come a full circle

Fuck it, pale appreciation post. A literal manifestation of condensed, jumbled up past in a world so haunted by it that it stops being just metaphorical.. the way almost every character in the game seems to be lost in memories somehow, separated from the world on their own tiny isola. An entire once-great city caught in stasis looking back while its potential slowly fades. Failed ideologies so far removed into the world of ideas that they completely lose touch with reality. All of it, all the nostalgia and longing for something that never was and never will be... Good god. There's really no better way to capture the existential dread undertones of Disco Elysium is there

this last bdubs episode. the one where he builds the silo then shows it off from the outside and walks in only to find that the door opens to a landscape instead of a small room with a flame is still floating in the air in the middle even though the torch isnt there. do NOT rendering error me that was a will-o'-wisp sighting alright

growing up is so wild one day youll be sighing to your friend about the fact that you dont have enough money for a professional dye job and how everything is so tiring and you want to come over and the next youre looking at the ceiling tiles from her bathtub while she helps rinse the bleach off your head with the balcony wide open and music blasting from the living room and a stench of ammonia in the evening air and throughout all of this you wont even realize that this is the moment youve been actively looking forward to for the past four years. until you blink and suddenly youre 14 again daydreaming about this exact scenario except that this time it's real and you've made it

also just caught up on the latest dunmeshi episodes today and im so happy to see more of kabru that guy is So Intriguing to me. keep in mind that i havent read the manga so i dont really know what his whole deal is yet but i Need to dissect him like a lab specimen under a microscope. which seems to be a very kabruesque thing to say in the first place. his impulse to Figure People Out is SO understandable to me literally girl same i dont think ive ever had a conversation without doing that in the background at all times. except that i really dislike when thats shown as proof that a connection isnt genuine? in kabrus case it *seems* to be portrayed as if him analyzing others puts him at a distance from them. reading between the lines like that is a lot like stepping outside of a game to watch it from a meta perspective and therefore close to looking at others as being "below" you, which is again really easy to push into cynicism territory but at the same time it just depends on how you frame it methinks. what is 'playing a persona' and 'calculating' to one can be 'curious' and 'observant' to another & it matters a LOT how the character themself sees it because it's up to them whether they make it genuine or machiavellian, without the action itself actually changing on the outside. this is Not a dunk on how kabru is written ofc just my thoughts about how acting friendly n laid back to get to see more of a person in an interaction can be both seen as manipulative OR considerate of their comfort in a conversation while still getting to know them. i think the line lies in the degree of how willing to sympathize the one doing the Figuring Out is. as in you probably wouldnt want to talk to someone knowing that theyre only doing it to pick your brain apart while staying completely emotionally uninvolved/judging you but if they simply were very dedicated to understanding you because they want to get to know you better it's SIGNIFICANTLY less creepy. then theres still the issue of distance and control because in both these cases the analyzing one puts themselves in a much less vulnerable position, but while maybe not The Healthiest Mindset for the person doing it i still believe it can make for a perfectly functional positive dynamic. from what ive seen so far kabru is fluid at reading between the lines, level-headed and generally friendly & open, but it's the kind of openness that puts you in control of an interaction just enough to avoid situations where you might become vulnerable, which goes very well with the level-headed thing. still im too early into the series to tell whether that's an actual thing or just my projections so take that as a bunch of my loose notes abt being a well adjusted human person that ive decided to share just for fun👍