#commitment anxiety

A missed wedding dream often carries panic, doubt, and the ache of being out of time. It may be surfacing now to mirror commitment fears, life timing, or a deeper shift in what vows mean to you.

No You don’t understand

You don’t understand what it feels like to be trapped you feel like your in a dark room with the walls caving in

You feel like you can’t breathe like there’s a bag over your head and its slowly tightening it’s grip

There’s no way out

You trick yourself into thinking its your fault that there’s something wrong All the time

It’s hard to push away But when you try it comes back Harder Faster Worse Ten times worse than the time before There’s no getting rid of it It’s like a looming cloud over you at all times No escape.

So no, it’s not going away anytime soon Neither will the shaking, that lump in my throat or the sudden breakdowns that hit me every week.