#commanderlotus

if someone wanted to really understand you, what would they read, watch, and listen to?Fuuuuuuuck right off the bat, this is difficult to answer. To be honest, it’s more listen to than anything else. I can’t really think of anything to watch or read?? I’ve never watched a series/play/musical/movie and connected with it as a whole? There are a few songs that if you want to know what I’ve gone through, listen to How to Save A Life by The Fray, He Won’t Go by Adele, and House on Fire by Fitz and then Tantrums or if you wanna know my aesthetic, listen to LA Devotee by Panic! At The Disco

have you ever found a writer who thinks just like you? if so, who?Professional author? Eh, no one comes to mind. I’ve had my writing style compared to Stephen King and I thought that was cool? Like, the structure? Roleplaying wise, (other than my boyfriend who we’ve had similar ideas for stuff and we didn’t realize it) look at number 24.

list your fandoms and one character from each that you identify with.I’m obviously not going to list ALL of my fandoms since I’d be typing for a while. Here are only a few: RWBY- Mercury Black, Disney- Megara from Hercules, Rapunzel from Tangled, Elsa from Frozen, Asagao Academy- Mai Sasaki

do you like your name?  is there another name you think would fit you better?Eh, I’m indifferent about my name, to be honest. I’m not a fan of my middle name since it’s literally the most basic middle name ever. I have it, my sister has it, one of my nieces has it, and my aunt has it. FOUR FUCKING PEOPLE HAVE MARIE AS A MIDDLE NAME IN MY FAMILY.

do you think of yourself as a human being or a human doing? do you identify yourself by the things you do?I don’t know the difference, to be honest? I know it’s mainly about being ‘plugged in but that’s me when I’m home. It’s how I socialize with a lot of people-- hell, it’s how we do our date nights and it’s how we met. At concerts and cons, I’m rarely on my phone and if I am, it’s the find information or to text someone to meet up with them or find out where they are.

are you religious/spiritual?I’d like to be more in tune with my religion but, since my parents are very.... ‘practical’ people when it comes to anything, I know that they won’t accept it so i mean -shrugs-

do you care about your ethnicity?I don’t know about the context? Like, I’m as white as milk but that doesn’t mean that since I’m not judged that it doesn’t happen to other people and that I can’t do anything about it.

what musical artists have you most felt connected to over your lifetime?FUCK HERE WE GO. I really connect with Lady Gaga since I do like her style and the message that she sends out. 

are you an artist?Yes-- musical theatre, music, and digital art.

do you have a creed?I live by a few of them, actually. When I’m at work, I go with the idea that I give people the quality of service that I would want. Outside of work (and with my co-workers), I live by two words: mutual respect.

describe your ideal day.

dog person or cat person?CATS ALL DAY ERRY DAY

inside or outdoors?Depends on the season-- i like being outdoors during the summer and inside during the winter.

are you a musician?Yes- guitar, drums, piano, and bass.

five most influential books over your lifetime.The Slippery Slope by Lemony Snicket, Frankenstein by Mary Shelley, The Great Gatsby by F. Scott Fitzgerald, Into the Wild by Erin Hunter, and Go Ask Alice.

if you’d grown up in a different environment, do you think you’d have turned out the same?No.

would you say your tumblr is a fair representation of the “real you”?Um yes because Disney is life, and everything else has taken over my life and it’s tough being in a LDR because you’re so far away ♥

what’s your patronus?Uhhh... I don’t know enough about Harry Potter to know woops

which Harry Potter house would you be in? or are you a muggle?HUFFLEPUFF, BABY.

would you rather be in Middle Earth, Narnia, Hogwarts, or somewhere else?Wonderland ♥♥♥

do you love easily?Platonic, yes. Romantic is... a bit... difficult? I don’t know what romantic love is ‘supposed’ to feel like since I’ve never felt it before. My ex-boyfriend told me that loved me without knowing my last name and had very little desire to get to know me or even opening up to me. He ended up cheating on me and my self esteem is still struggling from that and it’s been six months. That whole deal was not a good time for me-- and even the few months after when I was dealing with feelings for someone else but he ended up reminding me of my ex so that kinda killed my attraction towards him and then Pop Tarts happened aND NOW I’M RAMBLING I’M SORRY

list the top five things you spend the most time doing, in order.Supposed to be writing, scrolling Tumblr, date nights (because our calls get up to 10+ hours), getting distracted, what I’m supposed to be doing

how often would you want to see your family every year?Can none be an option?

have you ever felt like you had a “mind-meld” with someone?@goodtobealiverightaboutnow​ this is literally our entire friendship other than our fifty million ships. WE FUCKING MIND MELDED OVER THIS QUESTION WE’RE IN TOO DEEP.

could you live as a hermit?Nah, not really- I’d miss going to concerts and conventions.

how would you describe your gender/sexuality?Cis-female, heteromantic but not sure where on the ace spectrum I’m on

do you feel like your outside appearance is a fair representation of the “real you”?Yes.

on a scale from 1 to 10, how hard is it for someone to get under your skin?9

three songs that you connect with right now.Fools Gold by Fitz and the Tantrums, My Way by Ceasefire, and Dope by Lady Gaga