I’ve gone through several very tough years of my life now. This started when I was I guess 13. Parents started getting pretty bad. I haven’t really told strangers about this but the time has come for me to ask for outside help. I have been growing up in a very unaccepting family, it’s taken a big toll on my mental health and honestly there were times where I thought I couldn’t do it anymore. But I knew I had to prove myself and kept on. It’s been now 5 or so years of me going through constant emotional and mental draining from my parents and their terrible comments. The moment I came out to them as a trans boy threw me into a dark spiral. I sometimes wish I had never told them and just kept it a secret but I can’t go back and honestly don’t wish to go back. Because of this I honestly wasted my teenage years crying consistently, laying in bed in my room, and just having to be isolated from friends. I didn’t get to enjoy highschool the way I should have been able to. Any and all of my experiences that were fun had to be made complete secret and the planning created lots of anxiety for me and my friends who were willing to help me. Because of my parents my memory is kinda bad now, I disassociate a lot now and honestly not good. I’ve grown used to being numb in this house whenever my parents yell at me. My mother especially is a huge problem. She is racist, homophobic, transphobic, and honestly just not accepting of anyone who isn’t exactly like her. I don’t consider her a mother at this point. I’m sorry that my explanation of my past is kinda shaky, to be honest with you my brain probably threw out a lot of those memories which is honestly for the better but is pretty annoying when I want to tell people what I’ve gone through but I hope you all can understand. But , I plan to come out completely once I’m out to college. The thing is I don’t know how well my parents will take it. For starters my family has been struggling with money for a while. We have lived decently but once college comes by that can go pretty bad really quickly. Second of all once I come out im not so sure they’ll want to support me financially anymore. This is a huge fear I have and I honestly don’t want to continue to rely on them for money but I need to go to college. I’ll be moving to California for school once college decisions are in, I’m going there for the work and also to be as far from my family as possible for my own well being. I want to be financially stable so I can be on my own with my puppy and finally just be happy. I’ll be working during school and trying to do commissions on the side but with my major I’ll have a packed schedule and I don’t know how much I could possibly get money wise. So please consider donating to my gofundme. I put school info there because I needed to keep it vague so my parents don’t find out. But also if you can’t donate that’s totally fine but please all I ask is that you spread this around anywhere you can. It would help me so much and it’s all I could ask for. I know it says get me to art school but this will be what I need to get out of here, please help me get out. The money will go towards school, supplies, moving expenses, and even expenses for my puppy Opal who will honestly be the only family I’ll have left after this big move. So please please help me out, this is a dream but also my life. Any help would make me so great full. Thank you for reading and I hope you consider helping out
