#colj

i am p sure i can next semester but that does not make me feel better right now. i genuinely like taking classes there, even the ones i fuck up in.

also, i fucked up last semester massively. and the emotional mess that is the cause of it probably isn’t going to just leave before everything starts up, even if i do get antidepressants really soon.

i really love college. but i think i might need to drop and just look for a job. i mean, i’m pretty sure i can go back later anyway. regardless my gpa is pretty awful and will just get more awful, so.