#cold walls

If you really wanna know

Have you listened to 'Cold Walls' yet?

Striving for perfection is something childhood had taught him brought him love. His household growing up was cold unless filled with relatives boasting of his cousins achievements in transforming as a full were, or how they did well in the human schools. His parents never had anything to boast about him. "Go to your room," his mother said not looking at him. "If you want to be as dumb as a wall, the wall doesn't need to eat does it?"

Quietly he went to his room,the empty basement, with no facial expression, no tears. He would keep his pride and keep working hard to get a better body, make himself seem smarter, develop his talents. And one day not be afraid to change into a Hyena. He still had never reached full transformation, and even now could only develop claws and fangs. The fear had never left him, he had just gotten better at hiding it. To keep the world from discovering he was afraid, he made the world fear HIM first. This at least had made his mother proud. Her thoughts didn't matter to him anymore, at the Academy. Her thoughts had not touched him since she had disappeared a year ago, and he had not cared if she was dead or alive to go looking for her. He had spent his time at the Academy, mentally and physically abusing whoever was weak enough, getting enjoyment and entertainment from it. 

But there were times when he tried to make the wrong person fear him, times when someone fought back with a cold icy wall. He could do nothing to that wall but see his own reflection and reflect on who he was. " Why am I like this" Seemed to be his question since the bloody triumph trials. Once his doctor note for injuries during the trial had dried up he was force back into studies and found he physically wasn't as in shape as he used to be. It frustrated him, enough to want to beat to a pulp anyone in class who did well. And he hated, absolutely LOATHED working in groups. 

"For this month's group assignment, each of you will have a partner, and will be given a task where you will be forced to rely on each other as true partners." The stealth and sneaking teacher said as she walked around the class. "Each task I give will be unique to the two assigned to it, and you must submit a letter writing about your progress as a team each week for the month to turn into me."

Oh fuck.

Actual work.

He glared at anyone who looked at him and grumbled under his breath. He hated working with other people, just as much as he hated failing. 

"JR you will be assigned to the Kraken challenge with Yoonjo."