I can sense that I might grow a eunech obsession similar to that of my Shizun fanaticism and as I read reborn to love Lord Qiansui I can feel the tendrils of insanity creeping up on me and I don't know whether I want to dive right in or run away.

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I can sense that I might grow a eunech obsession similar to that of my Shizun fanaticism and as I read reborn to love Lord Qiansui I can feel the tendrils of insanity creeping up on me and I don't know whether I want to dive right in or run away.

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After reading two great novels back to back I feel like I have a massive hangover
Latter half of Dancing with the Tide novel:
Xie Queshan: I will push Nan Yi away because staying near me is so very dangerous and I love her too much
Nan Yi: Oh, he's doing that thing again, I better go save him climbs on the roof and shots a man through the neck with a crossbow etc.
finished feng xing today! the translator basically finished out the last 6 chapters in the past two days just as i caught up xD
i loved it a lot, more below the cut
Wanyan Jun hadn’t thought about his humble origins in a long time. It felt like a past life, distant and forgotten. He had assumed she wouldn’t remember—it was just a fleeting encounter when they were children. But her words struck a raw nerve, exposing his shameful past. It made him seethe with anger while simultaneously sinking into self-loathing.
Xu Kouyue gazed at him, as if reading his thoughts: “Do you know how I recognized you? The faces of the poor always bear the eyes of the poor, looking at this world with a sense of desperation, as if you don’t grab what you want, someone else will take it from you.”
“Even if you trample me beneath your feet, even if you rise above me, you can never escape your origins.”
Her words stung him, one after another. With a loud slap, Wanyan Jun struck her across the face. Enraged, he grabbed her by the collar, shouting louder and louder as if trying to mask his deep-seated inferiority: “Xu Kouyue, what are you now? You’re nothing! You’ll have to kneel before me, begging for my favor, begging for your life! Do you understand how fortunes change?”
“I do,” Xu Kouyue replied calmly. “It’s your turn to face the consequences.”
In Wanyan Jun’s angriest, most unguarded moment, Xu Kouyue plunged the dagger hidden in her sleeve into his heart.
Why Not Sail Together/Dancing with the Tide
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im around halfway done with 试问东流水 aka ask the eastward flowing waters
this is my 3rd xiao lou and i feel like it's very clear xiao lou is extremely attached to a few core ideas/tropes, either in general or in this series in specific. every book features a very tight love triangle/quadrangle that spends a lot of time together, especially in war camps, with the men having great respect and affection for each other; parents for at least one protagonist who turn out to be royals; the entangled, doomed love stories of the parent generation; magnificent self sacrifice; the loneliness of power; political situations involving 3 or more countries; highly skilled wuxia artists being key political leaders; and a spirited and lovable heroine with a dedicated and impressive skillset (mostly wuxia)
as a result i do think the entire series comes off a little... formualic? like reading remixes of the same story over and over
but i REALLY like the core thing this author does tbh, and i feel like im not quite sure how to keep finding more books like it. they are romance x political-national intrigue x wuxia sects and powers, in almost equal proportions, and they are tinged with tragedy. i actually am indifferent to love triangle stuff generally, but i do like the xiao wuxia vs pei yan type dynamic a lot. if anyone has suggestions for similar books, please lemme know
this is the 1st book of the series, and i do think there is authorial growth from each book. the second book is better, i feel, than this one, and the last book forever flowing waters aka love of nirvana is the best one because it involves the most ambiguity in the relationships the love triangle/quadrangle have with each other
The joy of victory and the presence of his beloved allowed him to briefly lower his guard, letting him drift off peacefully in the vast wilderness. Everything felt just right; he had never felt such brightness ahead of him.
Why Not Sail Together/Dancing with the Tide
Don't say that! There are twelve whole chapters left 😬
A faint crack echoed as the bone was set, and Nan Yi felt Zhang Yuehui’s entire body tense in agony, the cloth in his mouth nearly bitten through.
But finally, she exhaled in relief.
There were no incurable wounds—only uncooperative patients.
Why Not Sail Together/Dancing with the Tide
I just love that Nan Yi has no time for self-pitying martyrdom. She doesn't let Scholar Song drown himself, she doesn't let Xie Queshan give up when he's imprisoned, she won't let Zhang Yuehui keep a broken leg so he can share her pain.
She tries to pull everyone back into life. Violently if necessary