cncomplicated replied to your post āItās that time of the year again⦠Yep, itās my birthday! 31 years....ā
Happiest of all birthdays to youuuu <3
Thank youuuuuuuu!ā„ Got strawberries and chocolate cake, so not a bad day at all.

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cncomplicated replied to your post āItās that time of the year again⦠Yep, itās my birthday! 31 years....ā
Happiest of all birthdays to youuuu <3
Thank youuuuuuuu!ā„ Got strawberries and chocolate cake, so not a bad day at all.

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cncomplicated replied to your post āIāve been off my anti-depressants for a few days now simply cosā Iām...ā
take care of yourself ok, i'm worried :((
Thanksā„ Tbh I was kinda worried about me too for a moment, but I finallyĀ got my meds and things are looking up. But HOW I got my meds, oh boy, thereās a story to be told here - if anyone had managed to hold on to any illusions about the bliss of Finnish healthcare provided by the so-called welfare society, I got some bad news for you.
First Act: We donāt have your meds, oops ĀÆ\_(ć)_/ĀÆ
I got my prescription and went to the pharmacy only to find out that theyād run out of the meds I needed. And not just this particular pharmacy but every goddamn pharmacy in the country. They werenāt expecting a refill until THREE WEEKS from now. Apparently, this is a thing that can happen. I returned home with no meds, just crippling anxiety and the fear of how the hell am I supposed to survive for three weeks without my meds.Ā
FYI, these are maximum dose anti-depressants, aka some heavy shit you are never ever supposed to quit cold turkey cosā it will fuck up your head real bad and real quick. No, youāre supposed to decrease the dose little by little under supervision, and the process of quitting them properly can take 2-3 months.
So good luck and godspeed to me.
Second Act: Bureaucracy is a bitchĀ
As my withdrawal symptoms started to get worse (head spinning, vomiting, extreme existential desperation, etc., you know, the usual) I called the hospital this morning to get some help.
Now my hospital trip was a real triumph for bureaucracy: since there were no free appointments or call-times for any doctors, they send me to see a nurse, who was likeĀ āwhat do they expect me to do, start preparing the medicine here on my desk?ā (she literally said that and I shared her frustration). She ended up calling the doctor next door to usĀ to ask what to do even though they were with a patient. The doctor had heard that some pharmacies still had a lower dose (150 mg pills) of the medicine I needed (300 mg pills), so she wrote a prescription for those. Apparently, the pharmacies canāt just give me two jars of 150 mg pills if they donāt have the 300 mg pills, you need a separate prescription for those. Yay.
So, to get a new prescription with a lower dose for the same medicine I already had a prescription for, I had to go to a hospital, see a nurse and have that nurse call a doctor in the next room. Double yay.
Third Act: Pharmacies will be the death of us all
I found out from the very pissed-off nurse (her wrath wasnāt directed at me but the whole system) that it wasnāt just these meds that had ran out - pharmacies are running low on all prescription drugs cosā of some rearrangement shit in the supply system or something, I didnāt quite get it, except that itās the fault of the pharmacies.
And my case isnāt even close to being the worst even if the nurse thought I wasĀ āin a pretty bad conditionā (her words). At least I got my meds in the end though they cost me a pretty penny. For example, turns out some people canāt even get their diabetes medicationĀ atm. Thatās life-threatening (well, so is all of a sudden losing your anti-depressants, but still, you know what I mean). Iām shocked and horrified tbh. Itās not enough that you scrape together the money to pay for your expensive meds when there are no meds to be bought.
This is what you get when the government doesnāt properly regulate pharmacies (as they used to, I believe), so basically fuck capitalism.
Ok your turn: dimples, buttery, pencil and mochi! :)
Yay, asks, thanks!ā„
dimples - most attractive features of a personās face?: Iām gonna have to go with eyes. Itās not even about the colour - I donāt really have a preference on that - but the⦠emotion in them? Do you get what I mean? The eyes can determine the whole expression on oneās face (e.g. just look at Tom Hardyās acting) and that makes them fascinating. Soft eyes, playful eyes, intense eyes,Ā mischievousĀ eyes⦠And sometimes you can catch a twinkle in someoneās eyes, and thatās about the most attractive thing there is.
buttery - favorite snack?: Right now Iām into these tiny little raw carrots, as well as my usual go-to snacks peanuts and raisins (Iām trying to eat less sugar, otherwise the obvious answer would be chocolate). Iām also super addicted to hummus, I can eat it just like that without anything to go with it, it just sooooo good.
pencil - do you own a journal?: I actually own three (3) journals: a normal one, a āwrite a list of at least three things that made you happy todayā -journal akaĀ āhappy journalā, andĀ āmy dysfunctionsā -journal where I can vent when my brain is stuck (itās actually very useful especially if you tend to overreact to everything like I do). Though I havenāt written anything in any of these in a long time cosā I am and always have been hopeless with journals. (And I just realized I just assumed a journal means a diary here - well it does now anyway.)
mochi - favorite studio ghibli film?: How am I supposed to choose just one?? I love Totoro and Howlās Moving Castle and Princess MononokeĀ etc. etc. Ok, for the sake of this ask Iām gonna say Spirited AwayĀ because itās brilliant and also the first Studio Ghibli movie I ever saw, so it has a special place in my heart.
This was fun. :D
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cncomplicated replied to your post āThey give me an article to translate and summarise for the companyās...ā
this is truly magnificent and they should be ashamed. Like people in that specific brand of business SHOULD KNOW BETTER
Agreed.
cncomplicated replied to your post: āHey yāall, itās been a while. (Actually only 20 days since the last...ā:
It's so so so nice to hear you're doing so well <3 you deserve every bit of it!
Thank you! I wish the same for you~ ā„

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cncomplicated replied to your post āItās been two weeks and I havenāt heard back from that job...ā
writing is freaking hard, especially after a long pause, but you've managed it before, you'll manage it now <3 pro-tip: don't start at the beginning, pick the most coherent sentence/idea you've got and work from there, and come back and fill out the blanks. It doesn't have to be Finished and Flawless from scratch :)
Thanks for the support and tipsā„
Iāve manged to put together a rough draft. I hate every single word Iāve written and wish I could just fall off from the face of the Earth - but I guess thatās still better than having no words at all.
Send help.
I'm so pissed about the wasted potential when it comes to the hobbit trilogy that i'm most likely re-making the whole damn thing with gifs :D
Yes good PLEASE FIX ITā„ā„ā„
(This answer goes public cosā hey dudes keep an eye on her edits, theyāre super pretty and she can give us the Hobbit we deserve.)
cncomplicated replied to your post āSo I promised myself that I would follow Space Queen Carrie Fisherās...ā
(tdĻdt)ļ¾ā” you are super strong and brave for posting this publicly. I hope you'll get the help you deserve and need, and I'm always there for you to call or, you know, anything.
Thank you! Youāre the bestā„ā„ Iāve always been saying how we should try to remove the stigma attached to mental illness, so itās time for me to put my money where my mouth is and do my bit - even if talking about it in public is super scary. Baby steps I guess. One day Iāll be able to ironically joke about this. One day.
I have high hopes for the student healthcare system, theyāve always been good to me. The only thing that scares me is how long will I have to wait until someone has the time to see me - letās hope for a cancellation time in the near future!