#closing hooniful

i wanna start of by saying i love enhypen and all of their stages and eras, just that this one is significantly hard to enjoy. i’m dramatic but so be it. you’re only 19 once! even then i have barely any time to be in a fandom with a packed schedule. i can’t help but be disappointed and discouraged by all of this negativity in the fandom, in twitter, tumblr, tiktok, etc. i love enhypen as much as i respect and adore them.

(i’ve edited this a bit just to clean up whatever mess i’ve written lol…if you see this and choose to read it, ily and thank u)

i LOVE even the short amount of time i’ve been active on tumblr, without writing. and i hope i’ve made so many people laugh at my comments or my random shit-posts. i feel like i am more of a silent or anti-social moot/account, but all of the interactions i make on here have made me smile :) this is what makes me love being in a fandom, where one thing brings people together and creates bonds — even without only just talking about said interest.

to be honest, i am not happy with where i am in my personal life right now, and seeing my tl or homepage or fyp and my feed be full of more hate that comes with this entire thread of unfurling drama, not to mention real-world problems, my own dilemmas, and etc., has made me not want to engage at all in anything related to enhypen or kpop anymore. this also has to do with how kpop and the way the industry works in general, and as i mature, i just feel myself growing more and more less fond and interested in it. maybe i’ve grown out of it too, which is okay as well! it happens, and im still so grateful to the music taste i have/had that helped me throughout my teenage years.

i want to take a critical step back from enville, engenes, and all of my accounts right now to help clear my head. i will always love enhypen and the boys and all the memories i have of them. i hope to come back to a better environment and to be truly happy — although this is just wishful thinking. i wish you all happiness as well :)