Thoughts from this morning
12/31/2017
I'm going through it, my mind is in a constant battle with my  heart.
My mind is constantly reminding my heart of the hurt and my heart is constantly beating to forget it... My mind wont let it. My mind could never forget it.
I need time to repair. I never really sat down and sorted out what exactly the hurt is. This morning when I woke up, I sat for a minute and really thought. It’s people in my life that I miss. People that iI have fallen out with that i still love. Â
I know in my heart that this type of hurt will always be there unless I fix these Fall outs. I feel its okay to apologize even if i wasn't  wrong in the first place. I know just making peace with my past will cure my heart from the hurt. I want to say from now on its no more falling out and no more cutting off. I love every single person that I have contact with. Whether it be old friends , family, ex-girlfriends, animals, or whoever. Even if you cut me off and don’t talk to me i’ll reach out and get back right with you.. I still love you. I hope you can forgive me for all I have done and on my behalf, I am sorry. Its no excuses to my selfish actions back then. I am growing and changing and teaching principles that I am learning as I type this too you guys. I am not perfect as I was never created to be perfect I was created with love to give love. Deep. Very Deep. I got this compassion in me but its not for me its for you guys.. My heart goes out to those of you struggling with hurt from love. Sometimes you feel like holding back love from others because of your past and that is not right. Trust issues is not okay to have. Love fearlessly. No matter what curve ball life throws at you in this world, That's the key.You must love endlessly. Our creator loves us no matter what . We have been making chaos in this world from day 1, And we are still here able to live and do what we want. Everyday is another chance. This next year i need you guys to think about what that hurt is and repair it. Find that hurt and shred it.
2018 I will love fearlessly. That is how I will cure the hurt. I feel like it will work for meÂ













