For Who You Are - Jax Teller (Part #1)
Part #1
Jax x Fem!Reader!Knowles
Tara x Sister!Reader
Warnings: SOA, angst
Word count: 2,468
Summary: Being Tara’s younger sister who stayed in Charming and you have feelings for Jax. Only Opie and Gemma know about it. Y/n never had a problem with the club or what they do. Unlike her sister.
Authors Note: There’s a part 2 to this and it’s already done!
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“Hey Baby.” Gemma greeted as Y/n walked into the TM office.
“Hey Gem. How’s he doing?” Y/n greeted back before asking about the broken hearted boy.
“Not any better. Unfortunately.” Gemma sighed.
“I don’t get it. She hates everything about him. She hates everything he cares about and loves. So why does he love her?” Y/n shook her head furious that her sister had done this to Jax.
“I wish I knew. Your sisters a bitch sweetheart. No offense.” Gemma sneared when she mentioned Tara.
“None taken. She is a bitch.” Y/n scoffed hating her sister for hurting her friend.
“Baby, I know you like him. Hell, you might even love him. Why don’t you tell him?” Gemma smiled knowingly.
“He chose Tara and now he’s broken over her. It’s to soon for him and he wouldn’t want me anyway.” Y/n shook her head sadly looking down.
“You’d be good for him.” She tells the girl she view’s as a daughter.
Y/n nodded in agreement but frowned at Gemma’s words. “I agree. But he doesn’t want me.”
“Have you asked him that?” Gemma raised a brow.
“I don’t have to.” Y/n drugs sadly before leaving the office to go to the clubhouse and go wake Jax and distract him for a while.
Y/n made her way through the clubhouse and back to the dorms, getting greetings on her way through. Y/n opened Jax’s dorm room door and saw him in bed.
Y/n ran and jumped on his bed right next to him. “Rise and shine blondie.”
“Go away.” Jax groans grumply and hungover.
“Not a chance.” Y/n shake’s her head not letting him sulk. “So what do you wanna do today?”
“Drink. Smoke.” He grumbled into his pillow.
“Nope. You're not doing either today.” Y/n shook her head, yanking his pillow away.
“Why the fuck not?” Jax questioned, annoyed that she wanted to ruin his plans.
“Because you're going to kill your liver and lungs. And I’m not ready for you to die. So get up.” Y/n stated getting off the bed and pulling the cover’s off of him.
“You're annoying. You know that?” Jax says as he moved to sit at the side of his bed.
“But you love me. So get your ass dressed.” Y/n gets up to leave him to it.
“Y/n.” Jax calls out, stopping her from leaving.
“Hmmm?” Y/n turn’s back to look at him with a hum.
“I do love you, so thanks.” Jax told her with sincerity in his eyes.
“You're welcome.” Y/n smiled at him but she thought in her head ‘if only he loved me like I love him’.
Y/n distracted Jax for week’s like that. Taking him out and doing things to distract him from his hurting heart. They had been friends Y/n, Jax and Opie since they were 8 years old and Y/n was 7. The 3 being as close as they could be.
Y/n had had a crush on Jax since she was 13 and everyone thought the two were gonna end up together in highschool. Till Tara decided to have a bitch phase and a bad boy phase. She decided to start pushing herself on Jax. Her own sister's crush. It broke Y/n’s heart but if that's who Jax wanted then she would say nothing and stand by her friend. Everyone was pissed at Tara and Jax, having known Y/n and Jax liked each other and how close they were to ending up together. Then not.
Even if it broke Y/n’s heart she was gonna stand by Jax, and she did it for Jax. Not Tara. As far as Y/n was concerned tara could go fuck herself. The two were never close, they had very different views on the world and people. For example Tara hate’s the club and to Y/n it’s family. If Y/n didn’t hate Tara before she sure did now. Tara used Jax to fulfill a bad boy phase and then left him. Like he was nothing.
Spending all this recent time with Jax was really nice and Y/n enjoyed it, but it also made her heart clench. Because she knew it would never be more than this. Friends.
He chose tara over her once. He’d never chose her, he had the opportunity to and passed her up for her sister. So Y/n had given up hope of getting together with him.
But all the time the two were spending together and the smile back on Jax’s face caught everyone’s attention.
Opie decided he needed to talk to Jax about it. Not wanting to see Y/n hurt again.
“Hey man. Can we talk?” Opie asked while they were working in the garage it had been a slow day for TM so Ope thought it was a good time as any to have a talk with his friend.
“Yeah.” Jax answered, wiping his hands off on a rag.
“How’s shit been?” Opie questioned as they took a seat at the picnic tables, lighting up a smoke.
“Better.” Jax spoke, letting out a puff of smoke.
“Y/n got anything to do with that?” Opie said knowingly but he wanted to hear what Jax would say.
“Yeah. She’s been helping keep me busy. My mind off shit.” Jax nodded, a small smile appearing on his lips thinking about the Y/h/c-ed girl.
“She’s always been to good to be our friend.” Opie nodded back in agreement.
“Ain’t that the truth.” Jax let out an airy laugh.
“But she cares for us. All of us. She view’s the club as family. Love’s all of us.” Opie knew it was obvious as to what he was hinting at. Or at least that he was hinting to something in general. He wasn’t being very subtle.
“What’re you getting at Ope?” Jax squinted at him suspiciously.
“She understands the club, the life, us. All of us. Y/n seems to be helping you move on.” Opie stated to his brother dropping his cigarette and stomping it out.
“So? What’re you trying to say?” Opie was just stating fact’s so Jax was confused as far as to why he was bringing this all up now.
“Just that it might be more than it looks like.” Opie shrugged, Jax needed to come to that conclusion all on his own. They could hint but he needed to figure out what he wanted.
Opie went back to changing the oil on one of the cars that had come in. Leaving Jax to himself and his thoughts on what Opie had said.
Jax thought on it for a long while before he decided he needed to talk to someone about what his thoughts had concluded to, and who better than his mother who seems to know everything. Or at least she had better relationship advice than the men of the club.
“Hey, baby.” Gemma greeted her son as he stood by the door of the office.
“Hey, man. Can we talk?” Jax asked, looking at her, and the confusion on his face about whatever it was he wanted to talk about was urgent on his mind.
“Of course, hun. What's going on in that head of yours?” Gemma set the files she was looking over aside and gestured for him to come in and sit down.
“I, I don’t know. Opie mentioned some stuff and now I just can’t stop thinking about parts of it.” He mentioned as he sat down across from his mom in one of the client chairs.
“What's on your mind?” Gemma asked, giving him her full attention, curious as to what this could be about.
“Y/n.” Jax stated his friend's name with a sigh.
“What about her?” She raised a brow inturged.
“Opie, mentioned some stuff and it got me thinking.” Jax furrowed his brow.
“Thinking about what, baby?” Gemma encouraged him to continue.
“She’s always there, even when I don’t want her there.” He huffed out.
“You mean when you think you don’t want her there.” Gemma smirked knowingly as she corrected him.
“She doesn’t try to change me or take me away from the club.” Jax thought out loud, wanting to get his thoughts out.
“Y/n’s family and she sees us as the same.” She nodded along watching him closely.
“She support’s all my decisions and tells me off when they're stupid and reckless.” He laughs, shaking his head with a small smile on his lips. Y/n was the only one who got through to him when he was being reckless and changed his mind.
“She looks out for your best interest.” Gemma concludes for him. She got up and approached her son leaning against the front of the office desk and crossed her arms. “Baby, I think you know all you need to know. You just never put the pieces together. And you’ve never thought about how you feel about her, how you feel around her, how you treat each other. I think you know what you truly want, baby. Go get it and don’t let it slip through your fingers.” Gemma patted his shoulder and left him to think over her words. Everyone seemed to be doing that to him today.
Jax sat there for a while just thinking everything over. While he sat there he realized a lot of things and what broke him from his thoughts was seeing the girl occupying his brain walk past the window to the office. Jax got up and rushed out the door.
“Y/n!” Jax called out upon setting his eyes on her as she was heading to her car to leave for the day. Luckily catching her in time.
“Hey Jax, what’s up?” Y/n looked at him trying to decipher the emotions on his face since he rushed over to her so urgently.
“Where are you going?” Jax asked with worry and confusion in his eyes.
“I’m off work now, Jax. My shift is over. You okay?” Y/n tilted her head looking at him with concern she reached up to place the back of her hand to his forehead then cheek checking for a fever.
“Uh, yeah. I think so anyway. What are your plan’s for the rest of the day?” He nodded, taking her hand from his cheek, he appreciated her concern for his well being.
“Go home. Eat. Maybe take a nap and watch some t.v.” Y/n shrugs her shoulders, did it really matter she was going home Y/n thought.
“Can I join you?” Jax would rather talk with her somewhere that's not the club, where they could be alone.
“Uh yeah sure. You know you're always welcome Jax. You don’t have to ask.” She shook her head confused at how he was acting.
“I’ll meet you there.” he smirked, letting go of her hand.
“Okay see you soon.” Y/n raised an eyebrow at his odd behavior but went with it.
Y/n got into her car and left the TM lot heading home and hopefully later find out why Jax is acting weird.
“Ma-” Jax walked over to Gemma who cut him off already knowing what he was gonna ask.
“You can go. It’s been slow anyways.” Gemma had an idea of what he wanted to leave and be off work for. So she supported it completely.
“Thank’s.” Jax smiled looking over to his bike to leave and hopefully the next time he was there things would be different between him and a certain y/h/c-ed woman.
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“Come in!” Y/n called out from her kitchen as she heard a knock on the door. She hadn’t locked the door knowing Jax wouldn’t be that far behind her.
“Y/n?” Jax called out as he entered looking around for her.
“Kitchen!” She yelled, getting out a coke and a beer from her fridge for them to drink.
“We need to talk?” Jax said, taking the beer she handed out to him.
“Okay? About what?” Y/n questioned, confused even more as she took a sip of her soda.
“Nothing bad.” He tried to reassure her.
“That's reassuring.” She gulped turning to place her soda can on the counter behind her. “What’s up?” Y/n turn’s to face him and Jax just cup’s her cheeks and kisses her on the lip’s.
“Woah, with Jax-. I-I what are you doing?” Y/n stuttered pulling away from him enough to stop the kiss, shocked as to why it happened.
“Kissing you? Showing you how I feel. I couldn’t find the words to start so. . . “ Jax furrowed his brow in confusion, the kiss was pretty clear to him.
“Jax, you don’t feel this way about me, and I’m not a rebound kind of girl.” Y/n sighed casting her gaze away from him sadness was all anyone would see in her eye’s.
“What do you mean I don't feel that way about you? And I know you're not.” Jax didn’t understand why she thought he was lying.
“I’ve always been around Jax and you have never chosen me before. Not for this kind of thing.” She shook her head with a grimace.
“That's not true-”
Y/n pulled out of his grasp with a scoff. “Jax! You chose my sister over me. Everyone saw us growing closer and thought we were gonna get together. Hell, so did I. But Tara showed interest and that was all ended. . . You had a chance to choose me and you didn’t . So tell me if you're serious like you say, what’s changed?”
“I took my head out of my ass.” Jax understood where she was coming from. They were growing close and then Tara came along and ruined everything, but Jax would also take the blame for that because he let tara come between them. “Y/n, I’m sorry it seems like I want you as a rebound and I’m sorry for setting you aside for someone I never truly even cared about. I’ve loved you since we were kids and I’m an idiot for waiting so long.”
“I agree. You're an idiot.” Y/n nodded in agreement, still not looking at him.
“Did I wait to long and lose my chance? Because I love you Darlin. All of you for you.” Jax pleaded, hoping he didn’t lose her.
“I love you for who you are, Jax. I always have.” Y/n looked up at him directly in the eyes and she sighed. “No you didn’t lose your chance but-”
“I won’t waste it. That’s a promise.” Jax smiled the biggest he feels he ever has. She was giving him a chance, a chance he does not plan on wasting.
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