#classycoles

happy mid autumn to you too!! 

my ma tried to go see the moon but we live in the middle of trees and we are Too Short but!! we got a whole box of mooncakes! unfortunately there are only me and my ma at home rn so we’re like ?? what to do?? so we sent a pic to our family group chat and my sister (currently in dorms) demanded i play messenger to give her some, while my dad (currently on other side of ocean) sent back an edited picture of all the mooncakes with a bite out of each one… that sums up my family,

(they were weird mooncakes though, i ate one that was curry flavoured? and then i accidentally bit into a red bean one except i Very Dislike red beans so yikes)

DUDE I’M LITERALLY ALWAYS HERE TO TALK ABOUT FF/XV thanks for being brave friendo!!

(i gotta be honest with you though, i don’t think i’m at the point where i ship luna with anybody romantically—except maybe nyx though i haven’t. found the courage to watch kings.glaive yet so i’m a shAM—b/c i see her more as an?? older sister?? or maybe i’m still trying to figure out how to explore her character, idk.)

BUT i have seen some prom/tis/luna content and it’s. so impossibly sweet. i think dynamic-wise, they do work out, i mean. noctis, honey, you have a type. but also prompto and luna love indulging noct?? imagine noct and prompto making luna laugh! the three of them hanging out in the gardens, luna sketching the boys while they spray each other with water guns! luna and prompto falling asleep on noct’s shoulder. prompto and luna going on long walks into the outdoors and coming back hand in hand with so many pictures to share with noct! noct and luna planning a surprise trip and kidnapping prompto to go see the sunrise. 

thank you

its not about chapter 23, which is honestly and possibly one of the most enjoyable parts of cat to write so far (second only to the “glass” chapter set) but just

I’ve made so many mistakes in cat, so many, and im only now realizing them all at once and its hitting me so hard

I’m 24 chapters into my draft and I can’t change it. I can’t do anything about it anymore. the time to change the writing of cat is past and it kills me and I dont want to feel all of this now when im so, so close to an ending and I feel so bad that ive done this essentially to myself

but I cant just stop, can i? I have the obligation to myself and to others to finish the story and I want to but im freaking out so much, I cant imagine myself finishing when all my mistakes are glaring me in the face

you know, as an author you want your world to be popular, for whatever reason it may be, and its not selfish to want that success but now I can’t help but wonder if its okay that cat gets any popularity when so much is wrong with it

I know im being way hyper critical of my own work, and that all creators are, but its so hard for me to separate myself from that criticism right now. I’ll get over it, I always do, but its just,,,,, its so heavy on my heart now, I love cat and I cant help but wish I had just done it right from the start no matter how irrational it is to expect things to always be right

I guess what I’m trying to say that right now I kind of wish the story of cat had been written by someone else and had been written right and I know its wrong of me to say because im probably not doing EVERYTHING wrong but it’s,,,,, it feels like so much, like im letting everyone down and im tricking people into thinking im clever when im not

bfjkzjzjx thank you for reading 💞💞💞 This is gonna sound sappy and u definitely didnt ask for sap but its always been my goal as an author to inspire people the way others have inspired me, and its wonderful to know I /have/ done that. I’m so thrilled to know you’re writing because the world always needs more things to read; I cant wait to see what you come up with 😄😄😄

leave:

They don’t treat you worse than when you were back there, but then again, what do you know? They leave you enough money to survive and bring you gifts on the few occasions they return to the house. They give you a new name, but no commands follow. It takes you months to understand that no commands will ever follow.

from a wip titled “prompto manifesto” aka my take on what if prompto’s MT background is more prominent than presented in the game

and i can’t find anything with the other two words :((( wow indeed considering all of these wips are gay as frick,,

pudding u r hurting me physically thri these words u have written i love them and i love this!!! so much