For those days you don't want your anxiety to eat you alive maybe this look is relatable. It's not a full color art piece but I'm adding this to #claircolorsproj52 I feel like this today. #porg #doodles

I've been missing out on my weekly postings so I'm back! It's my version or a self-portrait since I had a haircut and when I'm at home that is what I wear. Here i go again with random greens and gold lines. But part of me feels like I've been in a phase of doodling leaves and flowers because I might want to keep on seeing natural beauty and growth as much as I can. It's just that for some reason I just got myself boxed in real badly in my own mind. And it was (and sad to admit, still is) full of grief, anger, sadness, self-blame, etc. I have to admit that it has made me reluctant to go out and socialize unless it's for specific things and with specific people only because I get extra anxious. Sometimes even with people I already know, I get very anxious about talking with them especially if they ask me how I am. It's much easier to talk about my fandoms, my dog, and things that are outside of me. Certain things and dates trigger the anxiety worse than others. But I'm trying to deal, slowly. But I'm at least trying harder nowadays. For those who have been sticking around, I'm so sorry for not being open because I just couldn't bring myself to be like my older self. But also thank you because you're not pushing me too hard to go out either. For those who have only met me in the last two years or so, well, now you know a little bit something more about me now. It's still not the entire picture but I try. It's some kind of therapy for me, this weekly posting, remember? Talking a little bit about me each time. Thanks for reading this wall of text because I don't always do this. #claircolorsproj52 #watercolor #illustration