#city18

As if I ever get lost here.

Right: Me eating the fish burger after the night in Yellow. 

Ufak bir notta Hollandali amcamiza yazayim. Kaldigim konukevinin sahibi, hollanda da %50 vergi verdigi icin taylanda gelmis ve her sey cok guzel ve ucuzmus burda. Kendisi bence oldukca iyi bir insan. Cinlilerden nefret ediyor. Saglam savusturdu onlara. Net insanlari seviyorum. Ama katilmadigim dogrudur kendisine. Allaha emanet hostel isletiyor hafif, ve bilmem kacinci kadiniyla evli. Taylandlilar cok iyi diyor (mesela esi) ve hakli bence. Benim tarzim degil, ama selam ola.

    "River, wake up." Jason said shaking her softly.     River yawns groggily as she sits up. She looks around and notices she is on the roof. "I fell asleep again. didnt I?" she asks turning to Jason. River is a very small girl. She is only about 5'0" at the most. She is extremely skinny and flat. She has long red hair the comes past her shoulders. She has beautiful emerald eyes. Despite her very small and child like appearance, she is eighteen. Some things that happened to her in her childhood prevented her from growing quite properly.     "You have fallen asleep up here every night for the past two weeks. Why dont you want to sleep at my place?" Jason asks looking at her worriedly. Jason has light light brown hair, Green eyes, kind of tanned because he was from Southern California. He is about 6'0" and he is fairly muscular due to his time in the army.     Jason has been River's caretaker for the past few weeks. Kat's death and Connor leaving affected River pretty badly. She hasn't left this little roof since Connor left. Connor intrusted Jason with the care of River just before he left. Jason may be a pretty tough guy but he seems to have a soft spot for River. That or he is just kind despite his appearance.     "I'm fine. I just like it up here. I feel safer." River says sighing and putting her head between her knees as she pulls them up to her chest.     "You feel safer on a roof? You know someone could come up here at any time, right?" Jason asks chuckling a little bit.     "Not safe from them. Just safe from.... everything." River says turning her head slightly towards him. "As long as I can see the moon then I am ok."     "I never understood your weird obsession with that thing." He says looking up at the sky.     "You wouldn't. The only person who did was Kat." River says moving her head back into the possision it was before.     "Right." He says sighing at the mention of Kat. "Well I need to go help out with Lambda for a bit. Will you be ok here?"     "I'll be fine." she says without looking up.     Jason smiles then he gets up and goes inside through the nearby window. He walks to where a few of his comrades are stationed outside of a large warehouse.     "Hey, Jason!" one of the guards says as he passes him. He gives him a wave and a smile and walks into the warehouse. Inside the warehouse many lambda members are hard at work rationing out food and stocking up on ammo for an upcoming raid.     "Hey, Andy." Jason says walking up to one of them who seems to be overseeing everything.     "Hey, Jason. How are things going with the girl?" Andy asks nodding in his direction then getting back to work.     "Better. She is starting to talk more and more. Although, after a little while of talking to me she normally just shuts me out suddenly for no reason." Jason responds sighing.     "At least she is talking. When you first started taking care of her two weeks ago she never spoke a word to anyone." Andy says continuing to watch everyone work closely.     "I guess you're right. It must really be hard for her though." Jason sighs as he leans against the wall.     "She was close to Connor and Kat, right?" Andy asks still without looking at Jason.     "Extremely. Connor and Kat were basically all she had. Her life has been pretty tough since the beginning but I doubt this is like anything she has had to deal with before. Other than the death of her mom I guess." Jason responds     "Really?"     "Yeah. Connor told me a lot about her before he left. I still don't understand that weird obsession she has with the moon." Jason says pushing himself off the wall. "I'd better stop slacking off and get to helping though." He walks over to where they are organizing weapons and ammunition and begins helping them out.     River continues to sit on the roof in silence for a couple hours until it becomes night time and the moon starts to roll out. She looks up at the moon and smiles. It is almost full tonight.     "Good to see you again." She says staring at the moon. "I wish he would let me sleep all day so I don't have to go through the day without you. You make me feel a lot better. Well, all of you. I know that as long as I can see you I'm not alone. I just have to be without you for a little while. Kat once told me that just because I can't be with you right now doesn't mean I'm alone. I just need to be patient and wait for the day when we can talk face to face. Just like we used to. We can make constellations and stare at the stars all day. That would be great. Everything is kind of alright here. I mean it is realy loud but barable. Jason also won't stop trying to talk to me. Sometimes I mistake him for Connor and talk but then I remember he isn't. He is just protecting me because he was told to." She pauses for a moment staring at the moon happily. "I'm kind of running out of things to say so I'll just sing that song you taught me for now." River begins humming a simple song as she closes her eyes and remembers when her mother taught her the song. She smiles remembering her mother's warm gaze and she tries to replicate the feeling of her hug by wraping her arms around herself. Then she remembers Evie and Kat. Her two true friends that she had. "One day, I'll be able to see you all again." She says when she is done humming the song.     "Why don't you talk to me that much?" River turns around to see Jason sitting in the window behind her smiling. She sighs and turns back around to stare at the moon without saying another word. "Come on. I need to show you something." Jason says climbing back in the window and motioning for her to follow. River ignores him and stares at the moon. "River, if there is anyone you can trust here it is me. Just please come with me. If you don't like it you can come right back to this roof and I won't bother you anymore."     "Fine..." River mumbles. She gets up and walks to the window behind her. Jason holds out his hand and she takes it then steps through the window. Jason smiles as she removes her tiny fingers from his grasp. "What do you want to show me?"     "You'll see." Jason says as he turns around walking to the door. He opens it and moves to the side holding it open for her. He turns and sees she is in the same spot and he sighs. "Are you coming?"     "Yeah..." she says as she walks forward through the door and waits for him on the other side. He walks through the door after her and continues to the right looking over his shoulder every few seconds to make sure she is behind him. They eventually reach a small apartment building and they walk inside. They walk past the desk then up the stairs and eventually reach a room. He opens the door for her again and she walks inside and looks around at the room. "What is this?"     "This is where you'll be staying if you want." He says smiling. "You have a nice bed right there that isn't torn up and moldy like most are." He says pointing to a seemingly new bed. "You also have a big window with a perfect view." He says pointing to the window. River runs up to the window and looks out at the moon and a huge smile grows on her face. Jason picks up a chair and walks up to her then set it down behind her. "A chair for maximum comfort while you look at the stars." River sits down staring around at the room in awe.     "This is amazing!" She says now turning her gaze to the moon.     "But wait, there's more!" Jason says in a commerical-like voice. "Be right back. Stay here." Jason turns and runs out of the room in exitement.     "Uhm... alright." she says slightly confused by the commercial joke. She continues to stare at the moon in awe until he runs back inside holding some odd object. He sets the object right next to her and smiles exitedly. The object is a weird tube like thing with one end much smaller and sticking up. It is held up by three legs and has glass in the larger end of the hollow cylinder. "What is that?" she asks completely perplexed by the odd object.     "It is a telescope!" Jason responds. "Have you never seen one before?"     "Uhm... no...." she says poking the glass. "What does it do?"     "Well, long before the combine attacked there were people who loves looking at the stars as much as you do. They made this device to make viewing stars and planets and the moon much more easily." He says turning the telescope towards the moon. "You just look in this end here and you can see everything much bigger!"     "Really?" River ask exitedly. She gets up and sticks her eye on the eye piece and then screams in exitement. "Woah!!!!! It is huge!!!!!" She proclaims with joy.     "I told you. Awesome, right?" Jason says smiling as he watches River get so exited.     "This is amazing!!!!" She yells as she takes her eye away from the eye piece and jumps up and down exitedly. "I love it so much!!!!!!"     "Well, it is yours." Jason says with a smile wider than he has shown in a long time.     "Seriousy?" River asks looking from the telescope to him. "Are you sure you are willing to part with this?"     "Yeah." Jason laughs "I actually made it just for you."     "Thank you so much, Mr. Jason!" she yells and jumps up wrapping her arms around his waist and hugging him tightly.     "You can call me 'Jason'." He says smiling as she continues to hug him tightly. After a few minutes she releases him. Jason walks to the door and pauses just before he reaches it. "Good night, River." He says smiling.     "Good night.... Jason."